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We left off where Ross and Monica were talking and even though Ross still thinks these things happened, he finally accepted the fact that something is wrong with him. He's on his way now to see Rachel.
In the mean time, Rachel is telling her parents and her sisters (They still live there) the whole story. They're in the living room and Lukas is in the den playing x-box. He's sad about his dad but at the same point, he doesn't think it's as bad as it is.
Rachel's is the middle of the story, "The way he looked at me was filled with hate. He literally hated me."
"Oh my god, what did you do?" Amy asked in a serious, concerned way.
"I didn't do anything. The doctors said that he probably had a tumor in his brain that would trigger all sorts of crazy things to happen. But they did some tests and it wasn't that, so he has a symptom called par amnesia, where you just have extra memory that seem so clear to you. It's curable all in due time. And for some reason the doctors thought that it'd be best if Ross just went on living like there's nothing wrong"
"Oh sweetie that's awful." Sandra said in a genuine way. "Well you and Lukas are welcomed to stay as long as you like."
"Thanks mom, I appreciate it."
"I'm sorry sis, I know you and you're baby don't need this. Is there anything I can do?"
Rachel is surprised hearing this from her sister, "Thanks Jill, but you guys letting us stay here is all I need." She notices her dad hasn't said anything. Sarcastically comments, "Dad are you okay? You haven't even told me what a mistake I made by marrying him yet, you haven't told me I'm better off without him." Raises her voice, "Come on, let me have it! Tell me he doesn't deserve me anyway. Tell me!"
At that point her dad goes over to her gives her a comforting hug. She's shocked but happy that he didn't say anything. She bursts into tears, "Shh, shh it's okay" while they're hugging, "I don't wish for one second that any of this to happen to you, okay? Nobody deserves to go through this."
Sandra says to the girls, "Girls, lets go check on Lukas."
"But we'll miss…" Amy begins, not wanting to miss this.
Sandra cuts her off, "Come on." They all leave.
Rachel and her dad are still hugging but looking at each other. Rachel's crying.
He brushes away her tears, "I'm sorry if I come off strong on Ross. I only do that because I like him so much.
Rachel sniffs and smiles weakly, "really?"
"Of course. Come here." He takes her hand and they sis on the couch. He hands her a tissue.
"Thanks" She sniffs.
"I see the way you look at Ross and more importantly the way he looks at you. He love you and cares for you so much and that's all you need. I'm sorry that it seems like I don't like Ross, but I do. I love how respectful he is of you. He's the best son-in-law I could ask for. Everything's going to be fine Rachel."
"You know, hearing that from you just now meant the whole world to me. Thank you dad." They hug. Rachel feels better talking about Ross' memories, "He thinks I cheated on him."
"Wow, that's big.
"Isn't it though? I mean he has a clear memory that I cheated on him. That's how screwed up his head is."
"He'll wake up one day and realize something's not right. You'll see."
"Thanks dad."
"Now you and the baby should try to get some sleep."
"Ross noticed that I was getting 'fat' and asked me whose baby I was knocked up with this time. He's an ass isn't he?"
"Sweetie, that's not him, okay? You know Ross would never hurt you like this on purpose. Now why don't you go try to get some rest okay?"
"Okay, thanks dad, for everything."
"Anytime sweetie" They hug. Rachel goes to the den to find Lukas playing x-box. Sandra and the girls are having fun watching him.
"Well I'm turning in for the night," Rachel says.
"Oh night dear." Sandra hugs her.
Jill and Amy both say, "Goodnight."
Rachel kneels down by Lukas, "honey?"
Without taking his eyes off the TV, "Yeah?"
Annoyed that he's not paying attention, "Honey can you pause the game please?" He pauses it. "Listen to me okay? It's 8:30 now I want you in bed by 10:00. That gives you an hour and a half alright?"
"Okay"
She stands back up, "Can you make sure he's in bed by 10:00?
"Of course dear. Now you and Emma go get some sleep."
"I know a way for him to be sleeping by, oh let's say, 9:00?" Jill starts joking around and Amy laughs.
Rachel raises her voice, "No no alcohol." To Lukas, "Honey watches your drinks."
"I will mom." They all laugh.
"Goodnight sweetie, I love you."
"I love you too mom."
She smiles at him and he goes back to his game. She looks at her mom and sisters, "Night guys."
"Night."
Rachel goes up to her room and settles in she doesn't go to bed just yet.
Back downstairs. Everyone is now in the den. There's a knock on the door.
