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Chapter 23: I choose Love

Whenever life seems to drift you away from me, I can't help but cry.

You've grown to be such a part of me that

without you life is no more than a desperate sigh.

They do say love comes and goes, and to that I disagree.

So, here's my hand, take it and don't let go of me.

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Winter is coming soon……, thought Kagome as she sat on the rail of the balcony, the cold breeze blowing her royal blue tempest gown with a gold trim, white satin underskirt and sleeve drops in white chiffon. A man would melt if they saw the sight of her but she only wishes one man to melt his heart with hers. She shook her head.

She doesn't have time to think over silly thoughts, it's time for her to do something important in her life.

She clenched her fist then left her room.

It's time to say Good Bye

She's going to leave for sure…..why else would she feel so confuse or how uncertain she is about whether to be my queen or go with Ryo…………

Inuyasha sighed as he ran his hand on his white tresses.

"I bet she's in the ship right now with a big smile on her face. She's so happy that she is leaving soon…….", he grumbled.

"You killed her Inuyasha………", his father said

"Me? But how could I?"

"You didn't save her in the war! You didn't protect your wife! You let her die!"

Inuyasha has a horrified look on his face. Shock on this turn of events.

"My wife?", Inuyasha looked at the casket.

"Yes, your wife. You both loved each other, got married and you vowed that you will protect her but you didn't. You didn't save her. I saved your mother at the war and she is safe, Kagome shouldn't have died, YOU should die Inuyasha!"

Inuyasha slammed his fist on the living room table. That dream keeps on haunting his mind ever since Ryo arrived. Damnit! That's why he didn't go after her when she went to the pier to see Ryo because he thinks she will be happy with him, his nightmare had been scaring him and he fears that his nightmare might come true. Now that would be a nightmare. That's why….he decided to let her be….

If she wants Ryo then so be it. It's out of his hands now.

"Eh? Why so gloomy Inuyasha? Something wrong?"

Inuyasha looked up and saw Sango was the one talking, along with her was Miroku as usual. These two are always together, he thought and he felt a pang of jealousy but he mentally shook it away from his mind

Sango and Miroku took a seat across from him.

"Is it about Kagome?", Sango asked. Keh! Women…..they somehow know a lot of things without being there. He snapped out of his thoughts when Miroku wacked him with his staff.

"Ow! Watch it you monk!", Inuyasha spat.

"Now now Inuyasha, try to be more calm and rational", said Miroku. Inuyasha noticed the skeptic look that Miroku is giving him.

"What?"

"You have a problem", said Miroku

"Keh! I don't have a problem", Inuyasha denied, though he knows it's stupid to lie to Kagome's friends, especially when his problem is about Kagome herself.

"I know it's about Kagome, so just out with it. We might help you", said Sango as she begged with puppy eyes. Miroku sweat-dropped at her look.

Inuyasha blinked.

"Ok ok ok….fine!"

"Yay! Told ya it would work and you owe me 10 silver coins Miroku", said Sango with a sly grin on her face. Miroku sighed in defeat.

"Yeah yeah yeah…", he said wearily then he gave Inuyasha a look meaning: I BLAME YOU FOR THIS AND YOU OWE ME!

Inuyasha rolled his eyes on Miroku's futile glare. It wasn't scaring him one bit.

"Anyway….so what's the problem?", Sango prodded. Inuyasha had an irritating look on his face. He really didn't want to talk about it but he has no choice since he said he will tell them. What does he have to lose anyway?

Kagome…

Bleh! Whatever! I don't care anymore, I'll just get this thing over with so I could vent out my rage on Kouga's ass.

"I think Kagome is going to leave with Ryo", said Inuyasha

"Why would she?", Miroku asked while Sango was observing Inuyasha.

Inuyasha gritted his teeth in irritation. "Isn't it obvious, she loves him!"

"What makes you so sure?", Miroku asked again. Inuyasha wasn't sure on what to say to that.

