Thanks for all the reviews. I really appreciate every single one. They really do make me motivated to get the next chapter up faster.

AN: By the way, if this is confusing for anyone, Rachel is explaining this to her therapist. This is just a flashback. This already happened. You'll know when it's the present or a flashback. This is still a flashback. I just thought to clear that up. Hope that answers any questions.

Disclaimer: Don't own anyone, but the twins.

Scene The Delivery Room

Rachel's pushing. She's squeezing Chandler's hand.

"That's great Rachel, keep pushing…I see the head…one more big push…excellent." The 1st baby comes out, Caleb, he's not crying. Doctor Hayward gives him to the nurse. Rachel knows that there's something wrong, "Shouldn't he be crying?" She asks, crying.

Doctor Hayward nods his head sadly, "I'm so sorry Rachel, but he…"

In disbelief, "What? That's impossible."

"I'm so sorry. It's very common for premature babies to be still born. They don't have enough oxygen to survive."

Chandler doesn't know what to say, all that comes out is…"Oh Rachel…"

"So he really is dead?" Rachel asks once more to make sure.

Dr. Hayward looks down. He looks back up, "Look Rachel I know this is hard for you, but we…."

Rachel jumps in, sarcastically, "Oh really? You know how hard this is for me? Have you ever lost something you never even got to enjoy?"

"I know, I am so sorry, but we need to get that other baby out. Ok? Can you do that? Can you give me a big push?" Dr. Hayward says that seriously. Rachel begins pushing, then she stops, "Come on Rachel don't stop, give me another push."

Rachel starts crying uncontrollably, "I can't…" Shakes her head, "…I can't do this."

Chandler helps her, "Yes you can Rachel, you can do it."

"I'm sorry did you just give birth to a still born baby?" She yells at him.

"Rachel, we have to do this okay? You're almost there come on, one more push." She pushes and little Lukas comes out also not crying. "Oh no"

Both Chandler and Rachel in unison, "What?" Both knowing the outcome.

"Why don't I hear any crying? Is Lukas okay? Tell me he's ok."

"Rachel it's very common for premature babies to be still born." AN: I don't think that's

too common for them to be still born, they just need to be hooked up to oxygen and they need to be kept in the hospital longer. These babies were also two months premature which is very early, so it might be more common for them not to make it. Dr. Hayward continues, "They don't have enough oxygen to survive on their own. I'm so sorry. We're going to do some tests to see what caused you going into labor so soon."

A nurse speaks up, "Would you like to see them?"

"Are you kidding me? I can't look at them. Would everyone just please leave. Take the babies and leave." AN: I know if that was me I wouldn't care if my baby was dead, I would want to see them. Rachel just lost both her babies and isn't sure how to cope. She's not ready to say goodbye yet. It also fits in with the next part of the story. Very dramatic, I know. Sorry about that.

Chandler feels absolutely terrible at what happened, "Rachel, I don't know…"

Cuts him off, raising her voice, "Go, okay?" Calms down, "Just go."

They leave with their heads down.

Scene The waiting room. Chandler walks in looking sad. The gang stands up looking worried.

Everyone in unison, "What? What happened?"

Chandler is still shocked at what happened, in a daze, "They didn't make it."

"What?"

"The doctor said that it was very common for premature babies to be still born."

Before anyone can say anything else, Ross comes rushing in. Nobody really know how to act Joey, Phoebe and Monica are grieving.

"Where's Rachel? I heard this is the real thing. Is she okay?" He obviously doesn't know about what happened yet.

"I think you are the last person she wants to see right now." After spending some time with Rachel in the delivery room, he's never disliked Ross more.

"Did she already have the baby?"

"Yeah."

"Ross, do you really think you deserve to see Rachel right now?" Monica asks her brother.

Phoebe speaks up, "Yeah, you've barely been there for her these last seven months. Why is that Ross?"

"Well I've been making money to support us. What am I supposed to do?"

