A/N; Trust the process and my writing, I beg.
Pls review, I'm high key super needy.
One month later:
The next few weeks were filled with loads of family time, soccer, and not a whole lot of Sam.
She'd been working a ton, and skipped church and family dinner nights for going on 4 weeks.
Eli was happily distracted with his big commitment to Princeton and Harley, however, so the distance proved to be a blessing.
The two had become inseparable, and Elliot and Olivia's swore they'd never seen their son so genuinely happy.
Noah was gearing up to enter 5th grade, while Emma and Jacob were moving to "the big school" to start 7th and would be with Eli.
Teddy was 4 months old now and looked exactly like his daddy, but still had his mommas brown eyes and dark, dark hair.
It was the Sunday before Liv was to return to work and the kids to school.
She'd taken extra time off to be with them for the summer, and El when he could be, and had just been helping where she could from home.
She was nervous, and her mind-reader husband knew it, which was why she woke up to his hands firmly kneading her back in the early hours of the morning before their baby stirred, both still naked from the previous night.
"Oh…" she moaned into her pillow, making him chuckle. "Like that?"
"Hm," she moaned softly, pushing her hips upwards as his cock grew against her ass.
"You're really tense…" he whispered and she nodded. "Worried…"
"Don't be worried… you're gonna fall right back into the swing of things. Teddy bear is gonna be with Luce and Sarah… the kids are back to school and Sam is homeschooling so we don't have to worry about that."
"Our… oh El…" she gasped, her body bucking when he hit a particular spot.
"Need me to stop?"
"God no…" she breathed out as he continued, unable to speak from the pain and pleasure over taking her.
He took over for her, knowing what she was gonna say. "Our baby boy is starting his junior year and happier than ever… he's got the early admission option for college."
She nodded into her pillow, gasping as he worked her muscles and the pleasure and pressure went right to her core.
Dragging her leg up to the side slowly and exposing her bare center to him, she mumbled incoherently into the pillow about how she needed to be fucked.
He entered her dripping folds with no hesitation and she gasped as his morning member stretched her slowly.
"Oh Elliot," she whined in pleasure as he continued his massage on her back and let her adjust to his size.
Her body was tingling from the feel of him invading her and his massaging of her tense muscles. Her hips began to gently thrust downward in effort to provide some stimulation on her swollen clit.
Reaching over into her nightstand, he found her bullet and slipped it under her, turning it to the highest setting and making her cry out into her pillow.
He smirked a bit and resumed both his thrusts and his massaging.
The combinations of all three sensations made every nerve ending in her body light up and her moans become more and more breathy as she tried desperately to gasp for air.
"M-more…. More…"
He couldn't help his chuckle as his hands moved to her lower back in effort to give her what she wanted.
"More?" He asked, increasing the strength of his thrusts but not his speed.
Her voice was husky and her arousal impending when she was able to get words out again. "Right there, just like that," she gasped. "Yes!"
Clenching around him tightly, he breathed out a chuckle that ended in a moan as she began to milk him. She was squeezing him so tightly that he physically was stuck, her pussy doing the work of thrusting for him.
When she was unable to catch her breath and the noises she was making reached a new octave, he removed and turned off the vibrator, leaning over her to press soft kisses to her shoulders and neck. Moving her hair so he could trail up to her ear, he nipped her earlobe softly and whispered.
"Can I cum in your mouth."
She whimpered and nodded. "God yes."
Pulled out of her, he rolled her to her back and shimmied up so he was effectively straddling her chest.
"All of you," she muttered, and he cupped her cheeks gently. "Sure?"
"Mhm," she nodded.
She'd only taken him like this a handful of times, mostly because he felt bad for asking. But when she did, god damn it was good.
Shimmying to rest against the headboard, he positioned himself and, when she squeezed his ass, slowly pushed the length of his cock down her awaiting throat.
"Fuck," he hissed, tangling his hands in her hair as he began to fuck her mouth.
She moaned at the taste of herself on his cock, causing his hips to buck a little harder than intended and making her gag.
"Sorry," he grunted, pulling back and screwing his eyes shut in pleasure when a strong suction caught his tip and kept hold of it inside her perfect mouth.
Shaking her head, she swirled her tongue on his slit and made eye contact as he resumed fucking her face.
Tears were running, her spit was everywhere, his balls were tightening as they slapped her chin, and he was getting dizzy.
When she gaged again, he groaned loudly, releasing down the back of her throat in what felt like a never ending orgasm as her nose and lips stayed pressed to his pelvis.
