A/N: almost done w the next chapter of Game I swear. Like it? Review! :)
The first implantation was a few weeks back and Liv had been avoiding the test. After much pouting from El, she finally caved.
After 30 minutes, she came out of their bathroom, shaking her head at the man seated at the edge of the bed.
His face fell a little and he nodded. She stood between his legs and cupped his face. "It's okay… we've got two more," she whispered, nodding and giving him a kiss.
"Noah asked if we could head to the park and play some baseball… you want me to stay with you?"
She shook her head immediately. "No baby, I'm gonna take Em shopping." He nodded and kissed her. "I love you."
"I love you," she whispered, walking into the kitchen.
His heart broke for her and he was about to text the kids and let them know when a text from her came through.
O: Hey guys- first test was negative but all good. We have two more. Xoxo.
They all replied with I'm sorry's and I love you's, and Lizzie texted her dad.
L: She okay? Seems too calm
E: Thinking that too. She and Emma are going shopping- maybe you can join?
L: Don't have to ask me twice.
Lizzie called Liv, who answered, smiling.
"Hey honey what's up?"
"I heard you and Em are going shopping… room for one more??"
She chuckled, knowing Elliot put her up to it. "Please. Meet us here in 30?"
"Sounds great- love you!"
"Love you baby," she said hanging up and leaning against the counter with a sigh.
She texted Amanda.
L: Hey- negative :(
A: Oh no I'm sorry :( Wanna do girls night tonight and drink? This week was shit and the boys are on call. I'll send Sonny and the girls to your place?
L: Sounds perfect, I'll tell El.
A: Chin up- love ya!
L: Love ya too girl
El came out and she put her phone down. "Do you mind if Amanda and I go out for wine night tonight?"
He shook his head gripped her waist, "not at all baby."
She nodded, holding back her tears, "Sonny is gonna bring the girls to hang with you guys. Is that okay?"
"Of course baby… go enjoy your day okay?"
She nodded and kissed him.
Later that night, Amanda and Liv sat at the bar, several glasses of wine in each woman.
"Is this stupid? Wanting a baby?" Liv asked. She'd been avoiding all night and Amanda hadn't brought it up.
"No not at all," she said sipping her drink.
Liv sighed and Amanda smiled small. "Sonny and I have been thinking about it too…"
"Yeah but you're younger than me," Liv said and Amanda shrugged. "Not by a lot."
"So tell me," Amanda said, changing the subject. "How is Mr. Stabler in bed."
Liv laughed and leaned back in her chair, happy for a change in subject. "Unbelievable. It's so much better too when you have an emotional connection," she said and Amanda nodded.
"And now that I've been pumped with hormones, I've been a little insatiable and ugh," she said, "he's been unreal."
Amanda grinned. "Sonny has been really into morning sex," she said fondly. "I wake to him just grinding into my ass."
Liv laughed. "El's a, up against walls and over furniture kinda guy. I mean we have great sex in bed but, if he can bend me over on something he will."
"Isn't that how you got pregnant with Em?" Amanda asked laughing and Liv joined her. "Oh yeah. Up against my wall by my door. That's also where we decided to try for another."
The pair finished their wine. "Now I wanna jump his bones," Liv teased and Amanda laughed. "Me too. How about a tequila shot and we get going?"
Liv and Amanda stumbled in later that night. They were both pretty tipsy and giggled when they saw their guys, remembering their earlier conversation.
El and Sonny glanced at each other, laughing a bit. "Let me help you get the girls to the car," he said to the other man and he, Sonny and Amanda headed down.
When he came back, Liv was laying on their bed, naked and lazily rubbing her clit.
El's jaw fell and then a stupid grin appeared on his face.
"I'm kinda drunk and I'm pretty horny and I'm a little sad, so I need to be fucked. Hard." She said bluntly and he nodded, starting to speak but she cut him off with a softly moan as she dipped a slender finger inside of herself. "Don't. Please," she begged. "Just fuck me."
He nodded and locked their door slowly removing his clothes. Approaching her hesitantly, she sat up and tightly grasped his cock. "Hard. Not hesitant. Not gentle. Fuck me, Elliot."
