He felt free. At first. But as the days went by, the feelings of freedom were replaced by feelings of guilt.
Because he always felt guilty when he denied Kara anything, and this time he had denied her his forgiveness. And he had left her crying. Gods, he could be a jerk when it came to her.
He loved her. He had stopped trying to deny that a long time ago, but as hard as he tried to get her to love him back, she always found someone else to give her heart to. So he had given his heart to Dee and his love for her was real. But Kara was in his soul, and this rift between them was hurting it.
He put down the report he was trying to read. He couldn't concentrate on it. He wouldn't be able to concentrate on anything until he spoke to her and cleared this up.
He picked up the phone to have her paged to hisquarters then put it down again. It couldn't happen on his turf. It would have to be on hers, so she'd feel more comfortable. He checked his watch. The pilots' pre-flight briefing should be ending soon, he'd catch her in the ready room.
He stood up to button his jacket, getting ready to leave, when there was a knock on his door.
"Come in." He said continuing to button his jacket. When he looked up, Kara was standing in front of him, saluting him.
"That's not necessary, Kara."
"It's protocol, sir. You're my superior officer. I'm required to salute you."
Ok, she was still pissed. He saluted back.
"Please, sit down." He had stepped out from behind his desk and was motioning towards a chair in the sitting area.
"Can I get you anything?"
"No, thank you, sir." She sat in one of the chairs. He took the chair across from her and waited for her to speak.
"I can't stop thinking about what you said." She finally said.
"Look, I'm sorry.."
"You shouldn't be. I deserved it."
She looked at him for the first time since she walked into his office. "I'm transferring back to Galactica."
His heart sank. "But, you're the training officer and training is done here on Pegasus."
"The Admiral already approved the transfer of training operations back to Galactica." She handed him the orders. "I leave in half an hour."
She stood up to leave.
"Kara, wait. We need to talk."
"It's all been said, sir, there's nothing left to talk about." She turned and walked to the door.
"Kara, please don't do this."
"You said you loved me." She said without turning around.
"Yes."
"I loved you too." And then she walked out.