"I wonder who that could be?" Sandra says.
"I don't know, I'll go check." Leonard says, wondering the same thing. He walks out and Sandra follows. Amy and Jill stay.
Leonard answers it to find Ross. They're both shocked to see him. They don't say anything.
"Hey guys. I know you probably weren't expecting to see me, but I need to talk to Rachel."
"She's upstairs in her room." Leonard says, glad to see him.
"Ross she's had enough stress for the day, why don't you come back another day?" Sandra's about to close the door on him.
"Sandra, stop. Let's hear why he's here first."
"I want to explain to Rachel that even though I think all these things happened, I now know that something's wrong with me and they didn't happen. Can I talk to her please? I know how hurt she must feel."
"Of course her room is…" Leonard began.
"I'll find it thanks." he leaves in a hurry."
"I swear, if I see her cry one more time because of him, I'm gonna…"
"You're gonna what?" Leonard asks smiling. "Hey that wasn't Ross that her okay?"
We go to Rachel's old room. She's on her bed, lights are on she's just thinking, praying aloud. Her door is opened a crack. Ross gets to her bedroom and listens to her for awhile.
Crying to God, "Please God, bring Ross back to me, I need him so much. If you have anything happen to him I'll hate you forever. I mean it. But if you perform one of your many miracles I will love you forever and I promise you this baby will be brought up in a Christian home. Please God, I don't ask for much, I need my husband back. Emma needs a father. Please. You know how impatient I am so please somehow give me a sign to let me know everything really is going to be okay." At that point Ross walks in. Rachel is very shocked.
Ross began, "Hi"Rachel doesn't know where to begin because she wasn't expecting him to walk in, "Hi." Doesn't know what else to say, she says, "Um, what…what are you doing here?"
"I came here to see you and tell you that I know you never cheated on me."
"So why did you make it up?" Rachel asks and doesn't let him answer. She's out of her bed now. She begins yelling because she's mad at him for hurting her like this, "I mean how dare you come here to tell me that. I want you to leave right now. I don't need this."
"Rachel, I didn't make any of this…" Rachel cuts him off, starts crying, "I can't do this anymore."
Goes downstairs. "Why do we hear yelling? There should be no yelling." Leonard asks concerned
"I knew him talking to her would make her upset." Sandra responds.
"Let's go see if everything's okay." He says to Sandra. He turns to Jill and Amy, "You two stay here with Lukas."
They go upstairs they're just listening right now outside her door.
"Rachel, I came here to tell you that I love you."
"I can't do this Ross, not now, not ever. We're done remember? You hurt me so much. Just leave, get out."
Out in the hallway.
"He's making her upset, Leo." Leonard sighs as he walks in.
"What's going on here? Ross?"
"I told her that I know she never cheated on me and she thinks I made it all up."
"Did you?" Sandra asks, thinking that he probably did. I know that her and Leonard's view of Ross sort of had a complete turn around.
"Sandra he wouldn't do that." Leonard looks at Rachel, "Rachel, sweetie? You believe him don't you? Something's wrong remember?"
Rachel's being stubborn, "Get him out."
He looks at Ross and shrugs in confusion, "Honey, let's give these two a moment."
"Moment? There is no moment." Rachel responds. I don't know why Rachel's being stubborn like this after she just asked God to bring him back to her. I just say that it's the hormones. Also a part of her just wasn't ready for him to be right outside her door.
"Sweetie, just talk to him." Leonard and Sandra leave.
Ross asks her in a concerned way, because he wasn't expecting her to be mad at him, "How come you're being like this." Rachel glares at him "You have to calm down. You and our baby don't need stress. And I'm sorry for the stress I did cause you but something's wrong with me and I'm scared. Rachel I love you and I need you more than anything."
She moves closer to him, "Tell me Ross, when you look at me, tell me who you see. Do you see me as you're faithful wife who would never hurt you, or do you still look at me and see me as someone who slept with someone else, even though you say that you know I didn't cheat, how do you see me?"
"I see you as someone who's hurt and confused but someone who has enough heart left to forgive me." Ross answers.
Rachel raises her voice, "That was not an option Ross! You obviously still see me as some whore who's carrying someone else's bab…" At that moment she screams loud and grabs her stomach. She holds on to the dresser to keep her balance.
"Oh my god Rachel. What's wrong?"
"Nothing, now go home." At that moment she faints into Ross' arms.
"Oh my…uh." Yells, "Someone? I need help!"
