Summery: Alec explains why. This is my first Dark Angel fic, so be nice.

"Why? Why are with him and not me?" Logan pleads to Max in a silent whisper.

They were all standing there, Max, Logan, Asha, and Alec, waiting for her answer waiting to see what she would do, but she couldn't, didn't know how to explain. Why Alec? She stole a glance at him and he knew, knew how hard this was, and how hard it was to put what they had into words. Manticore never taught them how to do that, ten years on the outside and it was still a struggle to recognize any kind of feeling and even worse to share those feelings with others, so he did it for her. Never taking his eyes away from hers he spoke, because he knew.

"Because I know,

I know what its like to hide your true self from everyone,

I know about the nightmares that seem so real because we remember every minute detail, I know what its like to kill a man and watch the life leave his eyes,

I know what's its like in there, in that cold place,

I know why she left and how she couldn't let us live like that when she returned,

I know what its like to relish in the hunt and to have this part of you that is pure animal and to hate it,

I know how much a single touch can feel like the greatest comfort, because they would never allow it,

I know the importance of a name, you take it for granted, your names, you don't realize what its like to not have one, to be a number, to be expendable, to feel like your less then human, a name means your real, your alive and your not something expendable, a name is worth dying for, a name she gave me.

Because I know her better then you could ever hope to, better then you would ever want to, trust me.

I know what its like to feel fear all the time to always be looking for the exits, figuring out the best possible escape routes just in case, to always be on edge, never comfortable around your friends.

I know what it is to be a soldier, to be a transgenic, to never be accepted, or known. Because I know."

He walked over to her and took her in his arms, placing his forehead on hers "Because this is us." All she could do was nod and pull him closer as the tears threatened to fall. The kiss they shared was feather light but contained so much emotion. It was hard not to see the bond they had made while hugging the other as close as possible.

After a few seconds they broke away and Max looked at Logan. There wasn't anything left to say, so sending shaky smile toward Logan, Max grabbed Alec's hand and they left.

All Logan could do was watch as the woman of his dreams left with the man of hers. "Goodbye Max"