Paring: Dm/Hp
Warnings: Slash and some spoilers
Rating: R- rated
Summery: Harry never was good at potions. Ron never was good at controlling his temper. Draco never was good at shutting his mouth. A disastrous choice in potion pairings by the Harry-Hating Snape only ends up brewing trouble. When the potion inevitably explodes Harry and Draco are landed in the hospital wing, completely unconscious. Upon waking they discover that not only do they feel an annoying itch which neither can identify but they are also able to see into the only place no one is meant to see- the other's mind. Scared into secrecy by the though of being used for experimentation in order to get rid of the condition (that was probably not curable anyway) how will these two enemies cope with not only each other, the itch and the threatening shadow of Lord Voldemort, but a jumble of mixed up no-sense, 'what-the-hell-am-I-thinking?' emotions?
A/N: Sorry for the delay. HSC sucks. I'll try update sooner. Please review as I am seriously considering deleting this fic. It's one of my older ones, I've completed it on word and I'm simply editing it and putting it onto the site. I'm worried it's not as good as my usual stuff as I it was one of my very first stories. That in mind, please read and review
Chapter 2- The Tug
I'll lead you around
I'll lead you here
I'll take you places
And conquer your fear
I'll make you feel things
That were once unseen
And desperate confusion
Will haunt your whole being
I'll tell you some secrets
All about another view
You'll spin for eternity
For I control you
When Harry's eyes were fully open he realized one thing: He could move. He still felt a little sore but was confident that his legs would support him if he cared to try them out. He reached over and grabbed his glasses before applying them.
/Malfoy/ He thought uncertainly hoping against hope that it had faded away
/Still here/ came the disappointed reply. Harry sighed
/At least I can move/ he thought stretching. His throat still felt a little tender but speaking would also be achievable
/So can I, and my throat feels better/ Draco was thinking
/Mine too/ Harry said
"Harry!" A voice called and Harry looked to see Hermione enter the hospital wing Harry smiled at her
"Hey 'Mione" He said hoarsely
"Oh dear Harry, you sound awful" she said sympathetically
"Better than yesterday" He said simply
/I can hear you conversation, not only through my ears, I can hear it through yours/ Draco's uneasy voice broke into his thoughts and Harry frowned
/Strange/ He thought simply
"What's wrong Harry?" Asked Hermione, seeing him frown
"Where's Ron?" Harry asked and Hermione bit her lip
"He didn't want to come. He feels guilty for mucking up the potion so he's trying to turn some blame and say that you were being discourteous to him to potions" Hermione said quietly
"He's an idiot. Tell him if he ever wants to speak to me again, he'll apologize. You have no idea how annoying some of the symptoms are" Harry said hoarsely
"Tell him yourself. He really is sorry Harry, he's been so miserable because of it. He was convinced he'd killed you" Hermione said softly
Harry sighed
"I brought you some sweets," Hermione said brightly fishing out some Chocolate Frogs from her bag and placing them on his table
"Thanks 'Mione. I'll be able to leave as soon as Madam Promfrey declares me well," Harry said softly and Hermione smiled
"It could have been a lot worse," Hermione said
/You have no idea/ Draco said quietly
"I'd love to stay Harry but I'm going to be late for class. I'll try talking some sense into Ron. I'm glad you better," She said kindly before standing and giving Harry a brief kiss on the cheek
"Don't tell Ron you did that," Harry said smirking and Hermione shook her head smiling slightly before making a hasty exit
/If those two aren't together I'll eat my Firebolt/ Harry thought fondly
/Granger and Weasley? Really? If she likes the Weasel then why did she kiss you/ Draco asked
/Its platonic, Malfoy. She's like a sister to me. I'd be weird if we ever went out./ Harry said simply
/I could hear everything you said. Everything/ Draco said sounding slightly amazed
/What should we do about this… condition/ Harry asked finally
/Nothing we can do. We don't know exactly what went wrong with the potion so the most we can do is hope it goes away/ Draco said with a sigh
/What if it doesn't/ Harry asked eventually
/If it's still effective in a couple of days time, we'll have to go to Dumbledore for testing./ Draco said slowly
/Don't like the sound of that/
/Neither do I/
"Draco!" A shrill voice called and Harry heard Draco groan inwardly
"Hello Pansy" he said, voice slightly scratchy
Pansy Parkinson made her way to Draco's bed and sat at the edge of it
"Oh Draco dear, you look absolutely awful! Your skin is so pale! How are you feeling are you cold? Hot? Would you like another blanket? I was so terribly worried when you collapsed in potions. Snape was furious. You should have seen him. Can I get you anything, dear?..."
