Authors Note: This will be from Lily and James' point of view, and James has a long conversation with Sirius that might just push James into doing the thing that was right all along and go on a date with Lily Evans. 

Now I'm very confused and even more embarrassed than before. James had kissed me, on the cheek but it was still the same thing surely and now he feels the same way or is he winding me up, playing along for Jackie or something. He did mention that he had wanted my dream to continue but that would've meant in my dream I would've slept with him and he practically said he wanted that too.

Fuck, I've really screwed things up; he doesn't like me and made it perfectly clear in the letter so why was he now having a change of heart? He's just playing me, I  thought, he hadn't changed one bit. He was still as arrogant as ever, he's playing me, and he has to be. I need to speak to him again and I've got a feeling I know exactly where he'll be.

I don't know how I managed to get back up to the school so quickly, I think I was too confused to actually realise I was walking anywhere at all, so let me get this straight.

James didn't like me when I said I liked him which was last week after the dream

Now he is saying he possibly likes me and he wants to meet me tonight, it's everything I've dreamed but I know he is just joking and messing with me so he isn't even my best friend anymore if he is going to mess me around, or is he messing me around. I need Kirsty, where is the cow when you need her. Even though she showed him the letter by accident in divination I guess I can forgive her.

JAMES

James made his way up to the common room to finish of some much needed Arithmancy work for Professor Silistre and since he didn't have to be back in lessons till two thirty he settled himself down at one of the tables by the window overlooking the quidditch grounds. It was empty that afternoon and only a few first years flitted in and out up to their dorm rooms, not knowing what to do with themselves on a free lesson. James was in the middle of scribbling down his name and matching it to Rose Rain when Lily entered the common room looking for him.

'I cleared the air with you,' she said sternly dropping into the seat opposite him 'now it's your turn,'

'All right,' James said fairly 'I like you, a bit,' he added 'not as much as you like me I'm guessing. You've very pretty and, well I think you learnt the lesson today and why I could never go out with you,'

'Really,' Lily said drawing a blank 'what you on about,'

'Well with the dream, that was just a dream an look how much it has fucked up you, me and Jackie, if we started actually dating imagine it,'

Lily looked as though she was considering this for a moment before she answered James.    

'I know that,' Lily said slowly, then smiled 'you think I'm pretty,'

'Of course, I'm surprised you're not going out with someone like Amos or Davy to be honest with you. If I was in a different person then maybe I would go out with you,'

'If you were a different person,' Lily said kindly 'I wouldn't know you would I, so lets say for the sake of argument, if I asked you out then would you say yes,'

James smiled, he wanted to say yes he really did and wanted to stop Lily worrying about him all the time because he knew what she was like and could tell she worried about him, the last quidditch match was just one example. James had fallen of his broomstick or rather was pushed of it by Malfoy and Lily had visited him every day he was in the hospital wing and he had to admit, apart from today he always had fun with her on Thursday afternoons and she was very different to Jackie. For one thing Lily wasn't possessive and James doubted she had it in her to be so, she was a lovely girl so what was stopping him.

'Actually,' James said confident about his answer 'I should ask you out, seeing as I'm the one who's been the royal pain in the arse to you. Now I'll be honest, I don't know where this change of heart came from and I can't promise that…that I'll be…'

'So, now, do you like me or not?' Lily interrupted firmly

'No,' James said sadly, and then with a smile he added 'I usually have to kiss said party to find out,'

'Really,' Lily said, now fully aware that James was telling the truth and she leant over the table to him in a very un-Lily like manner and said 'so do you like me,'

'I'd have to find out,' he grinned and for a brief moment their lips met and Lily felt like she'd died and gone to heaven, if she had known this time last week that this time this week she would be kissing James Potter and having her dreams come true she would've paused this part in her life and recorded it in her memory forever. He was an excellent kisser, Lily found herself thinking although only having had one boyfriend before who had died in the line of duty at the ministry and he hadn't bin too bad but she didn't know what it was that made James so different, all she knew was that there was something different and special in those few seconds that their lips met.

'So, answer?' Lily said anxiously, blushing to the roots of her hair.

'I think that's a yes,' James said grinning and kissed her again, for longer this time.

Lily and James then set about the best way to tell Jackie what Lily had been going through and how she and James were now together, Lily pointed out she'd be less than happy. Soon their next lesson came meaning they had to cut Jackie's letter short and they hadn't written much of it as while Lily attempted to write it heartfelt and kindly James had been trying to kiss her sweetly preventing her from writing more than a few words at a time.

'So what was all that crap about "if we start dating it'll fuck up everything" hmm?' Lily posed to him shrewdly

'That was my nerves and arrogant self talking,' James replied 'anyway, it's not like we're deadly serious about the whole relationship thing yet and we're just dating right,'

'Yeah, I mean I can't fuck things up with Jackie any more than I have done, can I?' Lily said laughing 'so why didn't you like me last week then?'

'Well…' James said slowly 'you sure you want to hear this?' he asked her unsurely

'Of course, clear the air, remember?'

AN: More tomorrow! I have classes now! Bye

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