The two months it took to tear everything apart moved like days, so much had happened so much had gone wrong Sirius couldn't get his head around it.

Not only did Takara's family died but they still couldn't find the bodies of her sister and cousin. By the second week they had to force Takara to bury her family, she was so distort that Sirius had to hold her the whole time in fear of her falling. Jade couldn't make it she had been taken into hospital after hearing about what happened to the few people that cared about her she snapped. Remus went to visit her not that she talked to him or anyone else she simply stares straight through him.

All the stress and strain was too much for Takara she lost the baby in her 7month, she and Sirius were devastated. Takara blamed herself but Sirius knew she couldn't help what had happened, the little baby girl they named her Bianca and buried her next to Takara's parents. Jade was let out after awhile, she was still a little edgy but everyone could deal with that and respected her space when she needed it, they decided it was a good idea not to tell her everything just yet because she was still unsteady.

It was breakfast time when James strolled into the great hall; he had spent the night on the sofa in the common room. Takara had been having nightmare so she had slept in their room Remus was away it was the last night of the full moon and after running around with him he couldn't be bothered to make it upstairs, the strangest thing had happened Lily had actually covered him up with a blanket. Shaking his from his foolish thoughts he took a seat picking up some toast he saw jade sitting a couple of seats away looking sort of lost, standing again he placed himself across from her.

"Morning Jade, how are you?" James asked after five minutes of waiting for her to say something.

Jade looked at James like she only just noticed he was there "Oh hello James, when did you get here?" she asked looking down at her half eaten toast.

"I've been sitting in front of you for around five minutes now," he said concerned she was having a relapse.

Jade shook her head, "sorry I was just thinking about stuff, it doesn't matter." Brushing the bread crumbs with her fingers she dusted them off again.

"Anything you want to talk about? I'm a good listener and I will promise not to talk."

Jade sighed picking the nail varnish off one of her nails she tried to think of where to begin. "You know what my life has been like, not exactly a good one but still a life right? Anyway I was going to live with Aunt Charlie and Uncle Nick and everything was going to get better, Kara would have her baby and we would all be happy well not totally happy Uncle Nick would have beaten Sirius with a shovel but it would have been better than the life I had been leading. It just seems like everything I touch turns to mush-" she held up a hand so that James wouldn't interrupt "I tried to break up with Remus last week and he said that he wasn't going anywhere and that I was special to him and he loves me, so here I am thinking everything is going to be ok again right? Wrong, I accidentally found out that Takara's baby died they weren't planning to tell me because it might have sent me back over the never ending bridge with is called depression/ suicide/ insanity." She paused and looked up at James her eyes told the pain she was feeling and how lost she was. "So is happening to me and I know its not just me, everyone is telling me to be strong, keep my head up, things will get better. I have no family no where to live no money and prospects of finding a job are slim. I have the feeling that I'm falling and no one can catch me to make me stand up right." She broke eye contact with James, she wasn't meant to tell him that much not even in that much detail.

James listened to her and saw where she was coming from, she wasn't even 17 yet and she had all these problems to deal with, clearing his throat a little he thought of what to say "Well Takara's parents probably left you money, you were like one of their children but most of all your family and I very much doubt Takara would leave you without any money. You don't need to think about somewhere to live because while you were in hospital my parents talked to the Lupin's and the Evans' and they have both said they would be happy to stay with you, Takara has to stay at Lily's house, the adult thought it was best not stay at Sirius' house, Lily's mother said they would be living in sin or something among those line." He said with a smile as he remember the blush on Sirius face, reaching over the table he squeezed Jade's hand "You'll find away to stop falling, just like you found away to come back to us. Things will get better you'll see." Getting up James walked out of the great hall not feeling so tired anymore, he felt more worried than before, things were going to get worst much worst.

Jade sat there confused, that was the first time that James had said something nice to her. Usually he'd tell her she was being a high class bitch and to get over it, she looked around for someone else to eat with but there was no on e she actually wanted to talk to, picking up her stuff she headed towards the lake, it was the best place to go to just think and decide.

She hated to admit it but James was right she didn't have much to worry about that much, she would probably stay with Lily and she had some money saved away she just felt so alone.

"You're not alone, you have us." Said a voice from behind her, Jade closed her eyes and took a breath she looked at the grass. "You're not real." She said in a faint whisper.

Jade felt a tug on her robes "Are you angry with us?"

Turning around she looked down, her eyes spotted a pair of blue ones. Everything went black after that.

AN: yes I know it has taken me ages to write this but I had writer block and I was thinking of deleting the story after reading the 6th book but then decided that was stupid, if its not up to standard I am soo sorry.

SG