It was the strangest thing Harry had ever experienced. He could hear their conversation. It was at the back of his head; he tuned into it and because he was concentrating on it the voices became clearer.
"Don't worry Draco, I'll stay here and keep you company until my next lesson starts" She was saying brightly
Pleaselet me kill her/ Draco pleaded and Harry smiled
/This is weird. I can hear your conversation… so I'm tempted to let you kill her. Is she always like this/ Harry asked listening to her ravel on about her morning
/Yes. It's gotten worse since the Yule Ball. I only went with her to shut her up/ Draco said miserably
/Either way, we'd better let her live/ Harry said smiling and Draco groaned again /get her to leave by saying your tired or something/ Harry suggested
"So I said to Blaise, I said--"
"That's great Pansy, but I'm feeling a little tired. As much as I would hate being separated from you for even a second I must get my sleep and if you were sitting near me the only thing I'd be able to focus upon would be your beauty" Draco said smoothly (although Harry could pick up the sarcasm insinuated into some of the words spoken)
"Of course dear" She said fluttering her eyelashes. She got to her feet and left the room, swinging her hips in a way that she no doubt thought a sexy manner
/Finally/ Draco breathed
/Why did you act nicely… or at least less dryly than usual/ Harry asked curiously
/Basically, I can't afford to insult her family. It's too powerful. I try to drop hints but she's thicker than a Dragon's hide./ Draco said and Harry couldn't help but smile
"Well boys you both look as good as new. If you hurry you can still make dinner" Madam Promfrey said as she entered the room. They stood and she gave them a quick look over before dismissing them.
They started their way to the great hall together
/I'm so glad to be out of there/ Harry thought in relief
/I hate infirmaries there so boring/ Draco said in agreement
As they entered the Hall and went to there separate tables Harry felt a very faint tug. A sort of ache in his chest
/Ignore it/ Draco said. He had obviously felt it as well. Harry shrugged and sat down next to Hermione and Ron. He helped himself to some food and waited for Ron's apology.
"Er…Harry?" Ron began guiltily
Harry turned his head slightly so Ron knew he was listening
"I'm sorry that I stuffed up the potion causing it to bow up and landing you in the hospital wing" He said nervously and Harry couldn't help but smile at how strange that had sounded.
"Forgiven" Harry said smiling reassuringly at him and Ron smiled in relief
"Great! You'll never guess what happened in Charms today; we were starting a new topic and…"
/That's it? That's the apology? What an anti-climax/ Draco said and Harry smiled slightly
/He looks so ridiculous. Can't stay mad at him. Besides I'm a Gryffindor. Were all stupidly noble/ Harry said and he felt Draco smile slightly
/You're an idiot Potter/ Draco said simply
/I'll need all the friends I can get with you stuck in my brain, Malfoy/ Harry retorted pretending to listen to whatever the hell Ron was saying.
/Your breaking my heart/ Draco said dryly and Harry felt another faint tug.
/Whatare those tugs/ He asked in exasperation
/I don't know, but there getting on my nerves/ Draco said grumpily
Figuring there was nothing to do but ignore to ignore them Harry tuned back into what Ron saying.