"You could've been there for her sonograms, her monthly doctor check-ups. Or when she wakes up in the middle of the night, sick, and needs you to comfort her…" Joey starts to name a few.

Ross wasn't expecting this and doesn't really want to deal with it now, "You know what? I'm sure she's tired right now and she'll be glad to see me." They all just stare at him in hate. "What room is she in?"

"You know what? I'm going to talk to her and make sure she's okay with seeing you." Monica leaves.

Phoebe has only one thing to say to Ross, "Y'know? You're really going to regret your actions towards Rachel once you find out…Actually she can be the one to tell you."

"What is going on?" Ross wants answers looking at Chandler.

"Rachel can tell you everything."

In the Recovery Room

Monica comes in, she has tears in her eyes, "Hey honey, how are you holding up?"

Rachel gives her a weak smile, "Hi." She sniffs and takes her Kleenex and dries her tears. "I'm ok. It's just been a long day." No one says anything, and Rachel relentlessly asks,
"So has anyone spoken to Ross?" Before Monica can answer her, Rachel starts going off, "Can you believe him Monica? He can't even show up for the birth of his children!"

"So have you thought how to tell him that you had twins?"

"Actually I'm not going to tell him I had twins."

Surprised, "Really?"

"Nope. I can't…"

Monica jumps in, "Don't you think that he'll find out?"

"Oh, like at the funeral? He won't show up. He wasn't here for the birth, he's not going to come for the burial." It hurts her to say that last word.

"Honey you need to talk to him."

Starts crying, she's so frustrated, "I have Monica. I've talked to him so many times. He's not going to change."

"Just talk to him."

"Like when? When he gets his ass here?" Rolls her eyes, "Like that'll ever happen."

"Honey, he's here."

Sighs, "He is?" Monica nods her head. "What do I say to him Monica?"

"I really don't know. I'm sorry."

Takes a deep breath, "Okay, I can do this. I can talk to him. You know I gave birth to two still born babies, I think I can talk to him."

"You want me to go get him?"

"Please." Monica nods and is about to leave. "Please don't tell him about the twins, let everyone else know too."

"Okay" Monica leaves.

Monica gets to the waiting room, "Hey."

Ross goes up to her, "Hey is everything okay, can I go see her?"

"She's in room 387."

"Thank-you Monica." About to leave, then thinks, "Wait what did we have anyway?"

"You'll see…" He leaves.

Scene Rachel's room Ross enters. Tension fills the room. Rachel has decided not to tell Ross that she had twins and she's not just going to come out and tell him the baby is dead either.

Ross starts, "Hey."

"So who called you to convince you that I was really going into labor?" Ross feels guilty and before he can respond Rachel continues crying, "You missed it Ross! You weren't here for our child's birth!" Calms down a bit, "But you know who was? Chandler. He's more a father than you'll ever be. You know what? Next time when I have a baby, just promise me that you'll at least show up for the birth."

"I don't know what to say."

"You don't know what to say? How about an apology? Ross, you have been nothing but a complete jerk ever since we got back from out honeymoon. You haven't been there for any of my doctor appointments, my Lamaze classes, my sonograms, or when I wake up in the middle of the night, sick, you weren't there to comfort me."

"I know, I realize that…"

"You realize that, but you never cared to do anything about it?" Slight pause, "You can just leave, I'll see you when they let me out."

"But…"

"Go back to work Ross."

"Did we have a boy or a girl?" Decides to just ask her about the baby and maybe she'll be civil with him.

Rachel emphasizes, "I had a boy."

"Wow a boy. That's wonderful. Where is he?"

Rachel starts crying

"What? What is it?"

"You weren't here to comfort me, what makes you think that I want you now?"

Ross realizes something, "Hold on…comfort? Why would you need comfort? Isn't this supposed to be the happiest day of our lives?" Rachel looks away, Ross continues, firmly, "Hey, look at me," She looks at him with tears in her eyes, "What is going on Rachel? Everyone has been acting weird"

"We lost him Ross. We lost him." Starts to cry uncontrollably. "You can leave now."

