Disclaimer: Harry Potter belongs to J.K. Rowling, only Jane, Adea, Kayla and any other characters not in the book belong to me

(A/n): This chapter is going to be crap and I'm going to edit chapter 6 however, much I can because I think we all agree it's quite crappy. Also this chapter is dedicated to themaraudersaremine; if you're reading this could you please point out my mistakes so that I can correct them?

Thatgirl

It was October the 15th. Kayla and Adea were studying for the History of Magic while Lily was frantically trying to get the Halloween feast events in order. Jane, who had done her fair share of studying, decided to take a walk around the grounds, one of her favourite pastimes.

As she walked into the Entrance Hall, she crossed paths with Gabrielle. Who had her nose deep inside some Defence against the Dark Arts book.

'Any closer and you might as well jump in Simmons' the young girl looked up her forehead creased in an anxious frown. 'What? Oh hey Jane' she muttered absentmindedly. Jane raised an eyebrow 'Uh yeah, hey, are you alright?' this time Gabrielle didn't bother looking up 'hmmm? Oh well I have this DADA test and I really need to study'

'Let me guess, this is your first test since you started school, right?'

'Well yeah and obviously I want to do well'

'Yes, been there, Gabrielle my friend in 4 years time you will look back on this moment and kick yourself for getting worked up on something so unimportant, when in fact OWLs are just around the corner'

Gabrielle looked apprehensive 'Please don't scare me in advance' Jane chuckled 'Come on bookworm, I think you've revised enough, you're joining me for a walk'

'No seriously, I don't have time for a chat'

'I never talk on my walks and you can use the time to test yourself without the help of your book' and with that Jane shrunk the book and stored it in her bag and dragged Gabrielle out.

They walked around, Jane observing every aspect of the beauty surrounding her and Gabby muttering hurriedly under her breath. They walked around for 5 minutes until reaching the lake but both girls stopped when they heard some very excited giggling. Jane pulled Gabrielle behind a bush.

'What's going on?' Gabby asked. Jane looked to the first year and back to the two people at the lake. 'That's' Sirius Black' she stated. Gabby peered through the bushes to find Sirius Black whispering something into the ear of a girl who must have been the source of the giggling. 'Yeah it is, why do you care' she looked at Jane shrewdly.

Jane stared back 'promise not to tell anyone, not to tell anyone at all' Gabby shook her head 'Good otherwise I'd have to hurt you and I'm in seventh year, Anyway, I kinda, sorta like him' Gabby suddenly donned a look of pity as Jane went back to peering through the bush.

'But who's that girl with him?' she muttered abstractedly. The younger girl looked again, this time more closely and recognised the girl.

'Wait, I know her; Estrella Salgado she's a sixth year Gryffindor. She helped me out with Charms once, she's actually quite…' but she trailed off noticing the murderous glare Jane was giving her and continued with a different angle '…BITCHY, oh my god that slut' she said feigning disgust.

Jane approved the statement and added 'don't say that your sister would kill me' as an afterthought. –I hate her, no wait, I hate HIM. Damn, I have nothing on that girl she could be the next bloody Miss England, or Spain- 'that girl's Spanish isn't she?' Gabrielle nodded in affirmation 'I'm almost sure of it' she watched the two before her draw closer and turned away.

'Come on Gabby, suddenly I don't want to walk anymore and you need to revise, lets go' Gabby nodded again this time piteously as she got up to leave. 'Gabby?'

'Yes Jane'

'Don't look at me like that, please, he's just a guy, that's all' but she repeated under her breath "yeah, just a guy"

Kayla and Adea were sitting in their dormitory, still scouring through their History of Magic books. Jane stepped into the room and Adea lifted her head slightly and followed Jane with her eyes until she (Jane) collapsed on her bed. Adea closed her book and cautiously walked over to her friend's bed. 'I think it's safe to say something's up, wanna talk?' Jane continued to stare upwards at the ceiling though her mind was noticeably elsewhere.

