Chapter 18
Hermione sighed. It was time.
She stood up and joined Draco on the dance floor.
She paid no attention to what the song was or where they were dancing or who was dancing nearest to them, all that was in her mind was the task at hand.
She felt like she was going to cry.
She only noticed that the song was slow when Draco held her close.
Instantly, she was brought into her own little world once more and suddenly something happened.
She thought she was just imagining things but she listened even more intently to the song. She gasped.
(A/N: You all know the drill! Just like in Bitter Sweet! 'Kissing you' from the movie Romeo and Juliet!)
For I could stand
A thousand trials
The strong will never fall
And while she stands without you
My soul cries
She could not believe it. This was the first song they danced to. She looked up to his silver eyes and felt like she was seventeen once again, and in love. The background just melted away and they were the only people in the whole world.
Heed the earth
Is full of pain
Oh, oh
The aching
She felt her heart racing. He was looking deep into her eyes and she knew that they showed her feelings of love and compassion, for him. She tried to fight it, tried to hold her feelings back and hope he hadn't noticed, but she couldn't.
Coz I…im kissing you
Oh
I…im kissing you, oh
Touch me dear
Pure and true
She told herself to let go, just this once. She did and she let their love engulf her for only for a moment. He held her closer and she let her love soar. Let it known to him she still cared if only for a moment.
Give to me the river
Coz I…im kissing you
Oh
I…im kissing you
Oh
He lifted her chin up so she was staring strait at him. He leaned in to kiss her very slowly, every single excruciating second…
When she remembered what she was to do. She moved her head and he kissed her cheek instead.
He looked at her quizzically as her tears threatened to fall.
She looked up at him and held his hand. She led him away from the dance floor.
Just as she had felt all those years ago, she knew this couldn't happen. She led him out to the balcony.
"Draco, I…" before she could finish his lips were on hers and she lost herself.
It was the same kiss she had with him all those years ago, the same kiss she longed for in her heart, the same kiss that reminded her, he still loved her.
She used all her self control not to get lost in that kiss. She used every inch of her to stop feeling such deep love that she was afraid.
She broke the kiss and looked up to his shinning silver eyes.
"Draco… we can't…" she said, her eyes welling up in tears. This hurt so much.
"Why not Hermione!" he asked.
"It's… I…" she couldn't stop herself and she cried. All her unshed tears of pain and sacrifice had fallen to the ground.
He quickly enveloped her into a hug.
She pushed him away.
"No." she told him.
"What?"
"No… I can't... We can't…" she tried to explain.
"Cant what!" Draco exploded. "Be together!"
She just nodded.
"Why!"
"I… I just can't Draco. We have hurt too many people and will hurt even more. I will be no part of this." She cried dropping to the floor.
He knelt down at her.
"I won't lose you again Hermione. I have already had a life without you and it was a life I can not live again. You are the one thing in this world that makes me get out of my bed and live. You are the only thing keeping me from going on to a place unknown to me that is filled with sorrow and regret. Don't make me go and giving me a one-way ticket there! I don't want to be without you ever again. You are the reason I am alive!"
Hermione cried even more.
"I… I'm sorry." She whispered.
"So… so this is it?" he asked pleadingly. "I can't… I can't live without you Hermione! Please reconsider!"
"No Draco." She said beginning to stand up. "I have been hurt too much to live through it again. I can not take it. Please don't make me go through life like that again, a life of pain and suffering. You keep telling me you love me and you can't live life without me-"
"That's why I can't lose you Hermione!" Draco said also getting up and holding her hands.
"That's just it Draco. You. You can't live without me. I think I can. I'm sorry. You are thinking selfishly again. Please. I can't go on like this. Let me go." She said sadly.
The moment of silence between the two would have been described by nothing else by eternity, just relishing their last moments they would probably have together.
He was the first to react and Hermione watched as he walked away.
"Hermione?" he asked suddenly stopping.
"Yes?"
"Will you do one last thing for me?" he asked.
She nodded.
"Don't forget me." He said.
"Never." She said.
As soon as he was out of sight Hermione fell to the floor and cried.
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Coz I'm... kissing you…
I'm…kissing you, oh…
Authors Note:
It's the end! Ha-ha. Joke! It's not done yet. More chapters to come but not that much. Like,five tops. The songs are not mine either. The first song, I think you already know, is from the movie Romeo and Juliet called 'kissing you'. The bottom part is actually the last part of the song 'Kissing you' I thought it would be kind of ironic in a way. Oh well. Its my sick sort of humor. Tell me what you think!