Summary: A ransom leads to a very long weekend for Walker and Alex
Disclaimer: I do not own them
A/N: First attempt at a Walker fic, be nice
Chapter 23
The late afternoon had turned into night and Walker an Alex sat by the fire nestled into each others arms, enjoying the beautiful starry night.
"You know, this is perfect. I was beginning to think I would never feel warm again, or safe, but I feel safe here in your arms."
"You are always safe with me," Walker replied, brushing a strand of Alex's hair from her face.
Alex sighed with contentment. She felt safe most of the time, but something about the Culliver brothers had made her uneasy, made her feel something she had never felt before, terrified, an unsure that even Walker could help.
"How about I go and get us some of those berries I saw back there by the patch of trees," Alex asked.
Walker didn't want her to go just yet. Grabbing her he kissed her lightly across the lips, bringing a groan from somewhere deep inside her, but when he in his lust pinned her down and started unbuttoning her shirt Alex began to panic.
Walker didn't notice at first until Alex started to cry, tears making her pleas garbled. It was only when he looked into her eyes and saw fear in them that he released her. Alex stood trembling as she did and back away a couple of steps, trying to calm herself.
"Alex?" Walker questioned, walking towards her.
Alex put her hand up to stop him. "I'm sorry Walker, I don't know what came over me, I just ... I saw for a second ..."
Walker then understood, and the rage inside him was building. Had Culliver touched Alex? Had he hurt her in that way? He didn't know the answer to that, but he knew the look on his face could only serve to frighten Alex even more.
"Alex, I won't hurt you, you know that right?"
"Of course I do Walker, it's just I kept seeing his face for a moment and it scared me."
Walker walked over to where Alex stood, reaching for her slowly, he pulled her into his arms until her body stopped trembling. After a few minutes she calmed down and now leaned into his embrace, welcoming the protectiveness it seemed to give.
"I'm going to go get those berries," Alex said, unraveling herself from underneath his arms.
Walker instantly grew worried. "Don't go far Alex, and stay within shouting range. I don't want to lose you since I just got you alone," he said.
"What makes you think you will ever lose me," Alex answered, but deep inside she felt a small pang of guilt that wouldn't go away. One that kept telling her she should remember something. Taking a small bowl she went to gather the berries, maybe some time alone would help her to reveal what her mind was blocking out.
Alex's bowl was full of the wild berries, she had even eaten a few of them on the way back to the campsite. She was feeling a bit better and was feeling a bit down about hurting Walker's feelings on their honeymoon, but something was eating at her, something that wouldn't go away. She tried to ignore the feeling, desperate to just enjoy her time with her new husband. Just as she was making it back to the campsite she heard the phone ring. Knowing Walker would answer it Alex felt no need to hurry.
"No, I'm sorry Alex isn't here right this minute, this is her husband can I help you?" Walker answered the phone.
"Ahh, Mr. Walker I have great news it seems your wife is pregnant the doctor said on the other line."
"She's pregnant!" Walker yelled aloud, not able to contain his joy. He hung up with the doctor after promising to bring Alex in for her first prenatal exam when they got back. He was ecstatic. They were going to have their first child, and in his mind Walker was already making plans to spoil him or her.
Alex had been ready to just sit and be held in Walker's arms when she heard the phone ring. She had thought it would be the doctor telling him she was all right but instead Walker had blurted out she was pregnant. Alex was worried immediately for some reason, but shrugged it off thinking she was just exaggerating. Taking the berries she walked back over to where Walker was standing.
"Here are the berries," she said, but Walker grabbed her and twirled her around causing her to drop the bowl in her hands.
"We are going to have a baby!" he said, a smile big enough to light up the world on his face.
He an Alex sat by the fire talking about the nursery that CD and Trivette were setting up while they were gone.
"What color are they painting it Walker?"
"If I know CD it will be painted green, but Trivette wanted to paint it pink, so by the time we get home I expect to find a multicolored room to be honest. Alex why don't you get some sleep, you look exhausted."
"It has been a long day," she admitted.
Alex laid down and felt secure when Walker wrapped his arms tightly around her. It wasn't till she began to dream that Alex found out the secret that her mind was keeping from her.
"Get away!" Alex moaned, as she watched Culliver come at her in her dream. She had tried to fight him, tried her best to get him off her but he had been too strong. Alex had felt dirty, violated and she had locked the ugly episode deep into her subconscious. Culliver had touched her, made he unworthy of anyone else. Alex couldn't face Walker, couldn't get his hopes up. What if this child was the product of Roger Culliver, what if she had his child instead of Walker's growing inside her.
Feeling her stomach start to heave Alex rolled quietly away from Walker and walked over to the bushes. She was glad for once that Walker was sleeping soundly for she did not want to face him. Over and over she gagged, her stomach heaving up nothing but bile, until she felt like there was nothing left in her. She stared back at Walker, sleeping peacefully, the same happy smile plastered on his face as it had been since learning the news. How could she disappoint him? How could she tell him Roger Culliver took from her what should have been his, she couldn't?
Grabbing one of the backpacks Alex took off in the opposite direction of the campsite. She couldn't go back, couldn't face them all now.
Walker awoke a few hours later, the right side of him where Alex had been sleeping feeling very cold. He looked about the campsite but didn't see her and hoped she had not wandered off very far. Hoping she had only gone to the restroom he stoked the fire to keep the chill off and waited. It was then he noticed the missing backpack, and when he glanced to the remaining one found the note. Grabbing he he walked back over to the campfire to read it.
Walker,
I have not told you something, and it could ruin everything we have worked so hard to achieve. I can't stay here so I am leaving. Give my love to CD and Trivette and do not worry about me. I am sorry it happened, know that I never wanted it to.
Love Alex
Walker stared blankly from the note to the empty countryside around him. Alex was gone, and he had no idea in which direction she went. Grabbing his boots he started off in the directions of the trees, hoping he would find her before anything happened to her. He had only just found out he was going to be a father, and he was just learning how wonderful it was to have her as his wife, and now it seemed his whole world had come crashing down on him. Grabbing his gun from the other backpack he ventured out to find Alex. He did not care what the secret was, all he knew is he would love her regardless.