'I thought something happened that night. Between us' Jane mumbled. Kayla, who had closed her books as well, now looked at Adea quizzically, who said 'This is about Black, isn't it' Jane looked to her friend, who noticed the silver eyes were now clouded with an aura of pitiful confusion, and nodded. 'Can we wait until Lily comes back please?'

'Why' Kayla replied. Jane chose not to reply but Adea did 'she needs time to think, we can wait a bit'

Nearly fifteen minutes later an agitated redhead walked in. 'Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. I'll never get this finished. Halloween's gonna' be crap. Then everyone will hate me, including Dumbledore then I'll lose my Head Girl badge, and then, and then' she muttered hysterically. Kayla rolled her eyes and Adea almost burst out laughing.

'Lily darling? Calm down, how about letting Potter and the prefects do some of the work'

'But he's going to mess this up, this can not be messed up this is the first chance I've had since September to prove to Professor Dumbledore, that I'm capable' now Adea rolled her eyes.

'First of all, Potter's head boy for a reason, he won't mess it up. Secondly, you're head girl for a reason you don't need to prove yourself to Dumbledore, he already knows your capable. Oh and lastly take a deep breath and get a grip. We have bigger problems to deal with' she said indicating Jane. Lily took a deep breath and her expression went from hysterical to concerned.

They silently fought over who was going to go up first and eventually decided to go together. Facing Jane while she was upset wasn't always safe.

They sat down on her bed and Adea began tentatively 'Jane, what happened'. Jane looked at them, one look at her eyes made them wash over with sympathy and anger. 'What did that berk do?'

'I, I was walking on the grounds with Gabrielle. And, and well we came to the lake and heard some giggling right?' the others nodded, not quite sure of where this was going. 'Anyway I noticed Black out the corner of my eye and I pulled Gabrielle and hid behind a bush. Well I looked and he was there with Estrella Salgado. Whispering in her ear and when we left they were about to kiss'.

Lily looked in thought. 'Estella Salgado, hmmm? She's sixth year, isn't she? Nice girl, always willing to help the younger ones, quite pretty too' she finished, but this time Jane just sighed miserably while Adea shot Lily an exasperated look. Adea shook her head and continued 'You wouldn't usually care, how about you tell us what happened in the kitchens that night' Jane sighed again and looked defiantly up at the ceiling.

'I was, I was in the kitchens. And then, well he walked in and told the elves to get him food, anyway at the time I was a little pissed off that he was there. Then he seemed to remember me and I shot him a sarcastic comment and I think a few minutes later, he apologised for the whole train incident. Anyway I asked him if he meant it and then I turned to look at him and we sort of, well met each other's gaze and I swear time stopped, then he goes "are those eyes real" I was a little confused, but I'm pretty sure that was when I started to like him. Anyway I just said yeah and looked away. The elves came back, gave us our food and I promptly left to avoid any more awkward situations. I must have been walking for like barely two seconds and suddenly he offers to walk me up because he was going there too. Well when we got to the bottom of the dormitory stairs I met his eyes again and both of us got lost again. Anyway I was the one who left first and I'm pretty sure he was still looking when I got to the top. So you can understand can't you?'

Lily and Adea sighed but Kayla rolled her eyes and debated with herself before saying what was on her mind.

'Jane I know you feel awful but' and here she received two reprimanding looks but she persisted 'you have got to know by now, that one these "moments" don't really mean a lot to Black.'

'Kayla, how can you be so blunt, can't you see this is rather sensitive'

'No Lily she's right, I shouldn't be so upset, I'm acting like one of his fan club. I'm going to forget about him. In fact, we're going down to dinner right now and I'm going to prove to myself and all of you that as of now I couldn't care less if he's going out with that girl' she took a deep breath and walked out. But the other three huddled

' I think that means we can't say her name now'

'Yeah, don't cross her on this God knows what she could do in a frenzy'

'Just follow her example. Estrella Salgado is now that girl, right?' they all nodded and ran after their friend to accompany her into the hall.

On entering the hall all the girls except Jane (who was rather determinedly looking ahead) scoured the hall for Sirius Black and found him sitting with Estrella. He was obviously saying something funny because when they sat down they could hear her say 'Sirius stop it, my sides hurt and I need to eat' at which he whispered something in her ear and the girl blushed.

