Sorry its been so long, It will get more enjoyable for you W/T fans just hang in there!
But if you remember correctly, I am not the one you should be asking about this topic. With Angel, I made him lose his soul on more than one occasion; I kissed his lips and then stabbed him, sending him through a portal that he was going to destroy the world with, and I ran away from home. Then after I returned home and Angel came back, we decided to not see each other. With Parker, he basically just used me for… well you can only guess what. Riley was another story. He was so… amazing. I loved him so much, but then he left. I went… I ran after him but the helicopter flew off and I watched him leave me. I was screaming for him, but with the noise of the engine and blades he never heard me. I watched him fly outta my life for the last time. Well, he came back but he brought his wife. No need to go back to that. See Tara… we all make some mistakes, especially in love. Are you sure you and Willow are done?" Buffy asks sincerely. I take a deep breath and let it out slowly.
"Positive. I heard her agree." I say completely discouraged.
"Go and talk to her, make sure before she leaves and you lose her forever." I nod and get up slowly, staggering a little so Buffy helps me. Once I am up I dust of my clothes and Buffy gives me a hug.
I manage to whisper a "Thank you." Buffy smiles "Go to your girl! Talk, make up." I nod and smile.
"Can't I…"
"No." She cuts me off. "No cavewoman beer!" I smile at the sound of that. Am I that transparent? I reached the dorm and stand in front of the door listening intently. It sounded quiet. I reached for the door knob then hesitate. I take a deep breath and enter. It was dark. Thank heavens! I walk in and hit the playback button for the message machine. The machine played back Willow's message then went to the recent callers. The robotic voice then took over.
"You have ten new messages for Friday, March 31, first message… "Hey Will. Sorry about today." I hit the skip button and just listen to the voices to hear who called. Two messages were from Buffy and Giles, two from Xander, and the rest were from Willow. The last message said, "Tara? Sweetie, I'm sorry. I'll be at the dorm later tonight to talk to you. We can figure things out; I just want to explain myself. Oz is staying with some friends so it'll be just us. I'll see you tonight. BEEP! The messages ended and I took in a deep breath.
"Willow I love you so much, but apparently you'll never know. You'll never know you saved my life when I had hit rock bottom, or how I love the way you wink at me. It's like we have a little secret and nobody else knows. Or the way you bite the tip of your pinky nail when you're on the phone. It's the little things that get me." I say to the empty room. I change into my pajamas and go to bed with a heavy heart and a tear in my eye. Willow was sitting on the floor in the corner unnoticed. She wipes the tears from her eyes and stifles her crying. "Tara, baby… If you only knew."