Title: Sleep
Author: MissMouseMD
Disclaimer: What do you know, I still don't own Grey's Anatomy.
A/N: Here's chapter 2, please review!
Tired
When she wakes up, he's still there. Asleep.
For a moment, she feels so happy. And then she remembers.
He's married.
She wriggles out from his arms, and makes a dash for the bathroom.
She's still crying half an hour later, when he finally awakens.
He knocks loudly on the door.
"Meredith?"
No response.
"Mere?"
He's getting worried.
The sobbing has stopped.
He continues to bang on the door, but there's still no reply.
She's sitting in the empty bathtub, clothes still on. Shivering.
The loneliness is coming back, slowly creeping throughout her body until she feels like she's been submerged in ice.
She wraps her arms closer to her body, to quell the shaking.
Why did he have to be married?
The door opens. She wonders how he did it.
And then she realizes. Izzie has a key.
He's coming closer.
She stares straight ahead. Like a deer caught in the headlights.
"Mere?"
For a moment, there's silence.
"You're married."
"I know."
"She loves you."
"I know."
"I love you."
"I know."
And that's all it takes. The tears are coming, harder than before.
He tries to comfort her.
She swats his hand away.
He's sitting there in the bathtub with her. Staring at her. Eyes full of pain.
She wonders why he's even there.
She waits for him to leave. Or say something. Anything.
But there's only silence.
She's lost track of time.
The sound of his voice startles her.
"I'm sorry."
And then he's leaving, just as simple as that.
She's still sobbing. Harder than ever.
Izzie comes in. She's worried.
She drags Meredith out of the bathroom.
Back into the bedroom.
"Sleep."
But sleep is avoiding her once again.
She's so tired.
She wants it all to go away.
She gets out of bed and stumbles down the stairs.
The kitchen is quiet. Empty.
She knows exactly what she's looking for.
She twists the bottle open, and shakes the pills onto her hand.
She swallows them all dry.
The room starts to spin.
Blackness.