She tapped out on his thigh, and he released her hair, pulling out and collapsing beside her as she coughed lightly.
His cock was still spurting a bit, and she took a handful of him to finish him off.
"Baby baby baby baby," he chanted, taking her wrist when he became to sensitive.
Looking up to her, he moaned and his brows furrowed when he saw the state of her face.
"I'm a mess," she giggled, rubbing his abs lightly.
He scoffed. "You look fucking gorgeous… holy fuck…" he muttered. "Only time I think you've looked more gorgeous is when you gave birth to Ted."
"So possessive," she chided, giggling again.
"I try not to be… but seeing you after I've wrecked you like that.. fuck."
"You do a shit job at trying not to be," she teased, leaning to kiss him when Teddy cried.
"Speak of the devil. Go shower and I'll get him."
"Can you walk?" She jabbed, standing and stretching.
"Mhm… gimme a minute," he said pathetically.
Liv and El made breakfast for the kids before they all made their way to church. Eli was disappointed to see that Sam hadn't come again, and texted her when they got home.
E: Coming to dinner tonight?
E: Can't ignore me forever… I know where you live. :)
Sam sighed looking at her phone.
She was now 24 weeks along, felt massive, and in general was pretty miserable.
Also, she'd yet to share that she was an extra month along and that the babies were Eli's, but that was beside the point.
S: Sorry. Probably not, pretty crazy right now and tired.
E: Please… it's been a while we all miss you.
E: And you still gotta show us our little niece and nephew!
E: Annnnd tell us his name!
S: Maybe.
E: Sammmmmmm
E: Don't make me sick Emma on you.
S: E I'll see okay?
E: :(
She tossed her phone down with a groan as Katie knocked gently on her door.
"You can't hide forever," she whispered and Sam teared up, rubbing her belly absentmindedly.
She was struggling to connect with the little one, who was a surprise and looked so much like his daddy.
Mostly cause the only name she could think of was "Elliot Joseph Stabler, III."
"Yeah well," she sighed.
"You're sure you don't wanna tell…" she asked softly looking at her.
"Positive. He doesn't need to know."
"It's not just one baby he's missing out on, it's two and ones a boy, that's…" Katie said, sitting beside her and holding her hand.
"Katie… I love you. Please let it go."
She held up her hands and nodded. "Just come tonight? Yeah?"
"We'll see," she sighed turning back to her work.
The whole family was already at the condo when Kathleen and Beau arrived with Sam.
Emma gasped when she saw her and ran over. "Sammi!!!!"
"Hi girly," she laughed, hugging her.
Liv got up and walked around the corner, gasping a bit when she saw her. "Hi honey," she smiled, hugging her and putting a hand on her belly.
"It's barely been a month, look at these two," she laughed and Sam smiled.
"Killin momma already," she teased, rubbing her belly as she waddled in.
The boys looked up from the kitchen where they were cooking, grinning when they saw her and rushing to hug her, while everyone else followed suit.
"Glad you came," Eli grinned, kissing her temple several times right as she caught sight of Harley who excitedly waved to her.
"Yeah…" she nodded with a small smile, hugging Noah tightly.
"I have pictures from my scan this week," she said, handing them to Liv and El.
Joey was front facing the camera, but baby boy was to the side, only showing his profile.
"Oh my god no way," Eli said with a grin as he looked over his dads shoulder, his eyes falling to the corner of the ultrasound with how many weeks she was and quickly doing math.
"No way…" he repeated, looking at her and she smiled convincingly. "Yep… baby boy is shy but his sister is already a star."
"You're further along that they originally told you," Liv commented slowly and Sam nodded. "Yeah well," she cleared her throat.
"Wow…" Eli breathed out. "Well congrats I'm glad you're here," he nodded, going back to the kitchen to steady himself.
Emma and Noah took the hint and headed to the other room with the rest of the family, and Liv gave a look to Sam.
"Jack and I weren't a one time thing," she said bluntly, having rehearsed the line 100 times. "I lied cause I was scared. He's out of the picture and I'm gonna raise my twins and live our best lives, and you guys are gonna continue to be happy and not have the stress of me," she said with a nod.
"Sam… we love you, you know that? And them," Liv said, holding up her hands.
"Agreed. If that's what you say happened, and what you want to happen in the future, then that's what we will respect," El nodded, kissing her head before giving Kathleen a look and going to check on his son who furiously stirring the chili they'd made.
"Hey bud you good?"
"Hm? Yeah for sure," he said with a plastered fake smile.
"Okay that's fine but you're sure…" he was cut off by his sons look.