She was desperate and he knew she was hurting and needed to forget. He was at war in his mind. Fuck her like she asked and feel guilty, or don't and make her feel unwanted. She sensed his hesitance and teared up, suddenly feeling embarrassed.
Quickly getting up, and sobering up, she rushed into their bathroom and shut and locked the door.
"Fuck fuck fuck," he mumbled. "Liv let me in," he called at the door.
"Leave me alone," she rushed out. He sighed and grabbed the key from up top, unlocking it and going in. She was stood at her vanity, crying into her hands.
He came up slowly behind her, his hands grasping her hips. "Olivia," he whispered and gently pulled her backwards into him.
"You don't want me," she whispered and he shook his head. "Thats a lie. You can feel how much I want you," he whispered, pressing his hard cock into her ass.
She sniffles and nodded. "I'm sorry I didn't get pregnant," she whispered.
His hands that were on her hips crept up her body and towards her her face. They stopped: one wrapped around her neck and the other grasped her chin, pushing it upwards so she'd look up.
Their eyes met in the mirror and she took a stuttered breath, equal parts upset and turned on.
"Listen to me, Stabler," he said softly, using a tone that was only reserved for their private moments.
She smiled lightly at the use of her new name. "I love you. And I will love you if you don't have a baby or if we have 7 more. I will love you until my dying breath, and then some. And I will always want you," he paused to press his throbbing member a little tighter to her ass.
"Always. But more than that I want to make sure you're okay and that I never take advantage of you," he paused again, lowering his head to her ear and whispering, "So if you tell me you're okay and I won't be taking advantage of you, I'll fuck you till you can't walk."
She moaned and nodded slowly. "I'm just sad… and I was a little tipsy but… I need you. I just need to forget and start over tomorrow. Please El," she whispered and gasped when the hand on her throat squeezed.
The hand on her chin dropped down to her thigh and he encouraged her leg to lift and rest on the counter. She did it, and their eyes met again in the mirror.
"I love you forever," he said, lining up at her entrance. "I'll never not want you," he said, pushing into her. She cried out and her head leaned back against his chest.
He thrusted into her quickly and his free hand went to her clit, circling it lazily.
"Baby harder," she whined and he obliged. The hand on her throat moved to her hair and he yanked it backwards.
"Beg for me," he whispered in a low baritone into her ear.
"Baby please... please baby fuck me," she whined. "Harder please," she asked, rolling her head into the crook of his neck.
"You like when I fuck you, Liv," he asked into her ear as one of her hands came up to grasp the back of his head, "you like when my cock is deep in your pussy?"
She nodded quickly, knowing if she opened her mouth she'd be way too loud immediately. Their breathing was increased and they both were about to cum when they heard a soft knock on their door. "Mom.. daddy... Eli is puking and the Noah doesn't feel good!"
Liv and El groaned and she laid against his chest, trying to get her breathing under control and stop her shuddering. "Shit," they mumbled together.
"Be right there, Em... give us a second baby." She called.
He slipped out of her with a groan. "Get that under control and I'll check on him," she whispered, getting dressed and going to their bathroom.
"Baby go back to bed," she directed her daughter, "let's try and keep the germs from you please," she said and Emma nodded going back.
Liv came in the bathroom and gently rubbed Eli's back as he retched again. El came in behind her and frowned. "Go check on Noah," she said looking up at him and he nodded.
She got Eli settled against the bathroom wall next to the toilet, and once he'd stopped puking, she made her way into Noah's room. He was pale, but asleep.
"Well at least we know the 16 year old didn't get wasted and try and get his little brother to cover for him," El teased and Liv laughed softly.
"I can hear you," Eli called pathetically from the bathroom, causing his parents to laugh.
"Sorry our night was ruined," he whispered to her so their oldest wouldn't hear.
Leaning down to his level, she pressed a soft kiss to his lips. "Somehow, this was better. I think God needed me to remember how much I love being a mom," she whispered, a tear escaping down her cheek.
He kissed her again as Noah woke up with a cough that turned into a puke that El expertly caught with his small trash can.
We're going to be okay. It's going to work out. She thought, as she walked to the kitchen for water refills for her sick boys.
We're going to be okay.