Author's Notes: okay I get it most of you probably want to kill me for taking so long to update well that's not true but I'm really mad and beating myself up over it. And because I have some free time I decided now or maybe never. So I'm gonna get this done. My goal because I'm writing this before the actual chapter itself, I probably won't meet my goal, but I'm gonna try. Anyway my goal is for this to be a long chapter. Hopefully the longest chapter yet. The chapter itself I'm planning is supposed to be mainly about our favorite lovers Serena and Darien. Anyway . . . on with the show!

Disclaimer: I do not own sailor moon, but . . . own Darien, yay me! "Um excuse me miss" oh hello mister lawyer sir, how may I help you? "points to Disclaimer and clears throat" okay, okay, sheesh I don't own Darien but boy do I wish I did.

"speaking" 'thoughts'

Wedding Dreams Fulfilled?

Chapter 5: Faith and Frustration

Serena ran as fast as she could, she couldn't find Darien. 'Where the hell is he?' Serena followed the direction he took off in and decided to head off to the park in hopes he might go to their spot. She rounded the gate entrance and began to slow down, heading in the direction of the rose gardens. 'Please let him be here,' she looked around and when she reached their spot, a bench in the rose gardens looking out to the lake, she came to a stop.

Right when she was about to give up hope and leave two strong arms encircled her waist from behind. She let out a surprised gasp and tensed, but quickly relaxed when the familiar warmth of the presence seeped into her. "I've been looking for you everywhere."

"What a coincidence I was just hoping you would find me," he whispered in her ear. His voice sending shivers down her spine.

"But I didn't, you found me looking for you," she said matter-of-factly.

"Same difference," he said as Serena turned in his arms to look up into those magnificent, deep blue eyes she knew so well. His eyes the color of the sky cloudless at midnight during the new moon, such a rare color, it was only one of the many things she loved about him.

"Darien," she broke their eye contact to bury herself in his warm protecting embrace. "You had me so worried. I knew I would find you though, we're drawn together."

"That, Serena, is very true, and no matter what lifetime or what happens I will always be there for you, and I will always, always love you, no matter what. You know that right?"

"Of course. Just like I will always love you. I wanted to talk about what happened at the Crown, what exactly happened?"

"Why don't we go back to my apartment, I can make some food, we can eat dinner and I can tell you the whole story, okay?"

"Yea, that sounds great, and I am starved."

"I had a feeling," he gave her a quick kiss and released her from his embrace. He then took her hand, fingers entwined; they headed for Darien's apartment.

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They reached the apartment building a few minutes later. The walk over was peaceful, they didn't talk much and the ride up on the elevator was taken in silence. Darien unlocked the door and let Serena enter ahead of him. By the time he shut and locked the door Serena had already put on her slippers, Darien followed her and she waited for him. "Well this isn't the first time you've been here so just make yourself comfortable."

"Sure," Serena sat down on the couch as Darien headed for the kitchen.

"You want something to drink? I've got water, soda, I can make some cocoa, you know, the usual stuff. So what'll it be?"

"How bout some cocoa," she said appearing in the doorway.

"Coming right up," Darien pulled out to mugs and started the water. "So now the really important question, what are we going to eat?"

Serena looked up and bit her bottom lip in thought. Darien thought she looked so cute. "Hmm . . . I don't know, maybe a-" she was cut off when Darien couldn't take it anymore. She was to irresistible, and he couldn't stand it. He had to kiss her.

After a heated minute he broke away from her, "Sorry what were you saying?"

Serena still a little flustered mentally shook herself trying to remember what she was doing a minute ago, 'Kissing Darien,' before that, "Ummm . . . What?" Obviously still in a daze, she tried took look him in the eyes, but stopped before she got there. Her site was captured by his lips, and the only thing she could think was how much she wanted to kiss him again.

"What should we eat?"

Serena physically shook herself out of her stupor this time. "Oh, right! I forgot, what was that for, and I was saying I think we should order a pizza."

"Good idea I don't feel like cooking anyway, and neither of us need food poisoning."

Serena hit his arm playfully, "I would only poison you, why would I wanna make myself suffer?" she said with a smile. "But you don't need to worry about that, like you I don't even want to cook."

"Good," Darien already had the number dialed, "Yea I'd a large cheese pizza and a two litter bottle of coke . . . delivery . . . 22 Juuban West apartment number twenty-eight . . . yea . . . thanks," he hung up the phone. He smiled at her, "It should be awhile, so let's talk," Darien walked passed her and sat on the couch in the living room.

Serena followed him into the room and sat next to him on the couch, she then turned to face him. "So where do you want to start, do you want to tell me what happened, cause if you don't it's okay, I trust you, you know," she smiled at him sweetly when he finally made eye contact with her.

