Chapter 11: She loves me, she loves me not

When Sakura opened her eyes, she noticed sunlight was passing through the windows. It was morning already. She looked around the bright room and then noticed Syaoran was sleeping sweetly next to her, his arms wrapped around her waist.

She got surprised for a second and remembered last night events. She made out with him, and they fell asleep together. She got out of the bed as quietly as possible, trying not to wake him up, went directly to the bathroom, fixed herself up a little, put on some sweat pants and a t-shirt and left the bungalow quickly.

She was walking as fast as possible through the bungalows until she reached the one where Tomoyo was. She started knocking on the door strongly and constantly, as if someone had died or she had just seen a ghost.

Tomoyo answered the door, obviously she was still sleeping cause she was a complete mess, that, and it was very early.

"Sakura? What happened?" Tomoyo asked concerned. First of all Sakura was awake at that time in the morning, and second of all she had a really freaked up face.

"I…" She started, then looked inside the room and saw Eriol sleeping tightly. Still she grabbed Tomoyo's arm and pulled her outside "I made out with Syaoran"

Tomoyo's face changed from a very sleepy one to a very exited one.

"YAY!" she started screaming "This is so cool!" Sakura grabbed her friends arm strongly.

"Shhhh… Eriol will hear!" It was clear that Sakura was really going through a nervous breakdown

"What's wrong? You are not repenting are you?" Tomoyo was looking at her really seriously now and Sakura just moved her head saying no "Then what's wrong!"

"I… I don't really want to have anything with him, you know? It was just like a one night thing" Tomoyo looked really disappointed after this and she took a deep breath, but before she said anything Sakura went on "Look he's leaving to China soon, who knows if I'll ever see him again! I don't want to get all exited about this if it's not really going to last!"

"You should tell him that" Tomoyo said really disappointed "Men I got really exited Sakura you big meany!"

"I know… I'm sorry I just… do you think he thinks I want something with him?"

"Something?" Tomoyo asked not really following Sakura

"Like a relationship pr something! You know!" Tomoyo stood silent for a second then looked at her friend and took a deep breath.

"I don't know you should wait to see how he acts and then you tell him if you think it's the right thing to do… if you think that refusing to date a hot , sweet guy who is really into you, then you should tell him!" That comment actually made Sakura a little mixed up about everything.

"Ok… I'll do that! Thanks! Go back to Eriol" Tomoyo laughed a little and then went back to her bungalow.

Sakura walked back to her bungalow and opened the door softly, in case Syaoran was still sleeping. But when she entered she found Syaoran was not in the bed. And the bathroom was free, that meant he had left the room.

She went to the bed and closed her eyes trying to figure out how she would tell all those things to Syaoran. Tomoyo had a point, he was every girl's dream of a boyfriend, but was good was it to have him if it would only last until summer starts, when he would have to go back to China and that day just kept getting closer and closer.

The door opened and Sakura sat on the bed instinctively. Syaoran entered through the door and looked at her surprised, like not expecting to see her there.

"Hey" he said closing the door behind her and sitting on the bed in front of her, staring intently at her eyes "You woke up very early"

"Yeah" She said smiling uncomfortably "I… there was too much light"

"Yeah that woke me up too" He stayed there looking at her, not finding the words he wanted to say. He knew that Sakura didn't want a relationship, and was pretty sure that last night's kiss was just a kiss, nothing more. But he couldn't find the strength to ask her if his assumptions were correct.

"Syaoran" She started, it was the best way to just say it "I… yesterday"

"Don't worry" He interrupted her. Sakura looked at him really confused, but he didn't care. He would rather just assume the whole situation than hear the truth from her. "I know last night was just like a one time thing, don't worry"

She looked at her and he could almost see a little regret on her eyes. But he just wouldn't stand to lose her, and if being her friend was the only way to stay near her, then he could be her best friend.

"I… great" was all she managed to say. He was really as great as Tomoyo said, he was probably the greatest guy she had ever met.

They were leaving back home that day. So they were all packing their bags, and taking them to the bus that would take them home.

That morning they decided to relax, go to the sauna and the pool for a while, before having their lunch and heading back home.

Tomoyo was really surprised at the way Sakura and Syaoran were acting. They acted as if nothing had happened, making jokes, bothering each other… the usual. For a second there she thought that Sakura had imagined the whole kiss, because there was no humanly possible way to act that way after having a night like that.

But hey were different than her. Apparently they were really good at hiding their feelings.

They finally got to the bus, where Syaoran sat next to Sakura, she even fell asleep on his shoulder on the way back. It all felt so wrong to Tomoyo. They really liked each other, and they looked so great together, Sakura was so stupid sometimes. She had to do something to get them together.

When they got back Sakura and Syaoran left together walking, apparently Sakura still felt energized and told him the exercise was good for their bodies. Finally they were home. Touya was sitting on the porch of her house, so Sakura just waved goodbye at her friend and went inside the house.

"How was your trip?" Touya asked very intrigued.

"Fine" She said as she walked up to her room placed the dirty clothes on a basket to wash them later.

After a very relaxing bath she decided to go visit her tree at the forest. She hadn't been there in a long time, and today seemed as good a day as any. So she left her house and started walking towards the forest.

Syaoran, who was on his room, playing guitar to take some tension of his back, noticed through the window that Sakura was leaving her house, and heading towards the forest, she was probably going to visit her tree. She was so childish about that tree, it was almost pathetic, but at the same time kind of cute. He really like that about her, the innocence she had. Not many girls were like that anymore.

She found her tree to be filled with pink sakura blossoms, and the floor beneath it too, the view was just amazing. She smiled to herself and sat on her spot, closing her eyes, and the first thing to occupy her mind has the one thing she didn't wanted to think about, Syaoran. She remembered the first time they met, right there, on her tree. She was so mad at him that day.