Leonard and Sandra come rushing in. "What what is it?"
"Oh my god Rachel"
"Call 911..." Ross tells Sandra. He's holding on to Rachel, "It's going to be okay, it's going to be okay."
A couple of hours go by. They're at the hospital. Everyone's there. Rachel's room. She hasn't woken up yet. Ross is in the room sitting in a chair next to her bed. He's sad. She starts slowly waking up.
"What are you dong here." She manages to get out.
"I'm doing what any other husband would do, being by his wife's side."
"Look, I'm sorry I got so upset before. I just want Emma to have a father."
Ross looks at Rachel with tears filling up in his eyes. Rachel knows what probably happened but she has to hear it from him, "Ross?" He shakes his head slowly. Rachel asks him in disbelief "what?"
"I'm so sorry Rachel."
"No…no it, it can't be." They both start crying.
"I'm so sorry, but the pains you were having were actually Emma's heart beat stopping."
"This isn't happening."
"It's true, she's gone Rachel. I'm so sorry."
She doesn't say anything for a while, calmly but firmly says, "Get out."
"What?" He asks her in disbelief that she would want him to leave.
Raises her voice, "You want me to spell it for you? I said get out!"
"Rachel…"
"This is all you're fault Ross! You're the reason my baby's dead!" He doesn't know what to say, he's so sad. Rachel starts going off, "If you weren't in that fucking accident I wouldn't be here fucking crying over my daughter's death! Now get out damn it!"
What Rachel said really hurts him deep. "You're right, this is all my fault." About to leave, "I am so sorry Rachel."
Walks out. Rachel is surprised that he did just walk out and feels guilty. She really does need him. Yells for him to come back, "Ross!" He comes back in and doesn't say anything. "Don't let me do this to you. This is nobody's fault. I need you more than anything Ross. We lost our baby today." She begins crying again.
Ross goes over to her bed and takes her hand. All of a sudden he realizes something. "Oh my god."
Rachel sniffs, "What is it?"
He let's go of her hand. "Today's September 10th."
"Yeah, what's wrong?" Rachel asks confused.
He shakes his head, "Never mind. You'd just think I'm more crazy than I already am."
Rachel then realizes what it might be; not wanting to ask him but she finally gets it out, "Ross? Is today the day Emma died to you?"
"Yeah it is."
"So what? Is this just some freakish coincidence or are you a frickin physic?" Rachel asked getting upset.
"I don't know what this is."
"You better pray to God that it's a coincid…"
Monica rushes in, "You guys, it's Lukas" Ross and Rachel look at each other worried. "He just suddenly collapsed to the floor. He's in the ER right now."
Rachel grabs Ross' arm, "Oh my god Ross."
"I'll go see what's wrong."
"I'm coming with you"
"No Rachel you have to stay here."
"Ross that's my son. I have to make sure he's okay."
"Rachel, you need your rest. Do you want me to stay here with you? We'll have people give us updates."
"Would you Ross? I just really need you right now."
Ross looks at Monica, "Monica, can you keep us up-to-date on our son? "
"Sure"
"Thanks" Monica leaves and Ross turns back to look at Rachel, who's too sad to cry. "Hey everything's going to be okay?"
"Lukas died the same day Emma did, didn't he?" 'Yes' he thought. She raises her voice, "Didn't he Ross?" He doesn't say anything." Starts crying hard. "Ross, why is this happening to us? Everything you thought happened that never did is starting to happen, why?"
Ross is very shocked and he is devastated about this but he can only think about something else right now, "I've gotta…I can't be here right now; I'm taking a walk." about to leave.
"No Ross, don't leave me." Rachel cries begging Ross to stay with her. He doesn't listen to her and just walks out.
Later, Rachel is crying to Monica, "Have you see, or talked to Ross?"
"No, nothing. Honey is everything okay with you two?"
"I thought so. I mean he told me that he knows that something's wrong with him and that he knows that I never cheated, so I don't know."
"Oh I'm sorry sweetie. I'm sure he's just doing some thinking. This is a lot of stress for him-for both of you."
In the meantime Ross is outside Lukas' room watching the doctors work on him. They're just finishing getting the results back from the tests they took on him. He's hooked up to a heart monitor and the whole works. A doctor walks out, sees Ross, "Hey are you Ross?"
"Yeah, is everything okay?"
"Uh I'd like to talk to you and Rachel privately."
Back in Rachel's room. She's still talking to Monica. "I just can't believe all this is happening. Just like Ross said-he said that Emma died, Lukas died and he…" just hits her, "Oh my god."