"We've got time, I'll tell you my side, I'm sure Rei is going to change it some how, speaking of which what happened after I left?"

"Nothing Rei stormed out about a minute after you did, I knew I had to talk to both of you and the girls said they would go after Rei so I could come after you without having to worry, plus I'm going over there later remember, we're having a girls night slumber party. You know we haven't had one of those since probably the last time the negaverse attacked. Almost two years, wow."

"Well I'm glad you came for me first, who knows what would have happened if you didn't, but anyway, the whole story, let me start . . ."

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As soon as Darien finished telling Serena the door bell rung, and he got up to answer it, leaving Serena again to think about the situation at hand. Darien placed the pizza box and bottle of coke on the table in front of Serena, who looked completely lost in thought, and continued to the kitchen. Darien then brought out two cups with ice and two plates for them to use. When he sat down next to Serena's feet on the floor she shook herself out her thoughts. Darien handed her a plate and took a bite of his own pizza. "So what do you think?" he asked her after a few minutes.

"The pizza? It's really good, almost as good as Lita's, but don't tell her I said so."

"Your secret is safe with me, but you know that's not what I was talking about."

"I know," she looked down at him and then moved herself to the floor next to him. "I trust you and I have complete faith in you. I know you would never do anything to hurt me, and if you wanted to be with Rei you wouldn't have proposed to me, or you would have broken off the engagement. I love you. Remember that," she leaned in and gave him a loving peck on the lips.

Darien put his plate down on the table and took Serena's bare one from her, and placed it on the table with his. With the dishes out of the way for the moment, Darien pulled Serena into his arms. When he had her perch comfortably on his lap he kissed her.

To both of them it felt like forever since the last time they kissed, truly kissed, not some little peck on the cheek or lips, or quick or short kisses with no passion behind them. No they both wanted this a long passionate and loving kiss, the kind they missed because they never had this kind of alone time with each other.

Their kiss kept getting hotter and hotter. They both pulled away at the same time gasping for air. After about half a minute they were back at it. Serena had moved her arms so they were around Darien's neck and now she was tangling her fingers in his hair trying to deepen the kiss, and if possible, get closer to him. Serena was basically climbing up Darien to the point where he broke the kiss and they moved up to the couch. Now Serena was lying on the couch with Darien almost on top of her and yet still on the floor, not to squash her delicate frame.

Darien again broke away from her mouth, but started a trail to her ear and down her neck. When he came back up and licked behind her ear she let out a soft moan, "Darien . . ." and started to let her hands wonder. Darien was now on the couch with her, doing a little exploring of his own. He froze when Serena started pulling his shirt up, trying to free him of it.

He groaned realizing he almost lost complete control. "Serena . . . " He always had a hard time keeping himself in check when he was around her. Heck what happened in the kitchen was an example. He had to stop this. Now.

"What's wrong Darien?" Serena asked breathlessly, her voice slightly husky. "Why'd you stop?" Serena was getting a little concerned now.

"Nothing," he got of her and sat back down on the floor, "Sorry," he said after a few moments.

"What for?" okay Serena was a little frustrated, okay more than a little, and now he was apologizing for making out with her. There are engaged for goodness's sake!

"I almost lost control," he took a deep breath, apparently Serena wasn't the only one suffering, "We almost took it too far."

"Not far enough," Serena mumbled under her breath.

"What did you say?" hoping he didn't hear say that, if she did he might not be able to control what happened next. It was taking all his control not to jump her again.

"Don't blame yourself, it wasn't your fault."

"Oh so you're saying it's your fault?"

"No, I'm saying we both wanted it, and if you ever apologize for what we were doing ever again, I won't be held responsible for what happens," she smiled at him too sweetly.

He laughed at her, and she smiled for real. "Sorry, I just . . . think we should wait. You know? I mean are we really ready to go that far?" he looked at her hopefully.

Serena looked thoughtful, making that face that Darien couldn't resist. He made himself resist though, by force, he had to sit on his hands and bite his own lip. 'God he wanted her, damn it all!'

"Yea . . . I guess you got a point" Serena said as she looked down at him and then joined him on the floor. "But that doesn't mean we can't have fun," she then moved so that she was straddling him and smiled wickedly. "Right?" she leaned forward to capture his lips again but instead she reached down and started tickling him, only she knew where his ticklish spot was.

Darien started squirming, and that was hard because he was still sitting on his hands. He struggled to get them free, but once he got them free Serena knew she was no longer safe. She let out a squeak and tried to get up, but she was to late. Darien had already turned the tables and tickling her so much that she was laughing and could barely get a breath in. "Darien! Stop it! Please!"