She shook her head like trying to erase those images from her head, but not finding herself able to forget about them. She had to accept it, Syaoran had become a really important part of her life, and the idea of loosing him really frightened her.

After several hours of sitting there, under her tree, she decided to go back home, her stomach was starting to make funny noises and that was dangerous, so she had to eat something, and the fact that it was starting to get dark also made her move.

By the time she reached her house night had already fallen over her. Her brother had already made food, and after watching some tv she went to bed, and slept like a baby that day.

The next couple of weeks went on peacefully. Sakura had finally passed her guitar lessons so she didn't need Syaoran's help anymore, but she still enjoyed listening to him play every now and then. Every time she went to him house he was practicing on that mysterious song he didn't want her to listen, but by what she had been able to listen the song was very nice.

She was also noticing how Syaoran was now becoming such an important member of their group. He was like Eriol's best friend, and he spent a lot of time talking with Tomoyo and the other girls. He was a completely different guy.

"Sakura?" Syaoran said while they were walking back home one day. She looked at him a little confused, she was thinking of something when he spoke to her. "you were not even listening!" He said a little upset.

"No! I'm sorry, I was just… yeah I wasn't listening" She said a little embarrassed.

"I asked you if you were coming over later to do the math homework!"

"Ohh… yeah sure! Is Tomoyo going too?" Lately they had the habit of group studying, along with Tomoyo and Eriol, but Eriol wouldn't be able to go that day because he had something with his family.

"Yeah… she's coming later"

"Right" they had already arrived but they were talking in front of Sakura's house "Then I'll see you later" She entered her house and Syaoran went over to his.

Sakura was on her room when he heard a car on the street, she looked through the window and noticed Tomoyo had already arrived. So she got all her stuff and starting walking over to Syaoran's house.

She was about to enter his house when she noticed she had brought the wrong notebook, so she went back to her place and got the right one. Then, when she was about to enter hi house through the kitchen, she heard they were talking about her.

"Tomoyo there's no use, she only wants to be my friend! I have to respect that!"

"Yeah but she is so clearly dying to be with you! Come on Syaoran you have to do something! You are leaving as soon as school ends, that leaves us with three weeks! You can't just leave like this!"

"If she knew I was leaving in three weeks she could refuse even more, you know her better than I do Tomoyo! It's just pointless" His voice sounded so frustrated, so helpless.

"That's why I'm telling you! After you leave Sakura will be dying in regret for not taking her chance! And who knows, you might still see each other!"

"Look she'll be here soon, there's just no use"

Sakura was listening intently to their conversation and didn't notice that one of her books was falling, and by the time it hit the floor, it was kind of obvious that was there.

She picked it up rapidly and entered the house. Both of them were staring at her with a really funny look on their faces, like if they had just been busted. She laughed at them as she placed her books on the table.

"You guys look like if you were busted doing something!" Sakura said laughing trying to make them believe that she didn't listen to any of those things. Neither of them spoke so Sakura started again "Well are we gonna study or what!"

They studied for the rest of the afternoon. Then Tomoyo had to leave, and Sakura stayed there, Syaoran had invited her to have dinner there since she would have to eat alone at her house that day.

After Tomoyo left a very uncomfortable silence filled the room. Syaoran knew that Sakura had listened to their conversation, but if she wasn't going to mention anything about that incident he wasn't doing it either.

Sakura kept on working on her homework, but she was doing a very good job concentrating, all she could think of was that Syaoran was leaving, was he ever planning on telling her! That was just wrong, he was such an ass… she had to tell him!.

"So you were just going to leave and not tell me!" She screamed at him.

Syaoran looked at her confused, so she had heard.

"No! Sakura I would never do that!"

"So when were you going to tell me Syaoran? WHEN!" She was really upset, and he knew it was his fault "You told Tomoyo before you told me!"

"I wanted to wait for the right time!" He answered back "But with you there's never a right time Sakura, you are always avoiding being left alone with me, and if we are alone you are talking and talking like if the world is going to end tomorrow!"

Sakura looked at him amazed, it was true, after that trip she avoided being left alone with him, but if he had such important news he should have told her!

"Whatever" she said softly. She took her books and was about to leave his house, but he hanged on to her arm and turned her around, they were face to face, and Syaoran noticed some tears were coming out of her eyes.

He cleaned them with his finger and lifted her face softly so she would face him.

"You should have told me" She said softly

"I know… I'm sorry Sakura… I really am… you have to understand, I don't want to leave, I don't want to leave you! You are probably the best thing that has ever happened to me!

She smiled in between tears and looked at him directly in the eye. There was so much sadness in them, he was telling her the truth. She let her books fall to the floor and hugged him strongly. He surrounded her tiny waist with his arms and hugged her back.

"This doesn't mean I'll leave you, you know?" Sakura nodded and smiled at him "You are always going to be my best friend"

Best friend… he hated it, being just her friend, but he had to live with it, she was just too important to loose her over something so stupid like him having a crush on her. Tomoyo thought he was wrong about it, but what did she know about it!

So sakura did stay to eat at his house, and she went to her house pretty late. Somehow she felt like she had to be with him as much as possible, she wanted to remember every little thing he made, every gesture, every move.

Once in her room, and ready for bed, she started imagining what would it be like if she was actually dated him after the trip. They would be together, and it would hurt even more to know he was leaving, but at least she would be able to kiss him, to touch him… she wanted to be with him, she really did.

AN: hey so did you guys liked this chapter? I am really trying to make ever chapter as good as the last one, so I hope you liked this one!

SO any comments you know just review, or review just to tell me if you liked it… or not! You know! Well see ya'll next time!