"Because she's always with Ryo like right now. She's off to the Pierre to see Ryo again and perhaps leave with him….."

Sango is confuse, is Inuyasha that dumb? Kagome told Sango that Inuyasha could be brainless like Miroku sometimes but even Miroku knows the answer.

"If she loves him so much how come she didn't leave with Ryo 3 years ago?", Sango asked, remembering that Kagome told her that she explained to him about the past between her and Ryo. So obviously Inuyasha should know but for some reason, he doesn't.

"Well because Ryo left her that time, obviously", he answered with a scoff.

Ahhh….so that's why….Kagome you baka, you didn't explain things clearly to him…..

Sango sighed.

"I think there is a misunderstanding here…."

Inuyasha looks confuse. "About what?"

"Let me explain to you on what really happened 3 years ago when Ryo left…."

Inuyasha dashed off to the Pierre with incredible speed that you could almost barely see him pass by, just feel the trail of the wind.

"I hope I'm not too late, damn you Kagome……", he said as he recalled on what Sango told him back at the castle.

Flashback

It is the 24th of December, the day that the Nortolus was finally rebuilt and ready to set sail. And it was the time to bid goodbye to the Shikon Kingdom….

Ryo has a big smile on his face as his eyes fell upon the love of his life, Kagome Higurashi. Wearing her winter clothes as she trudges on the snow to the ship where Ryo is waiting for her. Ryo wrapped his arms around her as he gave a peck on her flushed cheek.

"You're here early, what's the occasion?", Ryo asked then he looked around her, he has a puzzling look on his face.

"Where are your things?"

His eyes widened when he saw a tear from her eye then Kagome quickly wiped it away.

"What's going on Kagome?"

Kagome bit her trembling lip. "I….I can't….go with you…."

Ryo was shocked, he couldn't believe what he was hearing. "What?"

"I can't leave……"

Ryo wanted to smash something, he wanted to scream, he wanted to cry but the only thing he did was smile at her. A sad smile. She couldn't let go and he understood. The same as him, he couldn't let go of his life of being a sailor, to explore the big ocean.

Kagome couldn't hold her tears any longer so she started crying. Ryo embraced her, rubbing her arms as he tried to comfort her.

"I…I'm sorry…..", she sobbed as she cried against his chest.

"Ssssshhhh…..it's okay…..it's gonna be alright…..", he hushed as he embraced her tight for the last time……….

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Kagome watched Ryo from the Pierre as they got ready to set sail. Ryo took a glance at her and their eyes locked to one another. Not knowing when they will see each other again.

"I love you", he said with a big smile. Kagome smiled with tears in her eyes.

"Take care……….", she said

They could hear sounds of whistling and howling from the crew as they watched them with awe and humor. Kagome giggled.

"Take care you guys!", she yelled to the crew.

"It's too bad that you won't be cruising with us Miss Kagome", said one of the sailors.

"All hands on deck you landlubbers!", yelled Harris as the crew scattered to the deck then Harris gave them instructions.

Ryo grinned at them then turned his gaze back to Kagome.

"Watch yourself okay?", said Kagome with a grin on her face.

"Likewise", he replied then he turned to Harris. "Let's go"

Then he went to the steering wheel as the crew pulled the anchor up then they were off at sea.

Kagome watched them until they were out of sight then they were gone. No longer to be seen. Kagome turned around back to the castle as she fought back the tears once more.

End of Flashback

"And you know what, Kagome's mother even let her go to be with Ryo but she still refused. She couldn't leave, not even for Ryo even though she loved him"

Sango's words rang in his head as took on a fast pace to the Pierre.

Kagome please be there………

"Goodbye…..", said Kagome as she gave Ryo a hug for one last time. Ryo embraced her back as tight as he could.

"I'm sure gonna miss you", he said, his voice is shaking from the welled- up emotion inside him. Kagome let out a small laugh.

"So will I….."