Ross wasn't ready for that one. He sits on her bed next to her and takes her hand, "I'm not going anywhere Rachel."

As much as Rachel hates the way he's been treating her, she needs him and he's here now, she's also very vulnerable. They hold each other.

"I am so sorry Rachel."

"Well it's not your fault he died."

A nurse walks in with Rachel's file. She notices them crying, "Oh, I'm sorry I can come back." About to leave…

Rachel speaks up, wiping her tears, "No it's okay." Notices the file, "Are those the test results?"

Ross gets up from the bed when he hears 'test results', "Test results? For what?"

"To find out why she went into labor so soon."

Rachel looks at the nurse then back at Ross, "Um Ross? Can you give us a minute, please?"

"Well can't I know the results?"

"Yes, this isn't about that though. I need to talk to her about other stuff first. Give us five minutes okay?"

"Sure, I'll be back." He leaves.

Rachel looks at the nurse, "I didn't tell him I was having twins and I plan on keeping it that way, so I'd appreciate it if you didn't say anything about it."

The nurse is unsure how he never knew about her having twins, but decides that its none of her business and doesn't ask questions, "Sure."

"Thank-you."

Ross comes back in, "Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, come in." He comes in and goes next to Rachel.

The nurse begins, "Ok, so we took some tests and found out that the reason you went into labor so soon was caused by stress. You were so stressed and that caused the baby to be stressed and it caused you to go into labor early."

"So it was stress?" Ross made sure he heard right.

"Yeah. And we found out that you were right, those weren't contractions you having when you woke up. It was the heart beat stopping. I am so sorry."

Rachel tenses up, "Oh my god."

"Why were you stressed Rachel?"

"I'll leave you guys alone." Ross doesn't say anything.

"Thank-you." Rachel says as the nurse leaves. She looks at Ross, "Why was I stressed Ross? You really don't know, do you?"

"I supposed it was something I did wasn't it?" Rachel just shakes her head and begins crying again. "Look I'm so sorry Rachel."

"Well, sorry is not going to bring Caleb back, is it?"

"Caleb? His name. From your dream."

"Yeah, the dream that won't ever come true." She replies bitterly. Ross doesn't say anything, she looks at Ross, and the tone in her voice changes, "You remembered the dream."

"Of course I did." He strokes her hair.

"You can still have your dream come true, Rachel."

Present Rachel's in her shrink's office. Remember: She's telling her shrink this. No dream, no flashback is happening.

"And he still doesn't know about the twins?"

Rachel shakes her head. "No. It's been four years and he still doesn't know. Anyway, things began to change back to the way things were before Ross became a jerk, just like he promised. Things started going so well. We cried over the loss of the Caleb. I cried over the loss of both Caleb and Lukas. Ross turned back into the sweet loving man that I fell in love with. And after about a year, we decided to try to have another one. It was great at first, y'know, lots of fun." She smiles at that, then her smile drops, "But then it just became a habit and we were having sex every chance we got and it didn't mean anything. It became very stressful and it caused us to start fighting again and we just didn't feel like trying anymore, that maybe we weren't meant to have any children."

"So things have been like this for the last 3 years?" Rachel nods, "I think you should tell Ross about the twins."

"Really?"

"Definitely. You should at least try. One of these times, something is going to click in Ross' head that will make things a whole lot different. Don't ya think?"

"Yeah, you're probably right." Rachel's thinking about it.

"So are you, do you think you'll tell him?"

"You know what?" says in confidence, "I think its about time I tell him."

What did ya think? Sorry this took longer to get up, I had to work overtime at the job and I was tired from it so sorry about that. Sorry for any typos. Please take the time to review. Next chapter will be the last one. So make sure you read it. Rachel tells Ross about the twins…