"What is it?"
"This means that he thinks I'm going to cheat on him."
The Doctor and Ross walk in. Rachel really wants to talk to Ross about this but she keeps quiet until she finds out how Lukas is doing.
"I'll talk to you guys later." Monica says as she walks out.
"What's going on?" Rachel asked in a concern way.
Ross goes by her side and takes her hand without even taking his eyes off the doctor, "he wants to talk to us privately."
She looks at him, "Okay." She looks at the doctor.
The doctor begins, "It seems to us that your son has a massive heart." Ross and Rachel take time to sink it in. He continues, "Um…I'm sorry to say this but," At this point Rachel tenses up and grabs Ross' hand tightly prepared for the worst. "It's nearly impossible to perform surgery on a case like this and also because of how young Lukas is…the only thing we can do is…wait." Wait meaning for him to pass on.
"So how long before he dies?" Rachel asks in a surprisingly okay mood, she was expecting this a bit. She's shed too many tears right now, and this is just all too surreal.
The doctor was even surprised that she asked that and is speechless, "Wow, um…"
She cuts him off, "It's okay doctor, I'll be fine I already know what it feels like to lose one kid, what's another one right? So what is it? I couple of hours, minutes, what? Or maybe I'm lucky and it's a couple of days." Thinks, "No that can't be, because luck isn't in my genes. I mean, I thought I was lucky when this one," points to Ross "came back to me but look at what he's brought me? Nothing. He's brought me negative nothing if you think about it because I'm down two kids. So tell me, what is it?" They don't know what to say, and before anyone can say anything, she continues now she's telling Ross, "I'm going to save the hurt and agony I caused you by cheating on you, because that's the next thing, right? I cheat on you? That's why you left, because you couldn't look at your unfaithful wife, and you know that it's going to come true because everything else is. Emma died; Lukas may as well be dead. Will you at least let me know who I sleep with?" During her whole speech, she has different emotions through it all.
"Rachel, stop."
"Ross, please, I don't want to hurt you all over again."
"I'll give you a minute." The doctor jumps in feeling awkward.
"Thank-you doctor for everything." Rachel says as he walks out. Looks at Ross, "You can leave too." He doesn't, "Come on Ross I know you want to, just leave. Or wait, you can't leave because then everything would be screwed up and what you predicted won't happen right?" He doesn't say anything, "Look Ross I love you so much and I don't want to hurt you by cheating on you, what to you would be the second time. So doesn't it just make sense to just leave?"
AN I realize that I'm not very good at the stage directions, or the actions that I give Ross and Rachel and everybody else and I apologize for that, but this scene I picture Rachel being somewhat sarcastic when she's talking and I just wasn't sure how to right that. I apologize again if there's been any confusion.
"I know that this might not make it any better, but nothing I said is happening the way I said they did, you know what I mean? There was obviously nothing we could do for Emma or Lukas, as for our marriage, that can be saved. Rachel I don't want to lose you all over again. We need each other right now. We can't let Lukas' or Emma's death effect us. We're both hurting the same and we need each other to have and to hold. I'm sorry but if you want me to leave, you're going to have to cheat on me," Smiles, "I'm not going anywhere." Rachel slowly starts to get out of her bed, as she's doing this, Ross says, "What are you doing? Be careful."
"I'm fine, really." She hugs him tightly and they cry together; they don't let go for a long time. They hug so tightly, you'd think that there was no tomorrow. As they're hugging, Rachel asks, "Tell me we're going to get through this."
"It might take awhile, but we'll find a way."
"I have to say goodbye Ross." She breaks the hug.
"Rachel, are you positive that you feel okay?"
"As long as you're with me, I'll be fine."
"Okay" He grabs her hand to leave.
"Ross?" He stops as she pulls him into a kiss, "Thank-you for everything."
"I love you, Rachel."
"I love you too."
"Let's go see our son." They leave holding hands. For the record, Rachel isn't wearing any weird backless hospital gown.
The End. For now? I really have no idea what else to write about. But if I go on I just feel that it might start to get very boring. I know you guys must know that Lukas is not going to make it. I know that this story is very dramatic. It's supposed to be. Sorry that the stage directions aren't better.
Honestly I'm am open to suggestions, if anybody thinks that something should happen, let me know. Should I continue? If so let me know and I'll try to add on otherwise I'm going to put another story up. Thanks. Also sorry for any typos I might of missed.