They released each other from their embrace then Ryo took off the pendant and handed it to her. Kagome looked at him with a confusing look.

"Take it….it doesn't belong to me anymore….", he said sadly. Kagome hesitantly took it then he hugged her once more.

"Bye", he whispered in her ear then he let go and walked to his ship.

"Let's set sail boys!", he yelled to his crew.

"AYE!"

Ryo looked back at Kagome with a gin on his face. "Tell Inuyasha that he is a lucky bastard!"

Kagome laughed and Ryo winked at her then went to the steering wheel. Minutes later the Nortolus is out of sight, Ryo is out of sight and she is positive that it will be more than 3 years that they will see each other again or maybe never again…..

She sighed.

"It's finally over….."

Then she felt something fell on her head. She placed a hand on her head and realized that it was snow. She looked up at the sky that's raining with snow. She let out a bitter laugh. What a coincidence, the same thing happened from 3 years ago. That's it, she hates winter now, it just gives her sad memories.

She rubbed her arms, trying to gain some warmth. She groaned. She should have brought a coat with her.

Kagome gasped in surprise when she felt something on her shoulders, she looked at her back and her eyes widened. Behind her is the man that she had chosen, Inuyasha. He placed his coat on her then he turned her around. He touched her forehead, her cheeks and her arms as he rubbed them.

"What are you doing?", she blurted out. He gaze at her with such intensity that she flushed, suddenly feeling more warm than cold from the snow.

"You're here…..", he said huskily and Kagome could see the breath of air coming out from his mouth. Kagome blinked, she doesn't know what's going on and Inuyasha's strange behavior is making her nervous.

"Of course I'm here, where else would I be?"

"Why didn't you go?", he asked, ignoring her question. Kagome was shock from the sudden question. She wanted to look away, to look at something, anything except him but she couldn't pull away. She is bound in a spell and she doesn't know the magic words to set her free, or does she?

"Because I have an obligation, I couldn't just leave like that.", she said. It was half the truth anyway besides she wouldn't just confess right away, she needs some reassurance that her decision is right. That she isn't regretting anything on what she had done.

Inuyasha didn't believe what she was saying, she's hiding something from him but he will find out soon enough.

"Okay", he said then he released his hold on her arms. Kagome looked puzzled.

"What?", Inuyasha looked at her strangely.

"I said okay, anyway it's getting cold so we should head back to the castle", he said. Kagome just nodded, not knowing what to say then they both walked back to the castle as her thoughts lingers on one important thing in her life.

I wish you would turn around and say, "I desperately need you." I wish you would say you're sorry because that's all you'd have to do. But most of all I wish you knew how much I need you and how much I really do love you.

Kagome changed into new clothes since her dress got wet from the melted snow. Wearing a green turtle neck with long sleeves made of wool and black pants with socks on her feet. She grabbed the mug of hot chocolate from her desk then she relaxed herself on her bed as she drinks her hot drink.

"Why didn't you go?"

Kagome sighed. "Stupid Inuyasha, can't he see that I stayed because of him…."

"I knew you were lying"

Kagome gasped, almost dropping the contents of her hot chocolate. Inuyasha is standing there on the doorway, giving her a look that says: You're in trouble.

"I-Inuyasha….w-what are you doing here?", she stammered as she carefully placed the mug on the table. She feels extremely nervous under his intense gaze and even more when he closed the door and locked it.

What the hell are you doing!

She wanted to yell it out loud but she couldn't find her voice.

Inuyasha stepped forward towards her until he is just barely inches away from her which isn't really that far.

"How dare you barged in to my room", she said, trying to regain her strength and courage.

"It's my castle"

She didn't have a comeback for that, she sighed. "Why are you here?"

"To know the truth", he replied. Kagome gulped. Oh no, not this again!

"Oh yes this again", as if he was reading her thoughts. "And this time, I'm not leaving until I get some answers. Until I know the truth."

