What She Sees
By: mysterychic
Disclaimer:
"When you wish upon a star, your dreams come true". I'm still
waiting.
Summery:
'When you die, you can see everything'. What Jessica saw.
A/N:
This is just your standard Jess's-final-thoughts drabble. Please
r+r!
When you die, you can see everything.
Everything that is. Everything that was. Everything that will be.
And in that moment of death she understands why.
She understands why he never talked about his family. She can see that night where his whole life changed. She can see the training, and the long hunts, where he faced unimaginable, terrible things. She can see them fight, that final fight as a family, before he leaves for Stanford.
She understands why he ran away to Stanford. She can see him; afraid of all the usual terrors of monsters under the bed as a child, except he is told they are real. She can see the look of longing as he is told that he cannot join the soccer team, or the swim team, or make any friends.
She understands those late night phone calls that always made him upset. She can see his brother, standing in a phone booth, trying to convince his baby brother to come home. She can see the hurt on both faces as Sam refuses.
She understands why he had to leave her that night his brother came. She sees his father, the man to whom Sam never felt he measured up. She sees the danger he is in.
She understands why she has to die. She sees another woman protecting him, when he was but a baby.
She can see him, months from now, on the road with his brother, the brother he rarely spoke of. He stares out the window, eyes bright as he thinks of all the things he never said to her. She wishes she could tell him what she sees.
She wishes that she could tell him that it is not his fault, that she would do this again in an instant if it meant his life would be spared.
She wishes she could tell him that she loves him, and that he will love again, though he does not know it now. She can see the girl who will love him, fix the broken pieces of his heart, a girl with dancing eyes who comforts him as he dreams.
She sees it all, and, as the flames consume her, she sees his brother, the brother that he rarely spoke of, pull him from the room, away from the hungry flames.