. Alex's kimono floated to the floor as it fell from her grip. She felt herself grow cold and her heart skipping beats. How much had he seen? What was he thinking? Was he angry with her?
"Oh, hello Lee. Alex and I were just…talking." He said as he pulled himself to his feet and walked up behind her. She couldn't pull her eyes from Spike's face, which displayed no emotion whatsoever. Blade rested his hands on her shoulders. "I have to go for now, I'll call you in the morning." He said as he kissed her cheek and then walked around her. He walked past Spike and out the door. It closed behind him with another quiet whoosh. They heard the main door open and shut before either of them made any movement or said anything. Alex was the first; with tears running down her face, she fell to her knees and hid her face in her hands as she began to cry. Spike didn't move at all.
"I can't believe I did that! Spike, you have no idea how ashamed I am. I am so sorry!" she sobbed as her hair shrouded her face. Her tears splashed onto her hands and trailed down her forearms to her elbows, where they dripped onto her pants. Still on her knees, she balled herself into a fetal position on the floor and continued to cry, not as loudly though. "My god, if you don't want to speak to me ever again, I'd understand. I feel so horrible." She moaned as she clutched her stomach. Spike knew she was sorry; she never did this before. He'd seen her cry when she was upset and she was sorry, but not to this extent. He walked over to her and knelt beside her. She was shaking violently and sobbing which made Spike think; was he like this after he hurt her earlier? He placed his hand on her back and rubbed her quaking body.
"Calm down Alex. It's alright." He said soothingly. She sat up and looked at him as she pulled her hair out of her face.
"What do you mean it's alright? You saw what happened! I can't believe you'd still love me after that." She said further scolding herself.
"Snap out of it! I don't care what he did, all I care about is what you said when he was about to…you know." He said.
"What?" she asked. He smiled at her.
"You said you wanted to do that, just not with him. That gives me reason to believe you wished he were me when he did that. Am I right?" he grinned as Alex wiped her eyes. She looked at his smiling face and couldn't help but smile herself. She wrapped her arms around him and hugged him tight.
"Oh Spike! I love you." She cried as her tears bled into his shirt when she buried her face in his shoulder. He held her close in return.
"After all you went through when you were younger, I was afraid to even suggest the idea because I didn't want you to think that was what I wanted from you. If I'm pressuring you into doing it, I don't want you to feel uncomfortable. Just tell me to stop and I'll back off." He said somewhat lecturing her.
"Well, technically, I'm still a virgin. So you'd have to take the lead." She teased as she nuzzled into his shoulder.
"Not tonight. We've all had a rough day so we should get plenty of rest." He said as he picked her up in his arms.
"My kimono!" she said pointing to the red satin pile of cloth on the floor as she wrapped her one arm around his neck. He walked over and bent down far enough for her to reach out and pick it up before standing again and carrying her out of the room. He walked down the corridor and into the living area where Jet sat at the kitchen table reading a paper and Ed was sitting on the floor by the couch typing away at her computer while Ein slept on the floor beside her. Jet glanced up to see his partner carrying his other partner into their bedroom.
"Hey! I'd prefer you not do that on this ship!" he said getting the idea that they were going to have sex. He heard a giggle from Alex as she dropped onto her bed with a bounce. Spike peeked back out of the doorway.
"Fine, we're going out tomorrow night and won't be back until the next day." He chuckled with a grin. Jet slammed his paper down on the table.
"ARG! I didn't need to know that!!!" he yelled as Spike disappeared inside the room and the door shut. Ed and Ein looked at him.
"Do what?" Ed asked with her head slightly cocked to the side, like a puppy.
"Nothing." Jet grumbled as he returned to reading his paper. Ed shrugged her shoulders and returned to her computer as Ein put his head down and went back to sleep.
Inside the bedroom, Spike was acting like a dumb ass, trying to make Alex feel better. He told stupid jokes, made horrible impressions, and just did stupid things to make her laugh. When he was sure she was feeling a lot better, he pulled his shirt off and switched into his sleep pants before jumping into bed with a still giggling Alex.
"Feeling better sweetheart?" he asked as he wrapped his arms around her. She wrapped her arms around him as hey pulled each other close.