Kayla decided to test her best friend 'Black and that girl look like they're having fun don't they' Lily Adea started banging their heads on the table but Jane put potatoes on her plate completely undeterred. 'Yes they do rather, don't they'. Adea looked sceptical of the response but Lily was rather surprised –woah, not many people could manage that. Only Jane could get rid of a crush on demand- meanwhile Adea thought differently- Note to self, kill Kayla when Jane's not around. Jane can act as nonchalant as she wants but inside I can see it's killing her-. Kayla however, was quite pleased with herself –see, I knew Jane could do it, all she needed was a test and now we have confirmation-

'Quiet, quiet now'. The room fell silent. 'OK so you're here because little miss prim and perfect' James said pointedly while Lily rolled her eyes. And she put on an obviously fake, and sickly sweet voice 'Why don't I take over from here Potter, alright' the prefects looked on amusedly.

'What Potter was trying to say in his own obnoxious and insolent little way was that, I thought I could handle managing Halloween on my own' at this she noticed the prefects looked slightly disgruntled, but for the life of her she couldn't remember why. Suddenly something flew into her mind.

Flashback

'OK so about Halloween. We've had a meeting with Dumbledore, basically we need to get the whole thing in order ourselves' Potter's saying. The prefects broke out in whispers. I analysed Potter, this was Halloween. No, no way was Potter going to ruin this. No, no, no. I mean the prefects, they're too young to understand the importance of this and I'm going to carry this out by myself.

'Wait Potter. Hey guys you'll love this. How about I do everything?' I see Potter raise an eyebrow. One of the Ravenclaw prefects shouts 'Why?' why is she questioning me she should be glad this means no work for them, heeelllllloooooo?

'Uhhh because I thought you guys wouldn't want to help out, you know use your time doing stuff you actually want to do…' Potter's cut me off, idiot 'No because she thinks we're going to mess this up' I look him in the eye. He isn't happy, who cares?

'No Potter you're going to mess this up' another prefect speaks up 'hey we can help with this, this is our job. We have to help you' I looked him in the eye and I know the boy is starting to regret what he said 'You're right and I'm telling you to have fun while I do the work and you know what? Get out, meeting's over. All of you, go, now' Potter crosses his arms as the prefects run to the door. 'You can't tell me what to do Evans'. Deep Breath. Nope not gonna' happen.

' JAMES POTTER, GET OUT RIGHT NOW BEFORE I GO ANY FURTHER AND HURT YOU WHERE YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE HURT'

I'm making my way towards him, he's paling, and yes he's gone. The great twat.

End Flashback

Lily blushed. 'Oh yeah, and I'm sorry for thinking you weren't capable enough to help me. I'm really sorry. The stress was getting to me and I wanted to really prove myself, you know. In fact, forget it you won't understand' she broke off and indicated for James to start off again but when she looked at him he defiantly crossed his arms and smirked cruelly. Lily's eyes flashed, but she took a deep breath and turned to the prefects again.

'Please accept my apology and can we get on with it, since there's only like 2 weeks to do all of this' (a/n: It is now Oct. 16th). 'I've made a list. OK lets start with the Gryffindors, you are in charge of decorations, Ravenclaws, you are in charge of dress code, you know fancy dress, muggle, dress robe, whatever you want, Hufflepuff: menu, that's food and drinks, you have to have a meeting with the house elves and everything. And finally Slytherins, you're in charge of entertainment, plays, performances, bands whatever. Oh yes everything has to be okayed by me AND Potter. Not just one or the other.

Oh how stupid of me I've given you jobs but not told you what's going on. This year's feast is going to be slightly more formal. There are going to be tables for two. Dates are advised. And, this is for the Hufflepuffs; it's going to be an ordering thing. Any objections?'

