(A/N) Wow, a lot of people reviewed last night. Thank you for those reviews, here's one of my own! "Your fic is nice and all, but couldn't you make the chapters a little longer and have some scenes with actual dialogue in between diary entries? It'd really flesh out the story in my opinion." To which I would think in my head, but never say since it's rude, "Idiot. Doesn't he know that it's supposed to be short entries since I said so in the beginning of the whole story? Probably one of those people who only reads the actual chapter and ignores everything else. If he likes his ideas so much he should just write his own #& fic." But what I would answer in the Q&A section in here would look like this: "Actually, I'm having the story be just diary entries, and since Raven is such a reserved person, I'm having it affect how much she'd actually talk about her own emotions. I don't put in any dialogue-based scenes because I wanted the whole thing to be as if we were reading her diary. Hopefully she won't find out and kill us. ;-)" See? So now, when I answer YOUR questions, you'll have to ask yourself, "is he being straight forward with that answer, or just being nice?" ;-) On to the Q&A! loaned, not really, I'm easy to please; just I like to keep my secrets. They keep people guessing. Elissar, don't worry, I'm probably going by train, and yes, lemon zesters would be fine. That friend of mine is my main collaborator in almost everything. I bounce most of my ideas off of him, he's rubbery, and he gives a good viewpoint on them. And, just what is wrong with steamed snow peas? They're good! Buried Fairy Tale, I don't know if he was or not, this is Raven's diary. ;-) Emerald Venom, in Raven's defense, he asked her out and it was only their first date. Plus she got to slam dunk a jerk, anybody else know how good that feels?
Disclaimer – Top ten things you're likely to never own. 10, Buckingham Palace. 9, a brand new Porsche. 8, me. 7, the Teen Titans. 6, the rights to the Beatles music. 5, every episode of the Simpsons. 4, a politician (it's not that they're not for sale, they're just so expensive.) 3, all the answers. 2, all the CORRECT answers. And, the number 1 thing you're likely to never own….Bill Gates! He owns you.
The Annotated Raven – December 7th
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11:00 a.m.
All the bad mood part of having a bad date showed up yesterday. I would have written about it then, but I just wanted to sulk. I guess Beast Boy noticed, because this morning he asked if I was feeling any better. When I didn't really answer him, I just grunted, he asked if Aqualad had done anything to get fresh.
Half of me wanted to burst into laughter at hearing Beast Boy say something as old fashioned as 'get fresh', and the other half was stunned that he'd noticed and cared what was wrong. Now that it's been a little while since I talked with him, I should have known he would notice and care. He's always been a good friend, with or without his obliviousness.
I told Beast Boy that nothing like that happened and that no one's ever tried. He made me blush by saying how he didn't believe that no one had ever tried. He saw me blushing and added in, "I'd even bet that you'd get more offers than Starfire if people could see under your hood." I think I mumbled a thank you as I tried to pull my hood up. I jumped when he suddenly reached out a hand and stopped me. He just lightly laid his hand on my wrist and said that I should keep it down, and that it made the room look better.
Since I was already blushing, and since he'd already seen it, I kept it down. Then he asked what Aqualad did to get me in such a bad mood. I told him how arrogant and stuck up he had been and Beast Boy laughed a little. He said Aqualad always thinks he's the best, so the people he associates with need to be the best too. He thinks that's why he asked me out. And that was another thing that made me a little red in the face.
But when I asked him why he didn't tell me about that before my date, he stuttered for a little bit and then blurts out, "I didn't think you'd believe me." That was a big slap in the face. Of course, he was right though. Still, I don't like to think of myself as mistrusting, but I guess I am. I told him that I was sorry and he just smiled, his fang poking out like it does, and shrugged it off.
We got called off to our morning training right after that. While I was doing my warm ups, I kept looking over at Beast Boy, he was joking with Cyborg, and I was thinking about everything he had said. It was all really kind or pleasant and caring. I went back through this journal, looking at all the entries that have him in them and I kept finding that kind of stuff over and over again. Even all of his pros are things he does just for me. He treats me like I want someone to, but he does it because he's my friend. How would he treat me if I were his girlfriend?
I don't think I can handle this. I like Beast Boy and I can't get him to notice me, and the only other idea I have is to just straight out tell him. That scares me too much, so I need an alternative. Affection says she's glad I'm giving him another chance. But, to me this doesn't feel like giving him another chance. This feels like I'm trying to get him to give me a chance.
I just realized that this is like what happened with Robin; only I'm not being ignorant about what he's feeling.
I think I know what I'm going to do, well, at least part of what I'm going to do. I'm going to keep trying until he does notice. I won't do anything that looks desperate and I won't just come out and tell him, but I won't quit until he figures it out.
I might ask Cyborg for help, but I don't know if I can trust him with this kind of information. I'll see.
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(A/N) I guess the only thing to say here is flurb. It's a pointless, made up word, but it's fun. Try it. Flurb, flurb, flurb, flurb, flurb.