"Uh huh." She smiled and nodded. Spike smiled and kissed her forehead. She kissed his forehead and then rolled over to face away from him.
"Night dear." He whispered into her ear.
"G'night honey." She said as he pulled her close around her waist. Within a few minutes, the both of them had fallen into a deep sleep.
The next morning, Alex woke up in the bed by herself. The clock read just after six, so it was her guess that Spike was out exercising on the dock like he did every morning. She rolled out of bed and walked out into the living area. There was a piece of paper on the table by the couch folded in half with Alex's name scribbled on it. She picked it up and opened it up. It was a note from Jet.
'Pidge Bordeaux called last night after you went to bed; he'll be here at noon today. I ran out with Spike and we won't be back until about 1 or 2. -Jet' Well how's about that. She crumpled the paper up and tossed it towards the trashcan. It bounced off the edge and fell to the floor beside it.
"Well thank god I don't play basketball for a living." She said to herself out loud. She went over to the can and put the paper in before walking over to the refrigerator to see what kind of food there was. Ed was probably still in bed, so she decided to boil some water for hot chocolate, she wasn't really hungry anyway. She put the water on and then went over to the computer and turned it on, hoping there was a good bounty on Big Shot at some point this morning. The water came to a boil quickly, so she poured her hot drink and sat in front of the computer, watching Big Shot for most of the morning. It was about 10:30 when she got an incoming call. With a push of a button, an audio and video link opened.
"Hello?" she answered. Pidge's face came up on screen.
"Hey there Alex. How are you?" he asked with a smile.
"Good. I got a note that you're supposed to come over around noon today, right?" she asked.
"Yep, that's what I was calling about. I was just checking to make sure you were going to be around." he nodded.
"Yea, I'm going to be here, no problem."
"Alright, well I'll see you in about an hour and a half then." He said.
"Okay Pidge, see you soon." She said as she closed the connection and sat back on the couch. She had to get ready and she hadn't seen Ed or Ein yet today. She took her mug to the sink and went and peeked in Ed's room. She was sitting in front of her computer with her goggles on and Ein sitting at her side. "Ed?" Alex asked as she stepped into the room.
"Yessum?" she asked twisting her head to look at Alex.
"I'm getting into the shower, just wanted to see of you were awake yet." She said as she turned to walk out again.
"O-Tay!" she said with a goofy smile.
"Answer the phone if it rings!" she called when she was half way to the shower.
"UH HUH!" Ed yelled in response. Alex couldn't help but giggle as she stepped into the bathroom.
"Oh, hello Lee. Alex and I were just…talking." He said as he pulled himself to his feet and walked up behind her. She couldn't pull her eyes from Spike's face, which displayed no emotion whatsoever. Blade rested his hands on her shoulders. "I have to go for now, I'll call you in the morning." He said as he kissed her cheek and then walked around her. He walked past Spike and out the door. It closed behind him with another quiet whoosh. They heard the main door open and shut before either of them made any movement or said anything. Alex was the first; with tears running down her face, she fell to her knees and hid her face in her hands as she began to cry. Spike didn't move at all.
"I can't believe I did that! Spike, you have no idea how ashamed I am. I am so sorry!" she sobbed as her hair shrouded her face. Her tears splashed onto her hands and trailed down her forearms to her elbows, where they dripped onto her pants. Still on her knees, she balled herself into a fetal position on the floor and continued to cry, not as loudly though. "My god, if you don't want to speak to me ever again, I'd understand. I feel so horrible." She moaned as she clutched her stomach. Spike knew she was sorry; she never did this before. He'd seen her cry when she was upset and she was sorry, but not to this extent. He walked over to her and knelt beside her. She was shaking violently and sobbing which made Spike think; was he like this after he hurt her earlier? He placed his hand on her back and rubbed her quaking body.
"Calm down Alex. It's alright." He said soothingly. She sat up and looked at him as she pulled her hair out of her face.
"What do you mean it's alright? You saw what happened! I can't believe you'd still love me after that." She said further scolding herself.
"Snap out of it! I don't care what he did, all I care about is what you said when he was about to…you know." He said.
"What?" she asked. He smiled at her.
