I run as fast as I can, as if my life depended on it. I sprint even faster, taking longer strides trying to out run the memory of what had just happened. I don't know how she could do this to me. God is hurts so bad. Tears are streaming down my face; my lungs feel like they are being shredded with a blunt dagger. I run to the bridge in the park where Willow and I went the time Xander summoned the demon that made us burst into song and dance. I lean over the rail of the wooden bridge attempting to catch my breath. I watch the water run over the rocks to calm me down but all it was doing was bringing back memories of her. My knees are so weak I have to kneel down and lean my side against the railing so I do not loose balance. Every memory comes flooding back to me. The first time I saw her at the Wicca group, our first date, our first kiss, our first… everything. I do not understand how she can do this to me. Everything was finally good again. It must be a spell! Oz has her possessed or maybe some other kind of oogly-boogly! It has to be! She would never hurt me. Not like this.

"Tara! Are you out here! Tara!" I look around. It is Buffy. I don't want to be found, but I can't move. Buffy yells out again.

"Tara! Tara, are you… oh my God! Tara what happened, are you okay?" She runs to my side and kneels down next to me to check for injuries. "Oh God Tara, are you hurt?" I wipe my eyes to rid them of the tears that are overwhelming them.

"H-how... how could sh-she... d-do this?" I ask not holding back. Buffy brushes my hair out of my face with the tips of her fingers.

"What happened? Did you and Will have a fight?" Buffy looks confused and worried. She didn't know?

"Willow didn't tell you?" My voice cracks as I speak. Buffy glances around, then back to me.

"No… I haven't talked to her today. Xander called me. He is worried about you, said you ran out of the Magic Box and that you were upset, but no details." I was finally getting my breathing back to normal, but my eyes are still stinging with tears. Buffy puts on her motherly face and spoke softly, caringly and sweetly like Joyce used to with Dawn.

"Tara what's wrong? You can trust me." I guess there is no point in keeping it all bottled up. I mean she would find out anyway, right? The whole thing replays in my mind, over and over.

"Oz…" I take a deep breath, trying to keep the tears from falling again. "Oz is back. He and Willow… came into the M-magic Box…ho-holding hands." I tightly close my eyes and I can feel Buffy put a reassuring hand on my knee. God this hurts. I thought talking about it would make it better. I shouldn't be so foolish, but I continue slowly. "Sh-she said…something about, just yesterday she loved…then she cuts off after she sees me and stops her sentence by adding my name. I remember her sounding guilty of something… but I'm not sure of what. Then I left quickly and as soon as I stepped outside I thought Willow…Willow and I should talk. When I went back in…Oz… he kissed Willow's hand and said… she had a-agreed to marry him." Tears threaten to fall once again but this time I try and hold them in. A few stray tears slide down my cheek as I go on. "Th-that's when I-I ran out in a hurry, I-I didn't, couldn't even look back. It… it hurts so bad, I can barely breathe." Buffy felt for me. I knew she was aware of the emotions I was going through. Lost, lonely, terrified of never being able to see or love that person again, fearing it will happen again with another lover in the future, all of the pain, all of the confusion.

"But she, I thought you two worked everything out after the spells and stuff?" She asks quietly trying not to make a bad situation worse. I look to her feeling so defeated.

"So did I… so did I." The tears are overpowering me again. "I think it might be a spell or something of that nature." Buffy's sympathetic look makes me attempt a smile.

"Tara, I think-" I cut her off before she can finish her thought.

"Buffy, I-I know you know how I feel." A pained look paints across her face. "I am sorry, but I n-need to know… how… you got through it. Please." Buffy half-smiled unsure of how she should continue.

"Tara, it's not that easy. I wish it was. There would be a lot less heart-ache if it were like that.