"….Flitwick tried to give her detention but no one could hear her over the laughter. It was brilliant." Ron said finishing his story and Harry smiled
"Wish I could have been there" Harry said and Ron nodded before proceeding to stuff his face
"What was you punishment from Snape?" Harry asked curiously and he felt Draco tune into the conversation
/Eavesdropper/ he said silently
/Your point being/ Draco asked and Harry mentally rolled his eyes
"Detention for three days and twenty five points" Ron said miserably
Harry gave him a sympathetic look
"It was all Malfoy's fault. He distracted me. Worse still was that you weren't effected" Ron complained
"Malfoy's an idiot, I wasn't about to get upset by him. His ego and pride are ten times as large as he is." Harry said simply
/I resent that/ Draco mumbled
"It just gets to me what he says about my family" Ron said clenching his fists
/Do you really think those things about his family/ Harry asked
/Since you would be able to tell if I was lying I wont bother. No, I don't think it. Personally I couldn't care less. It's just fun to see him all worked up./ Draco said and Harry could almost feel the smirk
/What about muggles/ Harry asked
/I'm not too fond of them but I don't think that's necessarily a good reason to wipe them all out. Would take ages to do and be a little pointless. And before you ask, no I don't plan on becoming a Death Eater. Which is lucky because tattoos are so out of fashion. / He said sounding slightly bored
/Why don't you want to become a Death Eater/ Harry asked with the utmost curiosity
/I bow to no one. Voldemort's an insane skeleton that's bent on world domination. The system he wants simply would not work. And as much as I hate you, I certainly don't want you dead./ He said after a pause and Harry could tell he hadn't meant to say that last part.
/Wouldn't want you dead either/ Harry admitted and he knew instantly that it was true
/You wouldn't want anyone dead/ Draco said simply
/That's not true/ Harry said quietly thinking of Voldemort and Wormtail. He certainly wanted Voldemort dead. He would settle for Wormtail brought to justice. And Belatrix… He would make sure she suffered
/She's my aunt, you know/ Draco said
/I know./ Harry said simply
He realized that Ron was still looking at him
"I'm sure it's all words. You really need to control your temper, Ron, it will get you into trouble one day" Harry said
"You have a temper too," Ron pointed out
"Harry's temper isn't as bad as yours. It takes a bit to get Harry mad, and if you do then you have to start panicking" Hermione said smiling slightly
Ron rolled his eyes and began talking to Seamus about Quidditch tactics. Harry tuned into what Draco was listening to, but he wasn't currently involved in a conversation so it was just distant chattering. Evidently he has to be paying attention in order for him to hear it.
/How dull/ He said
/Compared to Mr. Excitement/ Draco said dryly
Harry rolled his eyes and finished his dinner. He stood with Ron and after Hermione told them to go ahead they left, Ron still asking if she was sure she didn't want them to wait over his shoulder until Harry shut him up with a jab with his elbow.
"Ouch!" Ron cried rubbing his side
"You two aren't going out are you?" Harry asked and Ron blushed slightly, shaking his head
/Then why were they snogging on the couch yesterday/ Harry thought with sarcasm
/Don't need that mental picture thanks/ Draco said sounding revolted
/He's such a bad liar. I've known for ages./
"Good; I'd hate being the third wheel" Harry told Ron lightly and Ron mumbled something
/No you wouldn't, or since their already going out, no you don't/ Draco said
/Yes, well, if there not going to tell me I may as well have some fun with it/ Harry thought smirking slightly he could tell that Draco was reluctantly impressed
"I was only joking Ron, I know your not really going out. You would have told me." Harry said trying not to smile
"Course I would have" Ron said
/How very evil of you Potter/ Draco said
/Watch this/ Harry said. He'd been waiting to say this all day
"I'll hold your wand for you Ron" He said and when Ron gave him a puzzled look said, "I heard you ask Hermione to hold you wand, but she said she wouldn't know how, so you said you'd teach her. Well I'll hold it. I hold mine all the time. I don't know why Hermione wouldn't know how to hold yours; she once held mine very well. Even corrected my grip" Harry said innocently and Ron tried to stop himself go red
/Even I'm impressed by that/ Draco admitted /you're an okay actor/
/And the Emmy goes to…/ Harry said in a announcer voice
/Emmy/ Draco asked, puzzled
/Never mind/ Harry sighed
"You must be hot, Ron, you've gone all red" Harry said, sounding concerned
/Off the record I don't punish him like this often. Only every once in a while. As retribution./ Harry said
/Uh huh. Why don't they tell you/
/Think I'll feel left out, jealous or that I'm too stressed out after everything to deal with it. They don't want to upset me when I'm in 'such a fragile state'. I heard them talking/ Harry said dully
"I'm fine" Ron said as they reached the portrait hole. "Unicorns" He said
"We've got to stop letting Ginny choose the password." Harry said as they entered
"I know" Ron agreed as they made their way to their dormitories
No sooner than the door was closed than Harry felt a powerful, slightly painful tug
"Ouch!" he cried and Ron gave him a worried look
"Scar acting up again" Harry lied rubbing his forehead
"Want to go to Dumbledore?" He asked
"Nah. Happens all the time now. No point." Harry said feeling another powerful tug. He ignored it and lay down in his bed.