"Dad. It's cool. I'm cool. Let it go."
He held up his hands and nodded. "Alright alright. Just don't take it out on the chili," he sighed, patting his back.
Making her way over, Harley embraced Sam gently and smiled. "It's so good to see you… we've missed you!"
"Yeah I've missed you guys," she smiled small and nodded, hugging her back.
"You start school already?"
"Yeah, I did," she smiled small. "Wanted to get ahead on things before they come," she nodded. "You guys go back tomorrow?"
"Yeah, it's been the craziest summer so ready for a little bit of a normal schedule," she laughed and Sam smiled. "Tell me about it."
"Kathleen said your apartment is coming along?" She asked as they took a seat on the couch with the girls.
"Almost done… then to start decorating their rooms… figure they'll sleep with me for the first few months and then I want them to have their own space."
"That's so exciting," Harley smiled, gently putting a hand in her belly and gasping at the movement.
"They always get excited when it's time to eat," Sam smiled laughing a little.
While the pair of teenagers chatted, the "big kids" group chat was exploding.
D: Sibling meeting at my place after dinner.
K: Dickie. Stop.
L: Absolutely not. I agree with Dickie.
M: Me too. Sorry Kate, you're overruled.
K: Guys… this is her decision.
Elliot watched Liz practically smack the phone from her brothers hand and him suck in a deep breath.
M: Again. You're overruled. Meet at Dick's after or so help me God I'll tell mom and dad your secret.
L: Agreed. Dickie lost is phone privileges but he also agrees.
Elliot texted his oldest children quickly.
El: Whatever the hell is happening, knock it off until after you leave here.
They all gave him a brief nod before gathering to eat.
After dinner, the older kids unceremoniously scooted out early and Eli left to walk Harley home.
El started getting the littles ready for bed while Liv nursed Teddy and chatted with Sam.
"So have you picked out a name for him?" Liv asked Sam as they sat together.
"No not yet," she frowned a bit. "I feel… like I haven't been able to connect with him? It's super weird and I feel bad because of it."
"Don't feel bad," she smiled small, "you haven't had as much time to process him."
"Yeah plus… Jamie Olivia was so easy cause it's my mom and you, but… you know I can't name him Elliot," she laughed half hearted, her act breaking just enough for Liv to notice.
"Well… could if they were Eli's?" She asked softly.
She swallowed and shook her head. "They aren't so…"
She nodded, unconvinced and grasped her hand gently. "We won't be mad," she whispered. "Eli won't either. And that's all I'm going to say… alright?"
Sam nodded, blinking away tears and taking a deep breath.
"We gotta start making a birth plan and everything…" Liv said, changing the subject.
"I'd really like if you could be there with me… I know you um, have like a lot of stuff going on and just took a lot of time off but…" she trailed off when Liv smiled.
"I'd be honored… but you should also give the father one final opportunity to be there," she whispered.
Sam's lip quivered and she let out a shaky sigh. "Liv…."
"I'm pushing cause I care."
"I know you do," was all she could say, reaching to rub Teddy's head when he unlatched and looked back at her.
Eli and Harley were walking slowly together, swinging their hands.
"Your parents aren't home right?" He asked her and she shook her head.
"At that gala…" she trailed off and he smiled small, suggestively.
"You said you'd be there to say bye to Sam," she said warningly.
"Harley, Sam isn't my priority... you are."
She gave him a look and he smirked. "I'm not gonna go home yet…" he announced stubbornly.
"I'm giving you a pass right now, cause I love you and I know you're in your head, but you need to come to terms with this possibility," she whispered, cupping his cheek.
He gave her a little smile, "you love me?" He asked, holding her waist and pulling her close.
"Yeah," she bit her lip. "Don't ignore my statement."
"I'm sorry… I'll come to terms with it I promise," he whispered, kissing her, "and by the way, I love you too."
"What the hell is wrong with you," Liz yelled at Kathleen and Beau.
Dickie was sitting on his couch, squeezing a stress ball as Sarah rubbed his back.
"Okay… we're gonna actually not scream at each," Mo warned, motioning for them all to sit, "but to echo Liz… what the hell is wrong with you?"
"She's their mother and it's her decision."
"And he's their father," Carl sighed, shaking his head.
"He's 17," Beau said and Dickie looked at him. "Shes 17!"
"Richard," Sarah scolded and he slumped back.
"Not only that, but he's 17 and has been through so damn much in his young life," Mo said gently.
"And did you miss the part where our sister lived without our father for the first 9 years of her life?" Liz said, annoyed. "Oh wait, you knew about that too."
