She laughed cynically to herself, berating herself for ever falling for a song that wasn't for her. That she wasn't meant to hear. She clutched herself, the cold finally set into her skin. With winter's air all around her, Jude couldn't break loose; she turned frantically in every direction. But she couldn't escape the clenching grip of the icy wind, the pure white blanket of snow that incessantly crunched each time she moved an inch but still scraped the walls of her ears like nails on a chalk board.

She couldn't escape Tommy.

And when she recognized the chorus that filled her brain, every fiber in Jude's entire being screamed for her to run and never look back, to shove snow in her ears, just not to listen to whatever Tommy had to say to another girl. Jude thought as a tear slipped down cheek, blazing a fiery trail along her face. It was another tear she shed for Tommy, Jude wanted to stop but the dams freed as another thousand tears leaked for Tommy.

It was always for Tommy.

And all I need is day inside,

Inside your mind to see what its like.

And all I missing and you I see,

Am I who you want,

...Am I what you need?

The wind blew against her wet tear stained cheeks, adding salt to her gaping Tommy-wound. She listened on and in spite her hatred of Pasty; the girl that Tommy fell in love with, Jude knew she would have done anything to be that girl. She didn't care if there were other guys anymore, she gave her heart to Tommy on her Sweet Sixteen and he wouldn't give it back. He crooned a simple vowel, but it hummed into the air, lofting to her senses as Jude felt herself break down.

Why do I need?

Why do I need someone else?

When all I need is day inside,

Inside your mind to see what its like

And all I'm missing and you I see

Am I who you want?

...Am what you need?

Jude's heart soaked every word, filling it with a seemingly irreversible sadness. He sang softly, but his voice carried over to Jude who felt herself back away, desperately trying to save the remnants of her shattered heart.

Oh...

Am I what you need?

Pity melted her into a lost and weak puddle. He was what she needed, but he wasn't asking Jude and never would be asking Jude.

When Tommy opened his eyes, they rested on her instantly. She watched his face shine with an unreadable emotion and Jude felt herself momentarily leave her body and watched the rest unfold. From her God-like view she watched Tommy sit completely still while Jude's world paused with him. Jude watched herself tremble as Tommy looked at his hands, twiddling his thumbs in circles. She regained herself as he came over to her, grasping her chilled hand, rubbing it within both of his own. His touch was numb at first, but Jude looked up into his searing eyes, instantaneously losing herself. A boot inside her head knocked wind back into her lungs, finding her feeble voice.

"Luck girl" Jude muttered loud enough for Tommy to hear.

She looked back down, wanting to streak naked in the snow before she wanted to see the pity in his face. Instead she felt Tommy grip her other hand, bringing them both close to his chest, waiting for her to look up. Jude relented; feeling and watching him guide her hands over his heart.

Her own fluttered hopelessly, feeling the steady beat of his. She suddenly inflated with a courage that she had never been able to muster in thefour years they had known each other.

"Why wasn't it me?"

Am I who you want?

The tears in her eyes sparkled, threatening to fall again. Tommy slowly placed a finger on her cheek and as the single tear fell, he caught it.

"It was always you girl." He whispered back.

Jude felt a roaring sensation fill her ears, as the two leaned in never breaking gaze. She felt his lips on top of her own, gently pulling her closer to him until a pin wouldn't fit past the two bodies. Jude pressed her lips back to his, watching every dream flicker in front of her eye lids, every tear flutter away into a far, dark corner of her heart, every stolen glance fade away into a black abyss where held her treasured memories.

Tommy threw his excuses into a howling fire along with his hesitations watching them melt into his flaring passion, heightening the intensity and love in the kiss. He tenderly pushed his lips farther onto Jude's, wrapping his arms around her waist protectively as the wind whipped ferociously and he felt her lean closer in his arms.

Tommy stumbled forwards, pushing Jude against the door. He pressed further, feeling his hands make contact with the frosted glass door while she felt the handle burn into her back. Jude leaned forward, away from the knob, slipping her tongue in his mouth. She felt his hands glide under the delicate fabric of her cardigan and he fingers pranced around the hem of the shirt underneath.

His fiery touch blazed its way across her freezing skin, as Jude felt the cold whip around her, contrasting with his burning touch. He led his own tongue between her lips as his hands crept farther up her stomach, reveling in the soft feel of her creamy skin. His roughly calloused fingers danced underneath her shirt, tickling as they crept towards her back. He let his mouth fall to her neck, caressing it with his lips, his blazing passion trailing down her throat.

She gasped a breath of ecstasy but he regained her lips, muffling her cries. She let her grip loose from around his neck, seeking out his hands and finally realizing where she was. Each broke away, breathing in the wintry air and letting it scorch their throats like the fire that burned between them.

He gave her a lopsided grin, seeing the same hunger in her eyes that he felt in his own. Tommy impatiently took the back of Jude's head and pulled her towards his own, resting the two foreheads. "I would say something romantic, but I already used my line a few minutes ago." He said watching a smile play on Jude's face. The two lips met again, destined to be together. She interlocked their fingers, reveling in the feeling of his warm skin on her frosty hand.

Am I what you need?

Footnote: I'm about to cry with shame, really. I called Valery990 Valleygirl or something equally hideous. I want to curl up and die, or have Instant Star taken away from me. (which eaquals death to me) I am so sorry! I feel so bad after you were so sweet to me! I am the fanfiction Grinch! but I really want to thank JudexQuincy, anberzen, aEs2oo8, Erin Micknley, Tommys my 21 (btw I love your handle, Tommy's like the best 21 out there. and I love how IS fans get the general idea of a "21" from the song but everyone else is like what the hell does that mean? lol) I hope that I didn't butcher anyone elses handle becuase if I did I will certainly cry. So this is the end I'm sure you guys go there were a few references to She's So Halogen its not a sequal I just wanted to add a little PATOMYness lol. So please review because your last ones made me sqeal with joy and I love you guys soooo much! and be on the look-out for more one and two-shots. primarily of the Jommy sorta... :o)