He had barely closed his eyes when an even more powerful tug pulled at him. It was coming from the center of his chest. Almost as if his heart was trying to escape. What was worse was that as the minutes, and then hours passed it got worse. More powerful.
As another tug racked his chest Harry let out a sigh and got out of bed. The tug was leading him in a direction and Harry felt that the only thing to do was to follow it. He spelled his curtains shut so no one would be able to open them and notice his absence then grabbed his invisibility cloak and crept silently out to the common room, where he put on the cloak and slipped through the portrait hole.
/Malfoy/ he asked very softly
/No, I'm not sleeping either/ came the reply
/Meet me outside the room of requirement, and we'll figure out where this is taking us/ Harry said
/Where is it/ he asked and Harry quickly gave him directions while making his way there himself
As Harry got closer the tug got more urgent, more painful, more desperate. He arrived outside the corridor before Malfoy did and took off his cloak. As he waited he stated to analyze the tugs. They were become harder ever second. He had an ache, as if something inside him was missing. It was both physical and metal anguish.
/I'm almost there/ Draco snapped impatiently when Harry asked for the third time where he was
Finally Draco rounded the corner. Harry turned to face him… and froze. Draco wasn't moving either. The two of them just stood there, perfectly still looking at each other. The tug was so painful Harry was shaking.
It was pulling him towards Malfoy.
/Malfoy/ he said quietly
/Potter/ Was the faint reply
Another enormous tug caused them to run at each other; they grabbed at each other in a fierce hug, each as confused as the other. The contact wasn't enough, for the longing in his chest was still there, demanding to be filled. Draco must have felt it as well, for he tilted Harry's head up and pressed his lips urgently to his.
The pain and emptiness was replaced with the most amazing feeling of pleasure each had ever felt. Harry's very skin was alight with sensation as Malfoy kissed him desperately. Harry was dimly aware of the fact that he was kissing him back with just as much desperation. They both relaxed into each other as the kiss went on, and Harry's eyelids fluttered closed.
Need for air forced them apart and when they separated the feeling in their chests was gone, replaced with a feeling of completeness, and of the feeling that somehow, this was right. Harry's eyes opened and looked into the confused silver ones of Draco Malfoy
/That was weird/ Harry whispered and Draco nodded
/I think we found out what the tug is/ Draco said, just as softly
/We can only be separated for a small amount of time or the tug gets stronger/ Harry said absently
/I kissed you/ Draco suddenly said and Harry had the sudden fear that Draco totally hated doing it. That he was disgusted and outraged and only did it because he thought it might ease the pain. Which was true, and which it did, but which hurt Harry all the same, and for the life of him he couldn't figure out why
Of course Draco could feel what Harry was feeling, and was amazed to discover he felt the same thing. Yes, he had done it to ease the pain, but it had been nice… it had felt right. He didn't regret it and the fact that Harry feared he might touched something within Draco that he could not identify. He lifted Harry's chin again and placed his lips gently to his. Harry returned it at once.
