Cameron still remembered the words House said to her at their date, 'You live under the delusion that you can fix everything that isn't perfect. That's why you married a man who was dying of cancer. You don't love, you need. And now that your husband is dead, you are looking for another charity case.'
Those words hurt her, more than he could ever have imagined. The insinuation that she only liked him because he was a damaged man, made her question every single decision she took in her life, specially the ones that she took after her husband's death.
Could it be possible that her life was that shallow, could her lack of emotions be the reason she usually looked for comfort on other's problems, does she really have a need to save House from himself?
She made this question hundreds and hundreds of times, and the answer was always the same; she didn't possess the power to control her feelings. In fact, how could she simplify an emotion that was intended to be difficult to understand?
"Why do you find it hard to believe that a girl like me could fall for you?" asked Cameron, innocently.
"Why do I find it hard to believe, Cameron?" repeated House with a vicious smile on his face. "Well, for starters it's not normal thing to do. Immature girls like you usually look for men that can protect them from the world.
"Wounded girls, like you obviously are, don't want a man that could only bring misery to their pathetic lives, it's a fact; there are studies to prove this if you don't believe me.
"Second, I never showed any interest in a romantic relationship with you. Sure, I like to stare at you, that's why I hired you in the first place, but that doesn't mean I like you, Cameron.
"Third, I always treated you like a slave, not like an equal. Unless you are a freak who likes to be spanked once in a while…should I really continue, I think I've made my case already," cut House with boredom.
Cameron didn't loose her cool because of House's coldness towards her; she was used to this kind of behaviour from him every time he wanted to make her go away.
"Love can't be explained with logic, House, even you have to admit that."
"It should, the divorce rate in this country would fall ninety nine percent if a man could choose the woman that he wants to spent the rest of his life with."
"You know what your problem is, House? You like being miserable, it gives you a reason to alienate others."
"Is that a bad thing? The last time I checked, miserable people were more interesting than the rest of the cattle."
"You can't be serious."
"Of course I am. Tell me, what's more appealing; a cop that returns to his family everyday after a hard day of work or a cop that goes after the man that killed his wife because?"
Cameron was too shocked by House's question to give him an answer.
"I'm glad you agree with me," said House with a smile after seeing her reaction.
"Is that the reason you can't afford to love me?" asked Cameron.
"What reason?" House really didn't know what she was talking about.
"Come on, House, it's obvious that you are afraid to be happy with someone that is different from you."
"Now you are projecting you delusions towards me, Cameron."
"Am I right or not?" insisted Cameron.
House refused to be disarmed by her persistence; he wouldn't let Cameron escape from her flaws as woman by making him the delusional of the relationship. He was the one in control of this game, not her.
"Before I answer your question, let me ask this; if you could choose who to fall in love with, would you have fallen for your husband…and for me?"