"But it's true, I do have obligations as future queen for this kingdom"

"I thought you wanted out from this engagement?"

He got her again. Damn him!

She sighed. There's no use hiding it any longer. He heard her muttering under her breath.

"Say that again?", he said.

"Because I wanted to stay with you!", she blurted out then she gasped when Inuyasha pushed her to the bed, her back on the bed as Inuyasha is on top of her, his arms on each side of her body as he leaned his face to hers, their noses barely touching one another.

"That's what I wanted to hear", he said huskily then he captured her lips with his. Kagome gasped which gave him the opportunity to slide his tongue into her mouth, tasting her. He kissed her long and deeply, tongue moving into her mouth. Oh god! Kagome can't believe what is happening to her right now, she can't get her mind to work because of the sensual touches his giving her, igniting the fire and passion within her. At first, his lips were gentle but then he became hungry for more and deepened their kiss even more with raw passion, letting out the feelings and desires that he has been controlling for such a very long time. Kagome kissed him back with the same passion. She needs this , she wants this , she had been dreaming about this ever since her feelings for him grew and her dream is finally coming true.

She wounded her arms around his neck, pulling him against her as she deepened the kiss while Inuyasha roamed his hands all over her body, touching her skin under the clothing. She gasped at the sensual touch on her skin. She has never felt something like this before and it feels so good and what's even better is because she's feelings these things with the man she loves.

Low moans and sighs came from her throat and were muffled into his mouth as he ravaged her luscious lips.

Later on they broke off the kiss to catch their breaths. Kagome sighed, she closed her eyes as she tried to calm her breathing and her cheeks were flushed from the passionate kiss they just shared.

She moaned when Inuyasha planted soft kisses on her throat. Nipping, biting and suckling her expose neck while Kagome run her hands on his long hair.

Inuyasha looked up to her face and Kagome could see the love on his face. He caressed her cheek and she leaned in to the touch, gazing at him lovingly, making his heart melt.

"I love you", he murmured. She gasped. She didn't expect him to say it. Those words that she wanted to hear. But he did. She arched forward and kissed his lips softly, biting his lower lip.

"Aishiteru anata….", she said softly, her voice expressing her deep love for him. Inuyasha's lips curved into a genuine and warm smile for her. Only for her.

Kagome looked outside the window.

"I think lunch is ready Inuyasha……"

"Lets eat later….", he murmured as he continued with his sensual actions on her body. Kagome giggled. "You're gonna get hungry soon", she said.

"I have my food right here", he said as he let out a grunt. He wanted to touch her skin but her shirt is blocking from his desires. Kagome gasped when Inuyasha started pulling her shirt up.

"Inuyasha!", she exclaimed as Inuyasha pulled the shirt off from her, revealing her laced bra which enticed his desire and passion for her even more.She shivered at the sudden rush of coldness on her body. Inuyasha covered them with the blankets then he touched her bare skin as he kissed the cleavage between her breasts.

Kagome giggled, feeling ticklish when he did that. "Heehee! Inuyasha…onegai! Mou!"

Inuyasha licked the scar that's between her mounds, ignoring her pleas as he continued kissing her and touching her. He had wanted this for so long, to touch her, to feel her, and most of all...

To love her

And now she belongs to him as he to her, he will never break themselves apart, never. He couldn't stand it when he is not with her.

Kagome sighed, seeing that she couldn't do anything so she just let him do what he wants with her, it's not that she didn't mind anyway. It's just that, it was too fast but she knows everything will be alright from now on since she confessed her love to him and he to her. She let out a sigh of bliss, looking out the window again, seeing the world covered with snow. She grinned.

On second thought, I love winter…..

"Ow! Mou….Inuyasha, stop biting-"

But he silenced her when he crushed his lips to hers and the only thing that could be heard are the blissful and low moans coming out from their mouths as they expressed their love for each other under the blankets.

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NOPE! IT'S NOT OVER!

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