/What are you doing/ Harry asked not taking his lips away and holding Draco from moving back
//I'm kissing you Potter, this is called a kiss/ He said softly
/Why/ Harry asked
/Because I want to/ Draco said simply
/Don't you hate me/
/No./
/Good. I don't hate you either/
/Good/
And with that he pushed Harry against the nearest wall and continued the kiss. He pulled his lips away only long enough to attach them to his neck. Harry gasped, and that gasp quickly turned to a soft moan as Draco's tongue touched his skin and he sucked at the flesh in a way that was bound to leave a mark.
/Mine/ Draco thought strongly, suddenly feeling very possessive /Mine/
Harry gasped and pulled Draco up for another heated kiss.
/We can't stay here, we'll be caught in the hallway, but we have to stay close enough to touch so we don't feel the tugs. We'll have to sleep in the room of requirement / Harry said, trying to gather his senses as Draco resumed his exploration of his neck
/So open it, whatever the hell it is/ Draco said reluctantly pulling away
Harry paced back and forth in the corridor three times thinking what kind of room he wanted.
/Big, with a lit fireplace for the cold and a double bed, as we'll have to share. There has to be soft sheets and nice carpet. Somewhere nice and quiet where no one will find us and where an alarm will signal to warn us if someone who intends to enter the room is coming/
The door appeared and when Harry opened it, they entered the very room he had just described. He felt Draco's shock and smiled at him
/The room of requirement. For anything one could possibly require/ Harry said proudly
/Convenient/ Draco said looking around
/Very/ Harry said grabbing Draco's hand and pulling him towards a bed with white sheets
/Are you tired/ Harry asked turning to Draco. What he saw surprised him. His eyes were filled with a strange hunger that made Harry shiver. He'd never been looked at like that before and was considering what to think of it when Draco tackled him, pinning him on the bed. Harry barely had time to cry out before Draco's soft lips found his.
Draco kissed Harry passionately. He had an overwhelming desire to ravish him silly, now that he had him alone in a room. Draco knew that this wasn't an effect of the potion. He wanted Harry. He just knew it. He knew it like he knew the sun rose in the morning and set at night. Like he knew that fire was hot and ice was cold. Like he knew Harry could feel his confidence.
/How do you know/ Harry asked him unbuttoning his shirt
/I feel it. Can't you/ Draco asked
/Yes…/ Harry said slowly and Draco could feel his uncertainty. On impulse he closed his eyes and was rewarded with a flash of a memory that wasn't his. A memory that Harry was remembering at that moment.
Harry was about eight years old and his uncle was yelling at him. Uncle Vernon had called Harry's father worthless and Harry had used magic accidentally. His uncle had pinned him to a wall and screamed at him.
"Your as bad as your father boy! You're a worthless, good-for-nothing bastard, who's going to grow up and die alone! You're a freak! A sordid individual not fit to walk the face of this planet! No one would even give a second look to insignificant Harry Potter! You remember that boy! Your parents were nothing, and you are nothing! You should learn to respect you betters and memorize the line 'could you spare a quarter?'!"
He punched Harry hard in the stomach several times before throwing him violently into the cupboard and bolting the door locked. Harry had collapsed onto the bed and spoken the words 'I won't cry. I wont give him the satisfaction. He is wrong. My parents weren't helpless. I may be. But not them… not them'
Draco blinked. Harry's hands were still and he was looking at Draco with wide eyes.
"You saw it. I know you did. I felt you" Harry whispered
/You are not worthless/ Draco told him giving him a gentle kiss. He felt such compassion and feeling surge through him that it scared him slightly. Harry felt this and smiled
/I've just broken a Malfoy commandment. 'Thou shalt not feel'. Unless its anger, hatred revenge or something along those lines. This is definitely none of those. If my father weren't in Azkaban he wouldn't be too happy/ Draco thought to himself
/Malfoy commandments/ Harry teased
/Shut up and kiss me/ Draco said and Harry did, all sense of uncertainty gone
/I'm going to kill your relatives/ Draco said softly
/And if you do, I'll help you burry the bodies/ Harry thought with a touch of black humour /we cant kill them. They're my family. Without them I'd truly be an orphan/
Draco kissed him deeper and when he pulled away Harry set his lips to his neck to give him an identical mark to the one he was currently paying host to.