A Ravenclaw girl spoke up 'this isn't an objection. But, if it's going to be formal, shouldn't we rule out the possibility of fancy dress?' Lily smiled 'Observant, good. Yeah I forgot about that, you're absolutely right but the rest is up to you'. When none of the other prefects objected she allowed them to go. She didn't notice that James had stayed behind, but he wasn't the only one.

'Lily?' she turned and smiled 'Hey Waqar'

'I just wanted to say that I understand, what happened about the whole Halloween thing' she smiled grew wider –Adea is so lucky to have a guy like him- she got up and hugged him not realising that James was still there, Waqar briefly hugged her back. 'Listen I have to go now but come and talk to me if you need to ok?' and with that he left.

James had watched the entire thing and even after Waqar had left was growing steadily jealous but Adea had told him to be hostile to begin with. 'So, Mohsin your new boyfriend now?' He sneered. She turned 'Oh, you're still here'

'Answer the question' she glared at him speechless. 'I…I, how dare you order me around like that. No he's not my boyfriend, he is just a friend, which is way more than I can say for you' she seethed. At this he winced but he didn't want her to know she'd got him.

'You know what? I'm sick of you Evans. Oh and by the way I'm sorry about what I said about you at Breakfast that day' he said knowing she knew which breakfast he was talking about. She studied him and said 'Apology accepted' in a resigned voice.

'Well…yeah… then, good' James struggled in a stubborn and childish tone. Lily raised an eyebrow as he stormed out. Now what the hell was that about?

–How did he know? That's not important. Well yeah it is, but… I mean he apologised. But he shouted when he said it, does that mean anything? That's not true. What's not true? He didn't shout when he apologised, just the bit before it. Yeah you're right, so why was he still acting angry? You only have to go and ask him, you know, he's most likely going to be in the lounge. Mmmmmm, I guess. You have to do it. You know that. Fine I'll go- and she sped off to the Head's chamber.

Upon reaching it she found the Head Boy sitting in an armchair and staring into the fire. 'Potter?' He didn't turn but her voice had snapped him out of his daze. 'What do you want?'

'Well, I was wondering, why you're still mad at me. I mean you apologised, I accepted. So… I mean I don't want to be your friend. But, I was wondering if the whole apology thing would help you stop being so difficult at meetings'. James sat and mulled it over. –Well I'm mad at her because Adea told me to, there's nothing else to be mad about at her for I guess? Why would Adea want you to act mad at her for in the first place? I'm not sure, it is a little weird, and I mean if I'm trying to get her to like me then why should I be mean? Are you sure Lily hasn't done anything for you to be mad at? –

Realisation hit James like a ton of bricks. –Of course. Why didn't I think of this before? She wants Lily to feel guilty for all the humiliation and pain she's caused me- he thought about all the names Lily had called him and noticed that he didn't need to feign anger and now because the real thing was bubbling under the surface. He looked at the face that had caused him pain and more than a few sleepless nights.

'Evans, I'm not mad at you for all the things your friends have done on your behalf'

'But then, why…' he held up a hand to stop her, took a deep breath and ploughed on.

'I'm angry because of all the anguish because of you. I have liked you for so long now. Yet every time I ask you out, you find a new harsher way of rejecting me. Have you never noticed the hurt in my eyes, when you say no in your colourful ways. Do you think I don't get affected by someone who I'm very head over heels for, constantly telling me how arrogant, how conceited, how big headed, how egotistical, how snobby how cocky, how immature I am. You know what? I'll admit, I do act conceited and immature around you but if you're so great then why don't you see through my façade. Why don't you observe what I'm like around my friends, have you ever, once, asked why I hex Slytherins? I used to hex them for no reason but since sixth year, that's changed.

But no, Evans you won't bother to look beyond what you see. You're too narrow-minded. Any reason to have a good shout at me, you don't even care if you're being fair. Oh and as for big headed. Why don't you take a look at your own superiority complex? Take Halloween. You were so bloody scared that everything was going to go your way, because the rest of us were too dumb and clumsy so you had to do it yourself…' but at this he was cut off because Lily who had tears rolling down her cheeks half way through his speech, obviously couldn't take anymore and ran out of the chamber sobbing. But for the first time James didn't feel guilty at all. He felt a little satisfied.

