Title: Forgetting you
Author: Moi!
Pairing: Not telling! Hehe.
Rating: T now! Just to be safe. ;
(A few cuss words… :o)
Summary: When Kagome finally has had enough of InuYasha sneaking off for Kikyou, she runs back to her time with barely concealed tears. She throws herself at her bed, crying for her and InuYasha's non-existent relationship. Kagome keeps saying to herself that she never met him; never loved him. Ever heard of the saying "Be careful what you wish for?" Kagome is finally able to live her life without the weight of loving someone who will never love her back. Is this a new chance for InuYasha to start over with Kagome I smell? Or will he leave Kagome forever for Kikyou?

A/n: No reviews for my 2nd chapter? Aww. ;-; Oh well. I like this story. But maybe it's just really bad… xD

Tori: It is bad.
Alisha: Hey! …Where'd you come from?
Tori: I come from everywhere. I follow you.
Alisha: Right. Uhm. Why am I your friend again?
Tori: Because I'm hyper and sweet!
Alisha: mumbles And really crazy…
Tori: WHAT DID YOU SAY?
Alisha: Nothing.
Tori: I thought so! Hehe!
Alisha: Well, ignore her… she's weird… and have fun reading! …If anyone is reading this. Oh,a nd sorry for the shortness. I had to end it there. Plus, it felt like I was typing forever. At least I updated it soon! But this isn't a popular story… gah.

Chapter 3:
Why?

Kagome rested her head on the smooth surface of rock behind her. Hot springs always soothed her frayed nerves. The knots in her neck loosened, her stress and depression temporarily elapsed. Relaxing, she sank down lower into the water. She took a deep breath in, and in the first time in a long while, she felt truly calm. That calm didn't last, alas, since her thoughts began wondering towards a certain silver haired individual who, as of late, seemed to be occupying her thoughts day in and day out.

"I thought… you were…"

See? She was thinking too much about him, she could practically hear his voice as if he were right next to her. She needed to stop thinking about him. It was driving her crazy...!

"No, InuYasha. I was resting. Thank you very much for caring for me."

Wait, why was Kikyou's voice in her head too? Did Kikyou have to torture her thoughts too?

"Kikyou…!"

Kagome sat upright as she grasped that those voices weren't in her head; they were… nearby…

Kagome looked upwards, and became conscious of Kikyou's Soul Stealers in the sky.

She put her head in her hands. This wasn't what she wanted! She came to get away from her problems; to get away from the thoughts of InuYasha. Instead she found herself facing much worse… much, much worse.

"No… Kikyou… nothing's wrong…"

Even him saying her name hurt.

It hurt like nothing else.

"InuYasha… do you know how much I… still… still… love you?"

"Kikyou…"

Kagome got out of the water, wrapping one of the towels she brought tightly around her as fast as she could. She didn't want to hear this. It was hurting her. She needed to get out of there before… before her heart shattered.

'Do the people who wrote those cheesy heart breaking songs actually feel this ache?' she wondered half heartedly, making a move to leave. Something prevented her, however.

"Well, InuYasha?"

"Kikyou… I love you too…"

She needed to leave. She had to. She needed to breath.

"What about my reincarnation?"

'She's talking about me…' Kagome thought, creeping closer, despite every forewarning going throughout her body to turn around this instant.

"Kagome…" InuYasha whispered. Kagome tensed up. Was he going to choose?

"InuYasha… please, I need to know."

"I… I have feelings for her…" Kagome felt herself smiling. 'He picked me! Who would've guessed?'

"But… Kikyou… I love you. I always have. This… visits… have proved so."

"And Kagome…?"

"She…" he stopped, sighing, while Kagome felt something constricting her throat and the familiar prickling at the back of her eyes. "She's special to me, that's for sure, but I'd always choose you, Kikyou. No matter what would happen, I would always be loyal and faithful to you. You stole my heart, and you've kept it. I love you. Kagome… she… likes me. I don't even know my feelings towards her. But she's not important as you. I know that."

"InuYasha…" Kikyou said, hugging InuYasha tightly. She immediately looked over towards Kagome, who was now at the edge of the clearing, downwind from InuYasha's smelling range. Kikyou smirked, mouthing the words, "I won," before reaching up and kissing InuYasha on the lips.

Kagome's heart broke as she bore witness to this, watching the passion InuYasha put into kissing her back.

She felt like dying.

What was life without her love? At least before she had hope, even if it had been a little, but now everything came crashing down.

Everything had backfired on her.

"InuYasha… no…"

InuYasha pulled back at the sound of his name, puzzled. The only person here was Kikyou, and, well, her lips were a bit busy at the time when he heard his name…

With eyes heavy with pleasure, he looked up in time to see the back of a girl with raven hair rushing away.

