Knowing When to Come Out of the Dark

Hey everyone. Damn this is so hard! I cant type with one hand! If this chappy is a little short or has a little bad spelling, its because of my arm so yeah. This chappy may be short so who knows what will happen. I haven't updated because I have 3 lab reports due in 2 days so I wont be updating very soon. Anyways read goddamnait!

Last time- "Good bye gramps." Younger me said as she dropped his lifeless body to the ground. She walk to the family room and fell to the floor followed by sobs of her family being dead. You could hear mumbles being said "I'm sorry, I am so sorry. Good Bye gramps, Sota, mom. I love you all very much." With that she passed out and was slowly turning back to normal thirteen year old me.

Then the surroundings changed to a white room and younger me trashing in a straight jacket hold by demon shackles...then I woke up

Now- How Do You Explain Something So Hard To Explain

Kagome POV

I try to sit up, but I am filled with pain. I moan in pain 'Fuck! Where the hell am I? what happened?...Sesshoumaru.'

"I see you are awake." Came a familiar voice

"Sesshoumaru!" my voice cracked

"Shh. Don't talk. Rest." He grabs a glass of water and gives it to me, to drink. His eyes, they wouldn't look at me…I took a drink.

'God it feels so good on my throat' I noticed 'I'm going to have to tell him…'

"…"

"What were you doing there?" he asked

"…" I said nothing

"Um your dog, Koji…he's dead." State the obvious much

"I know." I still wont talk

"Kagome? What were you doing there?" he asked again.

I rolled over and faced the side wall.

"Kagome! Please, the only way I can help you, is if you tell me what happened?" he tried to keep his temper.

"I am there on my own choice." I spoke lightly

"Why?" he turned me over and embraced me. "Don't ever 'try' ever again." he commanded (a/n try mean to commit suicide k read goddamnit)

I said in a raspy voice "Now you know why you couldn't come over." and I black out.

Sesshoumaru POV

'Now you know why you couldn't come over? What? What do you mean Kagome?' and I cradled her body in my arms.

Sango POV

"Come on Miroku! Hurry up! Drive like Kagome!" I yelled in Miroku's ears

"Sango I want to see Kagome as much as you, but I don't want a ticket!" spat back Miroku, seeing the police car a little behind him.

Three minutes later

"Finally! Come on!" I grabbed the back of his collar and dragged him to the front door and up the stairs. 'There.' I busted into the open room. "Kagome!"

"Be Quiet!" whispered Sesshoumaru. In the bed was a very pail Kagome breathing hard.

"What did she do?" I whispered

He got up and walked to us. We backed up to let him in the doorway. He shut the door behind him.

"She slit both of her writs at least sixty times, thirty on each. She lost a lot of blood. By the time I got to her she was barely alive." His bangs were covering his face

'What- O god,' I covered my mouth, "Where was she?" I remarked

"She was in a old rundown building…and…she said a little while ago 'now you know why you couldn't come over.'"

'What does that m-' "Does that mean she lives there in the old disease infested place?"

Sesshoumaru POV

"I don't know, but the hole building smelled like Kagome." I concluded. I turn around because I heard a faint moan. Kagome was waking up.

"Kagome!" I busted the door open and ran to her side

Kagome POV

'God I don't feel good' I moaned. Then I feel someone feeling my forehead, so I open my eyes.

All around me was Sango Miroku with a fading hand print on his face, and Sesshoumaru rubbing his hand on my cheek.

"Kagome, how are you feeling!" asked a worried Sango

"…Hungry…" I managed to say. Sango left the room to get me something to eat.

"What happened to her? And what were the scars on her back?" Miroku though out loud.

"…"

"Did I say that? O I meant well…yeah that's what I meant." Miroku stumbled

"Kagome here's some food. Its not the best but, its still good." Sango admitted, and gave me a cup of instant ramen. So I took it and started to eat it.

"Its ok." 'They all must think I'm weak.' I though

"Are you feeling better?" came Sesshoumarus' voice that makes me shiver

"A little," my voice cracked. "I still feel very weak thou." I managed

"Kagome? Will you say anything?" poked Miroku

"Yes." I whispered. "Where do you want me to start?" I reluctantly asked

"How about the beginning?" said Miroku

I nodded "When I was thirteen I had a friend named Rika. We were always by each other. She helped me and…I did nothing." I look around to see if they are listening to me, and they are "Her beatings got worse over the months and I still did nothing. When she jumped off the roof and I went down to see if she was alright, I just lost it…I was consumed by my hatred, guilt, anger, and weakness. So I went on rampage through my hometown. When I was filled with all the emotions I couldn't stop what I was doing. I killed my classmates, teachers, random people, and…my family." My eyes glazed "After that happened I ended up in lab. I was being tested for all that shit. I had no life beyond the white room. They did a experiment, it went wrong. So that how I got the scars. They wont heal, for some reason."

"Then how are you here?" asked Miroku

"That one experiment, my beast took over and killed the people. So I got out of the place." I whispered

"Where do you live?" they all look at me

"…"

"Kagome" they poked

"I live in the place where you found me." I looked to Sesshoumaru

"…" no one said anything. It was silent.

"Can I be alone now?" I am on the verge of tears. They comply and leave the room and shut the door…except for Sesshoumaru. He is still sitting by my side. "Can you just leave me be?" I couldn't hold it in anymore, I cried in Sesshoumaru's arms. "Why do I have to be alone in this world!" I sobbed

He rocked me back and forth in his arms "Kagome? You don't have to be alone. You shut people out, so you're alone…Stop. I know its hard. I was like this when I was younger. I wasn't happy. Then I found some friends." He comforted me

"I want friends. Its just…I'm afraid I will hurt them" I cried harder

"You have to let out your emotions. If you don't, they all build up till they burst. So that why you loose control……Come out of your dark lonely shell."

He put his fingers under my chin and gently pulled my face up. So he could see my face. He leaned in closer till his lips brushed against my lips. I blushed. His eyes closed and he kissed me fully on my lips. My eyes wide in shock. I feel his tongue rub my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I'm hesitant at first but, give him entrance. My eyes close.

The kiss was long and full of compassion. It seemed to of lasted forever.

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