Sorry I haven't updated guys! My computer has issues! lol

I might add another one later tonight…depends on how many reviews I get...

TO CLEAR SOMETHING UP- earlier in the story in chapter 8 ruthie was DREAMING! Ok? Ok. I got a few emails from ppl asking if she was still pregnant…it was a DREAM lol

On with the story…

They began to pass the food around, when they heard a knock at the door.

"I'll get it." Ruthie said, getting up from the table. She walked to the front door and opened it, seeing Meredith, holding a card for her.

"Hi."

"Hey!" Ruthie said cheerfully. "Come in!"

"Listen…I'm sorry about Jack…I know you were good friends with him.."

"Oh I still am!"

"Ruthie…you don't need to be in denial…it's ok to be sad."

"I'm not sad…really I'm fine!"

"The guy that killed Jack came to see me last night…"

"Wait…the guy who what!"

"The guy that killed Jack."

"Oh God…" Ruthie broke down, sobbing as she sat on the floor.

"You didn't know?"

"Oh my gosh…I can't believe this!" she said, going into the living room. Meredith grabbed the box of tissues and set them on her lap.

"I'm sorry. I thought you knew."

"How'd it happen?"

"He was hit by a drunk driver…his brother's in the hospital. I'm heading there right now if you wanna go?"

"No thanks…I have to eat and I just can't…I can't face him right now. I'm sorry. I just…I can't. Does my family know?"

"Yeah…Jack's parents met with you dad and Lucy this morning…and Lucy told Kevin and Martin."
"I can't believe they didn't tell me!"

"Ruthie I gotta go…my dad's in the car."
"Um ok…maybe I'll go with you later this week."

"Ok. Bye Ruthie." She said, giving her a hug.

"Bye Meredith." She said, shutting the door behind her. She grabbed a tissue and wiped her eyes and walked into the dining room.

"Who was at the door honey?" Her mom asked.

"Meredith. You know…she told me about Jack…" She said, crying even more. "I thought YOU were my sister…YOU were my brothers…YOU were my parents and YOU were my boyfriend…but…I guess I'm wrong since none of you could find the time to tell me that my friend died last night!" She said, yelling at them. Kevin got up and hugged her. "Ruthie…we couldn't tell you…"

"Because!"

"We just couldn't…"

"Yes you could! You could've told me about Jack before Meredith came over here, asking if I wanted to go see his brother in the hospital! I feel SO stupid!" She paused and sighed. "I thought I knew you guys…turns out you couldn't even tell me that my friend died! How could you?" She asked, walking away. She went up into her bedroom, laid on her bed and cried. She cried for Jack. She cried for his family and friends. But mostly, she cried for herself. She turned on her mp3 player and stuck the headphones in her ears. Cry out to Jesus by Third Day was playing.

To everyone who's lost someone they love

long before it was their time.

You feel like the days you had were not enough

when you said goodbye.

And to all of the people with burdens and pains

keepin' you back from your life.

You believe that there's nothing

and there is no one who can make it right.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,

and love for the broken hearts.

There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing

He'll meet you wherever you are.

Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on

have lost all of their faith in love.

and they've done all they can to make it right again

still it's not enough.

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains

you try to give up but you come back again.

Just remember that you're not alone

in your shame and your suffering.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,

and love for the broken hearts.

There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing

He'll meet you wherever you are.

Cry out to Jesus.

When you're lonely and it feels like the whole world is falling on you

you just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus. Cry to Jesus.

To the widow who suffers from being alone,

wiping the tears from her eyes.

For the children around the world without a home,

say a prayer tonight.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,

and love for the broken hearts.

There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing

that meets you wherever you are.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,

and love for the broken hearts.

There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing

that meets you wherever you are.

Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.

Martin came upstairs, hearing her sobbing. He sat beside her on her bed and kissed her cheek. She took out her headphones and hugged him tight.

"I can't believe this…why didn't you tell me?"

"I was going to…right after lunch…I promise I was."

"When did you know?"

"This morning…Kevin told me. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I love you so much."

"I love you too." She said, crying. She leaned her head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around her. "We'll get through this…ok? God will get us through this…" He kissed her and held her tight, letting her cry in his arms.

Not very many reviews…shame on you guys! Hehe…I'm thinking about writing just like 2 or 3 more chapters then doing a sequel lol…wht do u think? REVIEW!