Title: Sleep
Author: MissMouseMD
Disclaimer: Don't own Grey's Anatomy.
A/N: Last chapter! Thanks so much to everyone who reviewed, and thanks for putting up with my computer retardedness! I really appreciate it! Please, PLEASE review!
Heal
Someone's crying.
Not loud, just quiet, gentle sobbing.
She tries to open her eyes, but she's so tired. And her eyelids feel so heavy.
She wonders where she is.
And then she remembers. The pain. The loneliness. The crying. And then, the darkness.
A single tear falls down her cheek.
He sees it.
"Meredith? Are you awake? Meredith?"
It's exhausting, but she does it. She opens her eyes.
He grabs her hand, and he looks so relieved. So happy.
She wants to jerk her hand away, but she's so tired. And not just physically. She's tired of the games they play.
"Why?"
His voice startles her.
She avoids the question, looking at her hands.
Tears are burning in her eyes.
"Why did you do it, Mere?"
This time, he's louder.
She takes a breath.
"Because. Because I was tired. Lonely. I just wanted everything to go away. But it wouldn't. I couldn't make it stop. And I was so tired."
Her words come out in a harsh whisper.
He looks at her, eyes full of emotion.
"I was so scared. I came back to see you. I knocked. No one answered. Your car was there. I got a little worried then, but I told myself you were just sleeping. The front door was unlocked. I walked in. I went to the kitchen, to see if Izzie was there. And then I saw you."
His voice cracks. He has to stop.
She stares at her hands, ashamed.
"I thought you were dead. You were so pale. So still. And all I could think about was how much I'd hurt you."
She's crying again.
She feels like all she ever does is cry.
He takes her hand again. She smiles through her tears.
And then she remembers.
"You're married."
Her heart feels like shattered glass.
Every time she tries to mend the pieces, it just falls apart again.
He's shaking his head.
"No."
She looks at him, confused.
"Not anymore. I signed the papers."
Her jaw drops.
"Why?"
He smiles sadly.
"My heart wasn't in it. I didn't want to lead her on anymore. I care for her. But that isn't enough. We both knew it. Neither of us were brave enough to say anything."
She doesn't know what to think.
She won't be lonely anymore.
He'll be there.
He won't hurt her again.
Will he?
She doesn't have time to fully grasp the situation.
A nurse walks in.
She smiles.
"Dr. Grey."
Meredith doesn't say anything.
She's so ashamed.
The nurse is taking her temperature, checking her vitals.
"That was a close call, Dr. Grey. Now you need to sleep. You're not better, you should know that. You are a doctor, after all."
She smiles a bit, and nods.
He squeezes her hand.
She's afraid to fall asleep.
She's afraid of the loneliness. The cold, empty feeling.
He senses her fear. And smiles.
"You'll be okay. I'm right here."
And she believes him.
She begins to drift off, feeling content.
She'll be okay.
He'll be there.
Fin.
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