/Mine/ Harry thought, remembering them being spoken just moments before /Mine/
Draco moaned quietly and tilted his neck to allow better access. When Harry pulled his lips away he pulled Draco down beside him and aligned himself next to his body. Draco wrapped his arms around Harry who snuggled further into the embrace and placed his head on Draco's shoulder.
/To think we were worst enemies this morning/ Harry said sleepily
/Bloody potion/ Draco said affectionately
/What do we do tomorrow/ Harry asked
/We have to keep it secret I suppose, given the fact that my father is a Death Eater and that he'd kill you. Add the fact of Voldemort trying to kill you and using would no doubt use our relationship against us and that until recently we were convinced that we hated each other, and don't forget that we're bond to attract a lot of attention. With controlling the tugs my suggestion is to bump into each other and make as much contact as possible while making it look like a accident or hostile/ Draco said slowly.
/Secrets. There are too many of them in the world/ Harry said dully
/I don't want to keep it a secret, but I wont put you in danger/ Draco said gently
/I know. It will be hard. We'll have to sneak around a lot and deceive a lot of people. We'll also have to sleep here every night. That's no big deal for me; I'm always up before Ron. Nightmares mostly. It won't arouse too much suspicion for me to be in the Great Hall first. Plus he's too busy with his own secret relationship. I'll tell them only when they tell me. So no one will know until they get engaged or Hermione gets knocked up./ Draco chuckled here /What about you/
/I'm always up early. Slytherin never ask questions. Even if they notice they wouldn't put too much thought to it unless I was really suspicious/ Draco said thoughtfully
/Glad that's sorted/ Harry said brightly before kissing Draco's chest and falling asleep
Harry was in another flickering place. Draco still stood beside him
"Not this again" Draco complained
He went to take a step forward but Harry (who was aware of how inconsistent the floor was) grabbed his hand. The flickering stoped.
They were in a meadow, with lots of flowers and a soft gentle wind.
"I know this place. I came here on a family picnic once" Draco said quietly
"Its very pretty" Harry said looking around
"I want to try something," Draco said before dropping Harry's hand.
The flickering started again
"Curiouser and curiouser" Harry whispered and Draco raised an eyebrow
"Muggle thing" Harry said shrugging
Draco seised Harry's hand once more and another scene came into focus. A graveyard.
"This would be mine. The graveyard. Well I suppose it could have been the ministry" Harry said absently looking around and clutching Draco's hand tightly
"What is this place?" Draco asked quietly when a voice spoke out
"Kill the spare"Harry shuddered and Draco looked to see a figure holding what appeared to be a bundle of robes. He frowned.
"You!"An angry voice cried and Draco looked over to see another Harry tied firmly to a gravestone glaring at the hooded figure.
Harry was clutching his hand very tightly now. He was looking down. Draco followed his gaze and gave a start.
Cedric
His eyes open in shock and mouth agape. As Harry looked at him he suddenly sat up, causing Harry to take a step back. Cedric looked at him with total anger
"Murderer!"Harry bolted up and arms immediately wrapped around him. He struggled slightly, still disoriented.
/Shh. Calm down. It was just a dream./ Draco's presence calmed his thoughts and he relaxed into the arms
/I'd forgotten how bad that dream is/ He said softly
"Harry" Draco said firmly and Harry felt a strange shiver go through him at the sound of his first name on Draco's lips. He realized suddenly that it was first time he had spoken it. "It wasn't your fault"
/I know. But I still feel guilty/ Harry said in mind- speak
They were silent for a moment, then"Draco?" Harry said softly and Draco felt that same tremor run through him
"Yes, Harry?" he asked, just as softly
"Thank you".