Title : I'll show you mine…

Fandom : Harry potter

Genre : Slash, angst. (slightly AU maybe)

Pairing : so far, Draco/Justin Finch-Fletchley/Neville

Note : Companion to "I thought you cared" (Within TemptationStand my ground)

Summary : Neville wonders what it's like to have friends; Justin and Draco have to share a compartment on Hogwarts express because they both have some issues with their respective housemates…

Part twenty

I can see
when you stay low nothing happens
does it feel right…?

"Apparently, he used your voice to deceit Draco and make him believe he was safe…he then put him under the Imperio and made him… crave the Dark Mark into his arm with his own nails. The potion I gave him was supposed to inhibit the effects of Lucius' voice…not yours."

I thought I was helping…

"Fortunately, the Mark hasn't been apposed by the Dark Lord himself and therefore, it is not fully effective… yet."

…but I was just making things worst.

"Finch-Fletchley ?" Snape asks, frowning at my lack of reaction.

"It's my fault…?"

Trust is a weakness…

"Don't be silly…"

I am a weakness…

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It's all around
getting stronger, coming closer
into my world

Neville says I'm becoming obsessive…

But I'm not… am I ?

"There must be something… all I have to do is… think about it… just a little harder" I tell myself. "Snape says Voldemort is not yet aware of Draco's father initiative…"

"Justin…" Neville sighs, glassy eyed as I start pulling on my hair. "Justin, just give it a rest, will you… Draco's safe right now, and you need to stop thinking about it so hard…"

Neville says I'm changing… Neville says sometimes, he doesn't recognize me…

"…the only thing binding Draco to the Dark Lord is…" I carry on, oblivious.

"For heaven's sake, Finch!" he cries, cradling my face in his palms.

"…Lucius Malfoy…"

If Lucius disappears, Draco and Neville will both be safe…

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Late at night
things I thought I put behind me
haunt my mind

I just know there's no escape
now once it sets its eyes on you
but I won't run, have to stare it in the eye

The room is dark, now…

Night has fallen and Neville has finally dragged me to bed with Draco. I'd like to think they're both peacefully asleep, oblivious to the world.

But tears are rolling down the back of my neck, long fingers clenched on the fabric of my shirt over my belly…

I made Neville cry…

"…please don't go." He pleads.

"I'm not going anywhere, Nev…" I breathe out.

"Liar…"

Wincing, I roll around in his arms and press my lips to his temple, brushing away his tears in a soothing gesture.

"…You can't come" I say, kissing those warm plump lips. "Everything is gonna be alright. I promise…"

"…love you, Jus'" he moans, closing his eyes.

"…love you too…"

Stand my ground, I won't give in
no more denying, I got to face it
won't close my eyes and hide the truth inside
if I don't make it, someone else will
stand my ground

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Wand clutched in my hand, I take in my surroundings...

So, this is Malfoy Manor? I didn't think one could apparate to a place one's never been…

The sun is barely rising above the skyline… it must be around 6 in the morning.

The fresh, meticulously mown grass, still shining from the morning dew, sticks to my feet as I slowly make my way through the immense garden leading to the yard.

Finally reaching the impressive, black wooden-doors, I take a deep breathe to steady myself.

Now on with the plan. All I have to do is sneak inside and…

And then, I'll have to find a way to pass the numerous guarding charms, murder a dozen of house elves and fight one of Voldemort's most faithful death eaters.

This plan is doomed to fail.

"May I help you, young man?" a sultry voice breathes in the back of his neck.

Jumping around, I jerk my wand at the intruder and find myself…

…nose to nose with Lucius Malfoy.

"I'm not letting you take Draco away from us…" I growl, glaring up at him. "What you did… that night in the forbidden forest…"

"I see, I see… Finch-Fletchley, isn't it." He smiles indulgently. "How stupidly brave of you to come here and threaten me in my own garden… What a Gryffindor thing to do!"

And with that, he distractedly brushes me aside on his way in.

"Don't you dare…" I snap, poking the tip of my wand into his back. "Don't turn your back on me…"

"What are you gonna do about it, boy…?"

Seething with rage, I seize him by his arm and jerk him around.

"I'll kill you…"

Sniggering, he reaches for his wand in the hem of his coat and brandishes it in my direction.

"Is that so, young man…?" he smirks, his stormy grey eyes never leaving mine. "…and how are you going to achieve that…? Now, now… be sensible, my boy. This will lead you nowhere."

"Shut up!" I snap. "Just shut up…"

Surprised by my sudden outburst, he stares at me, amusement shining in those cruel eyes of his.

"Hnnn… this is not very constructive, my young fellow." He hisses, taking one step closer to me.

"ORCHIDOKLAST !"

Smiling viciously, I watch as the mighty Lucius Malfoy bends in half to seize his lower parts with a muffled little groan.

"You little runt… I'm gonna skin you alive!"

"INCENDIO!" I growl, watching with delight as he now bursts into flames.

"CONJUNCTIVIS" he howls, waving his wand around in my direction.

With an agonizing yelp, I sink to the floor, pressing my hands over my eyes as an intense, mind-numbing pain sears through my head.

Something warm and wet starts spilling from the corner of my eyes and I hastily open them to find my hands drenched in blood and my vision reddened.

"What…what have you done to me…" I ask, blinking my eyes to clear my sight. "Crap…"

"You'll find out soon enough, little one… but for now… CRUCIO!"

Though this might just be the ending
of the life I held so dear
but I won't run, there's no turning back from here

Stand my ground, I won't give in
I won't give up
no more denying, I got to face it
won't close my eyes and hide the truth inside
if I dont make it, someone else will

End of part twenty : -- so, yeah, I'm getting a beta-reader as soon as possible…

This is getting a little… out of hand

Notes :

ORCHIDOKLAST : in Greek, Orchidion means 'genitals' and Klast means 'to crush'

CONJUNCTIVIS is a spell which attacks the victims eyes.