Authors Note: Thanks Erin!! You're the best! Don't own the characters as much as I'd love to.

Lily was coaxed out of the house and was on her way to Kings Cross with Remus and Kirsty; silence crept between them all like a bad bout of flu and it wasn't till Kirsty hopped of the tube that she said

'You told him didn't you?'

Lily froze

'I had to Kirsty,' Lily whined 'it felt like I was lying to him if I didn't tell him and now I'm so nervous on speaking to him when we get back.' Kirsty sighed, looking at her friend sympathetically.

'Well you'll have to speak to him now, you have to organise the dance together, and oh god Lily don't look over there,' Kirsty added hastily and had stopped momentarily in her tracks and retreated to hiding behind Remus, Remus looked at her sceptically and then to where she was looking.

Lily automatically glanced over to where Kristy deliberately told her not too.

'Shit,' Lily said softly then turning to Kirsty quickly 'lets go the other way,'

'May I ask?' Remus said mildly as they climbed up the deliberately wrong exit 'what was that all about?'

'We saw James,' Lily mumbled as they climbed up into the blinding April sunlight that was occupying the streets of London at the minute 'and he was with er-'

'He was with Jackie, the girl everyone thinks he's dating and vice versa,' Kirsty explained quickly 'c'mon Lily, we'll get to the station and then maybe you can talk to him,'

'Don't think so Kirst,' Lily said automatically 'I can't,'

Lily had to talk to him.

Kings Cross station was as full as usual and the second Lily saw James she made an abrupt sharp turn in the other direction, but Kirsty and Remus pulled her back round.

'Excuse me we avoided him at the tube station so this is no different,'

'No Lily,' Kirsty said sternly 'that was a one of you have to talk to him, clear the air,'

Lily tried desperately to avoid him and managed to successfully sneak past him and through the barrier without him noticing her, though she had a small feeling that Jackie had noticed her.

'See,' Kirst said happily 'it wasn't that painful now was it?'

'Yeah because he didn't see me,' Lily pointed out grudgingly

'You Miss Evans are going to have to talk to him sooner or later and the sooner the better,' Kirsty said firmly dragging her friend of onto the train, Kirsty gave Remus a quick kiss and asked him to bring James to their compartment as soon as possible. Lily nearly strangled Kirsty as she heard these words.

James was still in the same situation as last week and was deeply concerned on how Lily would now act around him; this could screw their whole friendship up if hadn't already done so.

'James, did you see her?' Jackie White demanded, her light brown hair floating about her shoulders

'Who?'

'Lily, she walked past you, you didn't see her?'

'Well its not like I want to run into her at the minute is it?' James said indignantly doing his shoelace

'James, I think she's a bit weird, she might become obsessed with you or worse try to destroy our friendship.' Jackie urged, Sirius had now joined them looking rather cheery and had put his arm round Jackie and gave her a quick hug.

'What are you so happy about?' Jackie said puzzled

'I got money,'

'We know that,' Jackie grumbled 'you've never stopped flashing it around,'

'Well I also now have a down payment on an apartment in the east end and plan to invite you all round once I get it properly,' Sirius said happily 'and anyway seen Lily yet?' he added to James, James shrugged and pointed out that he wanted to avoid her just as much as she most probably wanted to avoid him.

The train ride was almost uneventful and peaceful, Lily thought but the peace was disturbed dramatically when the train neared Hogsmeade station. Remus had finally persuaded James to talk to Lily even though he wasn't sure how to talk to her.

'Lily, he's here, he wants to talk to you,' Kirsty said quickly, Lily looked up from the book she had been reading and snapped it shut, it happened to be Alice in Wonderland which she read whenever she was sad or upset. It was classed as her security blanket and she was going to keep it especially close over the next few hours.

'Hi Lily,' James mumbled, Kirsty then left swiftly with Remus leaving Lily and James well enough alone. Lily ran her hands over her face and moaned quietly into them, she distinctly mumbled

'Please go away, leave me alone,'

James looked at her for a second, feeling the burning in his cheeks, she wouldn't try to kiss him would she? Now James knew he was being ridiculous.

'Look about the letters, I just don't see you that way and-' James began, god this was awkward.

'I know and I want to forget the whole think,' Lily grumbled tossing her dark red hair out of her face 'but can you accept that I like you, and still be friends?'

'I want to be friends,' James said quickly 'its just in all honesty it came as a bit of a shock, I was in the bath when you sent it,'

'Right then, so we're okay then?' Lily managed in a numb sort of voice and hoped beyond hope that the train would hurry up and reach its destination already.

'We're fine, friends,' with that James left and as she walked back along the corridor Jackie flew out of one of the compartments, her arms folded and already in her Hogwarts robes.

'So is she trying to split us up?' Jackie said sternly 'I mean we're not together, she's so weird,'

'Jackie I didn't get round to that,' James insisted, he looked momentarily out the window and said 'we're here by the looks of things,'

AN: Please Read and Review, more Lily's pov next chapter.