"What did you say? Keep tickling you? Okay."

"Darien!"

"Oh, alright, I'll stop," and he did to because of all there struggling of trying to get away they were both laying on the floor by the table, but not to close to it. They were no longer between the couch and table they were next to them.

"Thank you," Serena said after she caught her breath.

"You know, you did start it. The way I see it you did this to your own self," Darien point out.

Serena hit him playfully on the arm, which was now coming closer, "I know, Darien don't," she whined at him.

"What?" he snaked his arm around her waist and pulled her closer to him. "I was just going to kiss you, what's so wrong with that?" Darien didn't wait for her response he simply kissed her.

After a good five minutes they again stopped and Serena laid her head on his shoulder. They were still lying next to each other on the floor. She sighed contentedly, "You know the pizza is probably cold now."

"Yea, still hungry?"

"A little but not too much for food," he looked at her confused and she smiled at him. She started to get up from the floor, but Darien began to protest and pulled her back down, slightly on top of him.

"What do you want?" he asked.

"Nothing you can make me," she again tried to get up.

"I'm sure that's not true, why won't you tell me?" he let her go this time.

"Really it's nothing, don't worry about it. I should probably get going anyway, it's getting late."

"Is something wrong? Did I do something?" he asked truly concerned. He was now standing with her and pulled her into his embrace. "You can tell me anything."

"Yea I know I can it's just, something you said has been bothering me," she wasn't looking at him as if she was ashamed to be thinking what she was thinking.

"What?"

"Why do you want to wait, I mean really, is it me?"

"What, no, Serena this is something that shouldn't be taken lightly, I mean, it's definitely not because of you. There are a number of reasons."

"Like?"

'Why is she pushing this?' "Well protection is one, another is I have no trust in myself when you are concerned and I want to make our first time something you'll never forget, something really, really special."

"I'll never forget anything I experience with you Darien I never have, I still remember our first kiss, our first date, and so many other first's."

"I haven't forgotten either, but this is completely different. I don't want you to think back on it and remember us losing control and making unprotected love on the couch or living room floor. Do you understand?"

"Yea I guess. You really don't trust yourself around me?" she smirked at him.

"Do you really have to ask that question?"

She thought about what they had been doing when together today and blushed at how it seemed they couldn't keep their hands of each other. "No, I guess I don't, I get it."

He chuckled and gave her a sweet kiss and released her. "I love you, but you really should get going, I have to work early tomorrow, and you have to talk to Rei. Hopefully everything works out." He walked her to the door, and she put her shoes on.

"I'm sure everything will be fine, one day we'll look back at this and laugh," she turned to leave but quickly turned back around. "Darien," he looked at her question in his eyes but before he could ask she crushed her mouth and body to his. Darien fell back against the wall from the force and surprise of her attack. She quickly pulled away again and hurried out the door. Leaving poor Darien hot and confused. He looked down at himself trying to figure out what just happened there. 'Shit' was all he thought as he walked quickly toward his bathroom.

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Serena walked down the hallway with a triumphant smile. 'Poor Darien at least I know for a fact now, that was fun' She headed out the apartment building and started her way towards Rei's.

Author Notes (continued): okay I think that's good, it is the longest I've written but still pretty short, so people don't kill me. Some people may not like this chapter but I wanted write a little fun with Serena and Darien and how they spend their time when they don't have any directions or interruptions, which I was going to put in but decided against it. Well anyway I hope you guys did like it but if you didn't . . . I DON'T CARE! Yup! That's right I don't care so flame me if you want but what I do care about is if you review. Please do. Speaking of reviews I think the last time I thanked yall was the second chapter, so let me do that now.

oxostardustoxo,

Usagi of Feudal Moon Era – always a faithful reviewer,

debora diskey – interesting ideas you have and I agree but I can't kill her but you should use it and make a story out of it, it could be a cool fic,

starchick24 – I will,

ffgirlmoonie – yea I know she's supposed to be,

Moon-princess-power – maybe they will I hope you keep reading to find out,

And to everyone else who has been reading thank you I only listed the reviewers from chapter four so to all of you who reviewed the other chapters thanks

Okay so I said thanks wrote the chapter, a disclaimer, and now to say good-bye, oh right the reason it took me so long. I've been writing a different story that I will start posting when I am almost done with it, unlike this story. So basically it won't be for a while but I hope yall will check it out, oh and school is a bitch, that's the other reason. Oh and remember the review button to your left. I love hearing what you think and tips are always nice even though I'm stubborn and half the time don't follow the advice though I try. Anyway bye guys.

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