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Chapter Five
I was so shocked after what had just happened that I couldn't think. I had just branded Raven as my own. I felt foolish for doing it, but at the same time good too because now I knew that I was in love. I was truly, really, and unequivocally in love. There was no going beck on this one. It's funny because I thought that I had loved Tara, but I had never gotten that upset over her and I had never thought of her as my mate or my territory. I still couldn't exactly think straight, but I knew that I had to go and talk to Robin.
"Make sure you tell me if anything happens." I told Cy as I left to search for Robin. The first place I looked was the evidence room, and guess who I found? Yup, 'ol Robbie himself, not that I was surprised or anything; he always goes there when he's upset or something like that.
"Hey Robin, can I talk to you?" I asked timidly. His back was still facing me, but he turned his face to look at me.
"What do you want Garfield?" I was surprised; Robin had never called me Garfield! I knew then that we could never be friends like we used to be.
"I'm sorry about before, I got a little carried away."
"What? No animals coming after me this time? Or have you learned how to control yourself better this time?" His comment stung and I was hurt pretty badly, but I wasn't about to let him see that.
"Robin, you knew that I liked Raven, a lot. I can't believe that you wouldn't tell at least me that you liked her too."
"You have no business in my love interests. Anyway, I just proved myself right in my decision not to tell you. If Cy hadn't of pushed me out of that room, I probably would have been dead right now. I'm pretty sure Raven would have hated you for stooping to murder." He said venomously.
"Oh, come on Robin! I wouldn't have really killed you! Maimed you, maybe, but I could have never killed you! Besides, if you had told me, I don't think that I would have reacted that way. I was already in a protective mood since she healed you and passed out. I was already high strung! Can you really blame me?" I ranted at him.
"Yes, I think I can blame you." He replied and brushed past me. "Garfield, I'm not going to give up on her just because you have a crush on her. Unlike you, I really love her." He said on his way out. We'll leave it up to Raven who gets chosen, I'm sick of trying to reason with him.
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After my little encounter with Robin I went back to the infirmary. Raven was still lying in bed, motionless except for the rise and fall of her chest as she breathed. She was so beautiful. By now all her wounds had healed, Thank God. I guess she was going to be okay since her normal healing had kicked in. Right as I was about to sit down in a chair next to the bed, Star walked in.
"I'm so sorry friend Beast Boy, am I interrupting anything? I did not mean to intrude on your alone time with friend Raven." Star had a blush on her face as she exited the room. I didn't have the energy or the patience to explain everything to her. I just wanted to spend some uninterrupted time with Raven. I sat down in the chair and just sighed.
"Raven, please hurry up and get better. I need you here beside me so I can try and get everything figured out." I laid my head on her stomach and just started to weep. I cried for her, I cried for me, and I cried for my lost friendship with Robin. I don't usually cry, but this was one of those times when everything was just crashing in on me; that just seemed to be my only outlet.
I was surprised out of my musings when I felt Raven shift underneath me. Was she awake? I looked up in fear and expectation only to be disappointed, her eyes were still closed.
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I woke up to pressure on my stomach and the sound of someone sobbing. At first I thought that it was Star because I didn't think that anyone else would cry like that over me. I shifted a little to see who it was; all I needed to see was the green hair and my heart leapt into my throat. It was Beast Boy and he was sobbing. I didn't know what to do, so I quickly laid my head back down and left my eyes open just enough that I could barely see his face.
I saw him look up with such a look of pure joy that I wanted to open my eyes just for him, but something held me back. His face fell when he saw that my eyes were still closed. Then I heard him speak.
"Raven, when I first met you, I was scared of you. You were really dark with your little glares and being all antisocial. Then I got to know you and I realized that you are normal just like everyone else. Well okay, not everyone else, but as normal as expected. I think that's when I first started to fall in love with you."
His comment stopped my heart. Love, did he just use that word? That's not possible; no one could love me.
"I never knew that is what I felt for you until last night. When I saw you taking on Robin's wounds it tore me up inside. Then when we didn't even know if you would survive through the night, well that's when I really realized that I loved you. I couldn't imagine a day with out you, let alone an eternity."
I was still unsure of my feelings for Beast Boy, but his little talk touched my heart. I felt my hand reach up and cup his face. I opened my eyes in surprise. I'm thinking that we both held the same expression. He immediately started to blush along with me.
"Ahem, well I guess you heard all of that, huh?" He asked.
"Um...yeah I did, but Beast Boy; I still don't know how I feel for you. I mean I know that I feel attraction for you, but I don't know anything about love." I replied uncertainly.
"Can I teach you?" He asked huskily. He didn't even wait for an answer before he captured my lips with his. I was so surprised that I didn't know what to do, push him away or hold him tighter? I decided to go with the first choice. Not because I wasn't enjoying what was happening, but because I was so unsure of it all. I looked up into his eyes and saw pain there. I really felt that I should explain why I pushed him away, but before I could, he dashed out of the room.
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I was such an idiot for kissing her! How could I have done something like that? I know why I did it, but it didn't make up for the fact that I did it. I kissed her because I wanted Raven to know how much I cared for her before Robin did. She just pushed me away though. That means that she doesn't care for me like that doesn't it?
I was contemplating this whole situation while pacing in front of my mirror. An hour earlier Cy had busted into my room yelling at me to get to the infirmary because Raven was up. I calmly told him that I had already seen her and now I just wanted to be left alone. Thankfully, he headed out without any questions.
Maybe she would think that it was all part of a dream and forget about it. No, that was highly unlikely. I didn't know what to do; I had never been in a situation like this before. I mean Tara and I had liked each other, but we had never gotten to the kissing stage. I was so confused and lost, but I knew that kissing Raven made me feel like I had never felt before.
Maybe I wouldn't let it slide. I wanted to pursue Raven before Robin went and swept her off of her feet. I had to fight fairly though. I don't think that she heard his little confession, while she heard mine. That means that she had no idea of Robin's feelings. That gave me the advantage though, didn't it? It was an advantage that I had every intention of using.
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I called myself all sorts of names after he left the room, but I didn't have a chance to really think about it all. Minutes after Beast Boy ran from the room, Cy burst in. He abruptly turned around and ran out again, though. When he finally came back he explained that Beast Boy gave him strict instructions to inform him the second that I woke up.
I was genuinely flattered. That just proved that he really cared about me. Cy didn't know it, but he was playing a major part in this little soap opera by telling me that. I felt my face flush and turned it away from him. I quickly jerked it back to face the door when I heard a loud bang. In rushed Robin and Star.
"Glorious! Friend Raven is well again!" shouted Star, she then twirled around and left; probably to make one of her infamous pudding creations. I shuddered at the thought; hopefully I would be spared the horrors of it because I was still recovering.
"Hey Cy, can I talk to Raven for a minute?" Robin asked quietly. I was puzzled by the tone in his voice. "Raven I'm really glad that you are alright, but I have to tell you that I was really worried. You didn't have to come yesterday. Beast Boy told us everything after we got you home." He started off after Cyborg left. I swear I'm going to kill that...erg! There are no words insulting enough to fit him right now!