AUTHOR'S NOTE: This chapter is a special delivery brought to you by
KEVIN "CUPID" KEYS
Yes, not me. I didn't write it. The chapter doesn't go on with the plot of the story. It's some kind of summary of what had happened so far from Ranma's and Akane's POV. It's very good.
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Italic Akane speaking, Bold Ranma speaking, Underlined Speaking together. Let me know what you think of it OK?
A Fool's Dream
I realized today that I must truly love you, because as I look back I see things I didn't notice before. Things that we could laugh about for hours while reminiscing, if it weren't for the fact that we're not talking anymore.
I tried to hide it from myself, but I'm apparently not that blind, it's true that the truth will eventually set you free. And silently I came to the conclusion that I couldn't help but love you, and that there was no one else meant for me.
But now I see you with her, and your simple kissing drives me to madness, but I don't own you so I've no right to be upset. And the little things that I noticed before that I wanted to laugh about are now the big things I wish I could forget.
Yes, it was all simply a fool's dream, and I dreamt it because that's what fool's do. I was foolish for thinking that if I loved you long enough that you might grow to love me too.
You didn't even know who I was then you asked to be my friend, aside from that we got off to a ruff start. That's why it amazes me as I acknowledge that it's only gotten tougher, but somehow amongst our battles you stole my heart.
I couldn't think anyone else the way I thought of you, my actions were childish but to me it was all too new. So imagine my surprise and the fear in my eyes, the day I suddenly realized that I was in love with you.
I thought that the we could get past the worst and make a path to the best, but there was one problem, there was no, "We." And there was no time that that point was ever made clearer than the day you turned and walked away from me.
Yes, it was all only a fool's dream, and the fact remains that I am a fool, so I might as well dream as a fool does. Because I can't seem to accept how things are now, I'd rather look back on how it once was.
I know I should just let you go, but some grips are harder to break than others, and this one is clearly at the top of my list. But it burns me inside when ever I think of you with someone else, you making them smile, and then giving away my kiss.
I took for granted the time we shared, thinking we had forever, and now I know, "Forever," is just a word. Eternity is only promised to us after death, so the though of forever is simply absurd.
So why am I crying now, haven't I cried enough over my deferred dreams acknowledging that now they'll never come true? Haven't I been caused enough pain crying until my tear ducts run dry, so why is my soul now crying tears too?
Yes, it was all just a fool's dream, I'm not really known for being this foolish, but apparently I'm more foolish than I thought. A wise man once said, "You pay for what you get," well look at all the pain my foolishness brought.
The silence has finally ended, and now we call each other, "friend," it's wonderful but a small step indeed. I know that this is so far away from what I want, but for now it's definitely what I need.
I thought I'd lost you, thought that the story ended on that empty night but I was wrong, just look at us now. But something has to go wrong, because I'm feeling way too good, but I didn't have the chance to wonder how.
You're leaving me again, didn't even care enough to tell me, if I didn't accidentally eavesdrop I might have never known. I thought we were closing the gap of the space between us, but now I see that the space has only grown.
Yes, it was all merely a fool's dream, and like a fool I dreamt it willingly. Dreaming that I could rescue the princess, but I need to be rescued now that she's been set free.
I guess this is the end, he no longer needs me.
It would seem she doesn't need me anymore,
I guess I was wrong and we weren't meant to be.
How could I have been so blind and not see it before.
Why did I love him if we can't be happily ever after?
What is so wrong with me that it pushes her away?
Why is he in all my memories that summon laughter?
Maybe if I didn't love her she'd have every reason to stay?
I know I'm just running but what else can I do?
Why is it that everything has to be so complicated?
I can't watch you love someone else when I have so much love for you.
All of my frustrations are fading away and yet I'm still frustrated.
I try to be positive when looking forward but the future seems so dim.
I feel like every time I try to look forward all I see is a blur.
I'm doing it because it's what's best for me, and maybe it's good for him.
If she wants to get away from me so badly I guess it's what best for her.
Yes, it was a fool's dream in the end, and dreaming is all the fool can do. But the problem is even when I wake up, I only happy being a fool for you.
By Kevin Joseph Keys Jr.