"And so did Dickie," Kathleen snapped.
"Don't you dare," Maureen said, standing up as Carl put a hand on Dickies shoulder, preparing to hold him back.
"All four of you stop talking," Sarah said, looking at Beau and Carl and standing with her arms crossed.
Sarah was not one to speak up, but knew the Stablers were on the verge of losing their collective shit, and her daughter was sleeping.
They were shocked at her command, and all sat back quietly.
"You love Eli, and that's why you're becoming so emotional," she looked to Dickie who nodded "We get it. We love Eli, too."
Pausing, she sighed, "but at the end of the day, Eli is a minor. And as a minor and his older siblings, is our responsibility to make his parents aware of the situation," she said, looking mostly at Kathleen and Beau.
"More so, your loyalty is to Eli as his sister and brother in law, and to El and Liv. I don't care that she's living with you. If he wants to pretend it's not happening, fine. But you need to tell him and then. He deserves to know, and I can't even believe we are having this conversation, Kathleen," she shook her head.
Beau sighed. "Guys, I… that was more on me, don't get mad at her."
"Shut up it was both of us," she grumbled.
"I don't care who it was. Tell Sam that we're telling him. Let him get through his first week of school and then Dickie will take him out this weekend to the gym or something and they can talk."
"Why do you guys always assume we need to hit shit," he said, crossing his arms angrily as everyone slowly turned to look at him and the stress ball he was about to pop in half.
Sighing, he flipped them off and nodded. "Okay… yeah I can do that."
"What do we do about mom and dad," Liz sighed, covering her face.
Since Teddy had been born, they'd collectively begun calling Liv "mom" when discussing stuff about the family, simply for the sake of the four kids at home, and definitely no other reason, they'd all lied to themselves.
"I'll talk to them," Kathleen sighed.
"We both will," Beau piped up.
"This weekend," Liz directed. "Mom goes back tomorrow."
They all nodded. "Talk to them Friday. Dick will take Eli Saturday. Okay?"
They nodded again. "So we're good."
There was a chorus of "yeses" that rang through the room and Sarah sighed. "Thank you. Now hug and make up."
Sam was gone by the time Eli got back and the family said their good nights before retreating to their room.
"I think they're Eli's," El said from the bed as Liv washed her face in their bathroom.
"Obviously," she called back with a sigh, drying her face and coming out with her moisturizer.
"But she's not going to admit it and he's in denial so," she shrugged.
"Our family is helping out financially," El said and she nodded. "Exactly," she said, moving to straddle his lap as she applied her moisturizer.
"And we're gonna be there for her and be papa and Cap," she said, adding a little cream to the dry spot on his face as they continued trying to convince themselves this was the right thing.
"And our son is gonna be okay and start school tomorrow," El added and she nodded, absentmindedly picking at a blackhead on his nose.
"And Teddy will be okay with Luce…"
"Mhm, and you'll be okay. Cause you're a badass and can do it all," he said, gently pulling her hands away. She shook her head pushing them back, "almost got it."
He laughed and let her continue before sliding his large hands up her thighs and under his oversized shirt she'd claimed as her own.
She finished with whatever she was working on on his nose, and sat back a bit in his lap. "I love you. I'd be a mess without you."
"You? Look at me," he laughed and she giggled, moving her hands to his bare chest and biting her lip.
She watched his eyes drift down to her perky but heavy breasts, whose nipples were distended.
"I'm horny," she whispered and he laughed softly. "I can tell… what do you need from me."
Letting out a contended sigh, she shrugged. "Just be in me," she asked and he leaned up to kiss her.
It was slow at first with lots of face stroking and gentle touches, but the moment she pulled his free from his undergarments, all bets were off.
"I need at least two to sleep sleep tonight," she moaned into his mouth as she slid down on him.
"Oh…" she gasped, dropping her head against his as she started to ride him quickly.
Knowing she needed a release of her tension and worry, he leaned back with his hands on the top of her thighs and relaxed while she wildly rode him.
Her hips rolled and lifted slightly in sync with the pressure she was applying to her clit.
He was mesmerized by the way her fingers expertly toyed with her breasts, rolling her nipples and crying out softly.
Knowing exactly what she needed in times like these, which came after a rough case or when she was feeling particularly stressed, he leaned up to capture her lips in a soft kiss before speaking quietly.
"I love when you ride me… when you take control and don't give a fuck," he said against her mouth, causing her to gasp and nod.
"I know you like that too… makes you feel like the badass Captain you've always been destined to be."