He pulled back a little, puzzled, but his attention was brought back to the half living Miko as she reached up and tugged gently on his hair.

He looked down at her smiling, about to pull her into another kiss, when he realized who the girl was.

Kagome.

'Oh, shit, did she hear? Some of what I said was in the heat of the moment… oh, shit! She might've not of heard it all… knowing Kagome, she would've stormed up to me halfway through, so she mustn't of!'

Pulling away completely, he started towards the way he saw her heading, when he was stopped by an icy voice.

"InuYasha, even if you could catch up with her, she wouldn't forgive and forget. Not this time."

InuYasha stopped in his tracks, torn between going after Kagome and staying with Kikyou.

Kami, was he always going to be stuck between a rock and a hard place?

"Kikyou…" as he turned towards her, he realized she had a smirk pulling at her lips.

"She heard everything, InuYasha… I saw her face as she heard every word. You hurt her bad, InuYasha."

"You…" he gulped, not believing what Kikyou was telling him. "You… saw her there? And you didn't say anything?"

"InuYasha. I thought you wanted her to hear this. You were telling me that you choose me. You had to eventually tell her."

He knew she was right. It wasn't just to say one thing, apparently making up your mind, then try to cover it up and say another. …Then why did this feel so wrong? So bad?

InuYasha stared at the ground, making up his mind to go after Kagome. He would deal with Kikyou later.

"Kikyou… I'll… be back."

InuYasha started off, intent on finding Kagome. If she was going to the well, he might not be able to catch her, since they were so close to the village.

"She won't forgive you, InuYasha. Ever. And I'll be here when she doesn't."

InuYasha heard Kikyou and prayed to anyone who was listening that this wasn't true. I mean, she forgave him all the other times. Why wouldn't she now? But for some reason one thing and one thing alone echoed through his head, no matter what he did to try and prevent it.

'She won't forgive you InuYasha. Ever.'

Kagome ran.

It was all she could do. Hearing InuYasha tell Kikyou so bluntly that he didn't care much about her was the last straw.

So she ran, and ran, and ran.

She didn't care if InuYasha saw or heard her. She didn't care if she was crying. She didn't care if thorns were tearing at her delicate skin. She didn't care about running naked, her towel having dropped a ways back. She didn't care about InuYasha-

Ok, she wasn't exactly sure about that. She was trying to convince herself at the time.

Kagome soon made it to the well, it being only a few miles from the place where those vile Soul Stealers were.

It helped that she ran too, but there was also the downside of running.

Losing your breath…

Kagome stood there gasping, one hand trying to wipe away the tears.

But they kept falling.

Kagome debated whether to tell Miroku and Sango she was disappearing to take a little… long… break from the Feudal Era or not. She decided against it, realizing that her friends would figure it out. Deep in her heart she also didn't want to come across InuYasha, but she wouldn't admit that to her conscience.

She jumped into the well, wanting to get some rest, maybe let out some of this negative energy that was radiating off her in waves.

Shutting her eyes, she tried unsuccessfully to block out the depression and the negative thoughts that were running through her head.

'He choose her because you're so helpless.'

'He choose her because, you know, she is the original of you. The original is always better. More useful.'

'InuYasha was using you. He wanted her all along.'

The thoughts didn't stop as she ran through the door of the shrine, through the yard and into the house. She ignored the hellos and concerned voices as she raced up unto her room. The voices in her head seemed louder as she locked the door and threw herself on her bed.

'Why would he want you! You're useless!'

'What do you do? Detect shards and bring food? Heh! The Food Bringer!'

InuYasha's voice even decided to make an appearance in what was becoming a chorus of Kagome haters.

'What would I want a bitch like you? You should've known I wanted Kikyou; I only kept you with us and protected you because you reminded me of her. Stupid girl. You mean nothing.'

This was truly the last and final straw of the whole thing, as a new emotion was added to the mix of depression, betrayal, and total helplessness.

Anger.

Loathing.

"InuYasha, I hate you! No, I loathe you! Never as long as I am alive and in control of my actions will I forgive you. You hear that? NEVER! I wish I never met you! I wish I never loved you! I wish I never laid my pathetic eyes upon you! I wish I could forget you even existed! I wish the name InuYasha would sound foreign to me; that it would disappear without a trace in my mind!"

Kagome couldn't remember a time that she hated and loved someone this much. She couldn't even remember a time where she hated and loved someone. All she knew was that she did now. And she wanted to forget it; forget him. So she repeated these words; over and over, until she drifted to sleep.

What followed the next day could only be described in four words.

Complete and utter chaos.

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Love,
Alisha