Lily ran into her friend's dormitory, still sobbing and was immediately hailed by her friends. 'Lils what's wrong?'

'What happened?'

'This is about James' Adea mused. The other two looked up at her in awe. 'And how do you know that?' she shrugged. Lily nodded. 'It, it is about h-him ' she cried. 'What did he do?'

'He said he's mad at me for all the things I've ever done to him. H-he r-really grew up in, in my eyes to-tonight'. Kayla gasped. 'Wh-what do you mean?' she asked.

Kayla wasn't a massive fan of change. Lily not hating James, it just couldn't be. 'He made me feel like such a callous bitch' the crying girl said. Lily held her arms out to Jane, the most motherly out of all of them, who in return hugged her and rocked her to and fro soothingly. 'It's ok, sweetheart, you just let it all out' as Lily started sobbing again.

'H-he said I was the conceited one. I was too n-narrow minded' Kayla's face hardened even more. 'That's it Potter's so getting it, the hallway stunt that was nothing'

'NO' Lily cried. Kayla softened but was still confused.

Lily looked at her with her red eyes and her tear strained cheeks and shook her head. 'Don't you see? He was right, spot on. I do have an amazingly large superiority complex'. Jane looked her in the eye 'No don't you dare believe a word that bastard said' Jane cried. Lily shook her head again. 'Dee what should I do?'

Adea looked up 'Huh? Just ignore him best you can. Just leave him alone. If I know him he'll ignore you as well. I think it's best for both of you if you didn't have to encounter each other unless necessary for a while, you obviously can't handle it. I mean look at you Lils' she advised. Lily nodded solemnly and looked around.

'Hey guys can I stay here tonight?' she asked in a hopeful tone.

'Of course you can, you know there's always been a free bed for you here'. Lily smiled through her tears –what on earth would I do without them? –

Later that night when everybody was asleep a certain charcoal haired person took out her diary and headed for the Common Room.

October 26th- 11.51 pm

Dear diary,

Have you ever felt like, you've been pushed into a pit, but it's bottomless? You keep falling deeper and deeper, faster and faster and there's no way of getting out? I never thought such a feeling existed, until today.

I can feel myself almost ready to collapse. I feel more walls of protection guarding my inner self. I can feel my heart but only very faintly as if it's subdued. I only felt a small sense of attraction towards him, but if that's the case then why am I so crushed?

He's found himself an amazing girl. She's Estrella Salgado. She's of Spanish descent. She has gorgeous dark brown angel curls for hair, tanned skin and I think brown eyes but I'm not sure. Lily says she's really nice. She's perfect. I have nothing on her. With my charcoal hair, pale skin and frankly creepy and possibly haunting silver eyes.

I used to love my eyes. No one else has them. But after seeing him with her, how can my eyes be that great, he obviously prefers hers. I don't know why I'm so jealous and why I'm feeling so cheated. We weren't going out, it's not as if he's two-timing me. I shouldn't care. But I do, and I can't help it.

I hate this feeling. I can't control it. I've always had control over my emotions; I could sop myself being angry, happy, upset with the snap of a finger. I've tried that but it hasn't worked. I tried to act apathetic over the whole thing. But I tell you when Kayla tested me over dinner, I had never wanted to cry so much. NEVER. I can't believe I've let myself fall for that idiot. He'll never look twice at me.

Kayla's right. Moments mean nothing to Sirius Black. She's my best friend but never have I wanted her to be so wrong about something. I can't write anymore, I have to go.

Snowflake xx

Writing in her diary was the one time when Jane felt she should always use her given name. She closed her eyes and allowed angry, confused, heartbroken tears to conquer her face.

Three hours later, she still sat there contemplating, eyes closed, but mind alert. Three boys walked in looking very unkempt. Her eyes flew open and she found herself looking into the eyes of the person who had been the topic of all her thoughts. Jane looked straight back into his eyes, but felt her tears start up again. With that she got up and ran up the stairs, crying silent tears.

(A/n): How was that?