"Uh… uh huh…" she gasped and whined as she brought herself over the edge. It wasn't a mind blowing orgasm, but it spoke to the desire that was coursing through her and how much she had needed some type of relief.
He grunted softly as she squeezed around him. "That's it… that's it Liv…"
She slowed for a second, catching her breath, and then started to bounce again, grasping his hand so he could bring her to the release she knew she deserved.
"But not enough," he mused against her collarbone as his thumb took over her circular movements.
"You need me… you always need me even when you're two damn stubborn to ask," he growled into her ear as he started to move his hips in sync with hers.
"Isn't that right Liv?"
"Y-yes!!!" She gasped when the pleasure became to much.
"Cum for me like you mean it baby," he mumbled, and she did, collapsing into his chest while her body shook.
In three more thrusts, once she'd released his cock, he filled her with a moan of her name. "Liv… oh baby…"
"Fuck El…" she gasped, going limp against him.
"Mhm," he muttered, his arms snaking around her waist to hold her body close. "Fucking love you."
"Love you," she yawned and he chuckled. "C'mon, let's go to sleep- big day tomorrow.
Liv was up before everyone, already dressed and ready to go for the day, and making breakfast when the kids stumbled out.
"Morning!" She smiled cheerfully and they chuckled, going over to kiss her.
Noah hung on to her waist a little longer and she kissed his head. "You're gonna be great today… okay?" She whispered and he nodded, still hanging onto her.
Teddy whined on the monitor, and his head shot up.
"Go get him," she laughed and he sprinted off.
"Baby girl can you go get dad?" Liv asked Emma and she nodded with a sleepy grin, running off to her parents room.
"Tryouts tonight," Eli yawned, taking coffee from his mom and kissing her cheek.
"I remember, I'm probably gonna have to work late today so text me when you're done and I'll use that as excuse to leave," she winked at him and he laughed.
"Nervous?" He question, knowing his mom better than anyone.
"A little," she smiled, nodding and dumping eggs onto everyone's plates. "But I'll be fine once I get there."
"Of course you will," he grinned.
"What about you?" She asked, rubbing his arm as they sat down, waiting for everyone to come out.
He shrugged. "Haven't been back with everyone since Sam and… I mean everyone knows but I'm still nervous."
"You have good friends, you'll be okay," she smiled warmly and he breathed out a sigh and a nod.
"Text me whenever you need a reminder of how badass you are, son," she smiled, nudging him.
"Language," he scolded playfully and she laughed out-loud as Noah emerged with a fully dressed Teddy.
"I changed his diaper and got him ready," Noah said proudly and Liv and Eli laughed.
He was obsessed with his baby brother matching him and looking "like a cool guy."
Taking him, she kissed his head. "You're the best, thank you... you didn't have to do all that!"
"Gotta look good for Luce," he nodded as he sat.
"El, Emma, you guys fall back to sleep?" Liv called, and she heard quick rustling before the pair stumbled out, clearly having fallen to sleep.
"We're up," Emma yawned and El nodded. "Mhm," he smiled sleepily, saying good morning to the gang and sitting down.
"Alright Stablers," El said when he'd finished his food. "Big day today. Gonna make it a good one?"
They all nodded and smiled. "Alright. Let's kick some butt today!" He grinned and the kids groaned playfully.
"Dad you're so embarrassing," Noah laughed.
"Seriously what a nerd," Eli tease.
Looking to Emma, El put on his best puppy dog eyes, but she was already defending him.
"I think he's sweet, you guys are annoying, bye!" She giggled, hugging him tightly before they all went to get ready.
El leaned over to kiss his wife and smiled. "Kick ass today, baby."
"You too my, love."
The squad was hanging out in the bullpen when they heard the familiar click of their captains shoes, and then her voice hauling commands.
"Fin, hit Mercy on that Slate case- need a reinterview. Amanda, we have a rape vic on 5th that's refusing hospital, take Velasco down with you. If everyone can be back by 1 I'd like to have a briefing to make sure I'm caught up," she fired off, finishing when she made it to her office door.
She stopped short, paused, and then laughed softly at the balloons and flowers from the team that decorated her office. Turning with a smile and sigh, she found them all laughing and shaking their heads.
"Welcome home, Cap. Good to see you haven't changed one bit," Fin smiled.
She tossed her head back in laughter and flipped them off.
"Glad to be back, now get to work," she said, going into her office and sitting in her seat with a happy sigh.
Amanda snuck a photo of her through the blinds, back in her element and taking it all in, texting it to Elliot.
"The Captain is Back."