Authors note: Based on a true story from the past week or so and I hope you enjoy it. Don't own any of the characters. Only Rose Potter. Everyone else belongs to themselves.

Synopsis: Lily's world is falling apart and al because of one stupid little dream that somehow seems to be common knowledge to all Hogwarts students by the end of the week…

Lily's POV

I can't believe I told him! I was so stupid!! Why couldn't I just leave it as it was? We were chugging along so nicely, he was my friend, I was his and then my overactive imagination had to go fuck things up!! Then again I really like him and everything so what do I do? Do I runaway and join the Foreign Legion? Hideaway forever? Not return to Hogwarts? Now that last one is just daft! I couldn't leave Hogwarts- he isn't worth that surely. Listen to me! I care what a man thinks of me? I'm willing to never see someone again just because I'm worried what they'll say to me and shit! Well my whole little world has been turned upside down, since when do I care what anyone thinks of me? Then I have this nagging voice in the back of my head that tells me that I do care what James thinks of me. I can't stop thinking about him, but maybe that's just the dream, I can't write back to Kirsty now, she'll go sick at me for not listening to her advice! I can't face him now! Oh god what if he tells Jackie? Jackie is this girl he's known forever, like since he was born and they are really close almost like brother and sister. When there together they can be a bit bitchy sometimes and what if they start doing that about me, I'm quite nervous about that, facing them especially if they've been bitching about me behind my back. What am I saying? He won't tell Jackie, probably ashamed.

He is so nice. Handsome. Funny. Sexy-

Hang on, I just said he was sexy, it's the dream, and you're still thinking about it, that's all.

I'm now downstairs, watching something useless on the TV, morning cartoons or something and I just can't think straight now, I want to forget about it, I wish I'd never had the dream, then again half of me wants that dream to come true so badly. I can't stop thinking about his hands and how they should be searching over my back, stop it Lily, and stop it. It's the dream talking still- it has to be.

'Lily, are you watching this?'

Harry had appeared at my side in his Thomas the Tank engine pyjamas wiping sleep tiredly out of his eyes

'No, I guess I'm not,' I replied in a bored tone and handed him the remote unconsciously aware of doing so.

'Good because there's this new show on this new channel, BBC 2 its brand new and everything,' Harry jabbered on, switching through the three TV channels expectantly.

'I'm going in the bath,' I moaned and wandered upstairs, not really wanting a bath just wanting to do something that would take my mind of James. I couldn't see how me getting undressed down to my bra and knickers would stop me thinking of James but I had to do something without the rest of the family knowing I wasn't feeling a hundred percent. I ran the bath quickly and slipped into it, carefully removing my bra and knickers but I still couldn't stop thinking about James' and his lips floating around my neck.

'Damn it James,' I cursed, running my hands through my dark red wet hair 'please just leave me alone,'

But you don't want to stop thinking about him, do you?

There's that snide voice again

Do you? You want to remember every imaginary kiss and every dream hold and every sex interlude-

'Hang on,' Lily said out loud to herself 'I've never dreamt of having sex with him!'

Yes but you always wake up before I can get that far for you, the snide voice said again and Lily realised that the snide voice was in fact her imagination running away from her again.

AN: Please Read and Review! Back to School next chapter and awkwardness ensues for Lily…