"You said you wanted to do that, just not with him. That gives me reason to believe you wished he were me when he did that. Am I right?" he grinned as Alex wiped her eyes. She looked at his smiling face and couldn't help but smile herself. She wrapped her arms around him and hugged him tight.
"Oh Spike! I love you." She cried as her tears bled into his shirt when she buried her face in his shoulder. He held her close in return.
"After all you went through when you were younger, I was afraid to even suggest the idea because I didn't want you to think that was what I wanted from you. If I'm pressuring you into doing it, I don't want you to feel uncomfortable. Just tell me to stop and I'll back off." He said somewhat lecturing her.
"Well, technically, I'm still a virgin. So you'd have to take the lead." She teased as she nuzzled into his shoulder.
"Not tonight. We've all had a rough day so we should get plenty of rest." He said as he picked her up in his arms.
"My kimono!" she said pointing to the red satin pile of cloth on the floor as she wrapped her one arm around his neck. He walked over and bent down far enough for her to reach out and pick it up before standing again and carrying her out of the room. He walked down the corridor and into the living area where Jet sat at the kitchen table reading a paper and Ed was sitting on the floor by the couch typing away at her computer while Ein slept on the floor beside her. Jet glanced up to see his partner carrying his other partner into their bedroom.
"Hey! I'd prefer you not do that on this ship!" he said getting the idea that they were going to have sex. He heard a giggle from Alex as she dropped onto her bed with a bounce. Spike peeked back out of the doorway.
"Fine, we're going out tomorrow night and won't be back until the next day." He chuckled with a grin. Jet slammed his paper down on the table.
"ARG! I didn't need to know that!!!" he yelled as Spike disappeared inside the room and the door shut. Ed and Ein looked at him.
"Do what?" Ed asked with her head slightly cocked to the side, like a puppy.
"Nothing." Jet grumbled as he returned to reading his paper. Ed shrugged her shoulders and returned to her computer as Ein put his head down and went back to sleep.
Inside the bedroom, Spike was acting like a dumb ass, trying to make Alex feel better. He told stupid jokes, made horrible impressions, and just did stupid things to make her laugh. When he was sure she was feeling a lot better, he pulled his shirt off and switched into his sleep pants before jumping into bed with a still giggling Alex.
"Feeling better sweetheart?" he asked as he wrapped his arms around her. She wrapped her arms around him as hey pulled each other close.
"Uh huh." She smiled and nodded. Spike smiled and kissed her forehead. She kissed his forehead and then rolled over to face away from him.
"Night dear." He whispered into her ear.
"G'night honey." She said as he pulled her close around her waist. Within a few minutes, the both of them had fallen into a deep sleep.
The next morning, Alex woke up in the bed by herself. The clock read just after six, so it was her guess that Spike was out exercising on the dock like he did every morning. She rolled out of bed and walked out into the living area. There was a piece of paper on the table by the couch folded in half with Alex's name scribbled on it. She picked it up and opened it up. It was a note from Jet.
'Pidge Bordeaux called last night after you went to bed; he'll be here at noon today. I ran out with Spike and we won't be back until about 1 or 2. -Jet' Well how's about that. She crumpled the paper up and tossed it towards the trashcan. It bounced off the edge and fell to the floor beside it.
"Well thank god I don't play basketball for a living." She said to herself out loud. She went over to the can and put the paper in before walking over to the refrigerator to see what kind of food there was. Ed was probably still in bed, so she decided to boil some water for hot chocolate, she wasn't really hungry anyway. She put the water on and then went over to the computer and turned it on, hoping there was a good bounty on Big Shot at some point this morning. The water came to a boil quickly, so she poured her hot drink and sat in front of the computer, watching Big Shot for most of the morning. It was about 10:30 when she got an incoming call. With a push of a button, an audio and video link opened.
"Hello?" she answered. Pidge's face came up on screen.
"Hey there Alex. How are you?" he asked with a smile.
"Good. I got a note that you're supposed to come over around noon today, right?" she asked.
"Yep, that's what I was calling about. I was just checking to make sure you were going to be around." he nodded.
"Yea, I'm going to be here, no problem."
"Alright, well I'll see you in about an hour and a half then." He said.
"Okay Pidge, see you soon." She said as she closed the connection and sat back on the couch. She had to get ready and she hadn't seen Ed or Ein yet today. She took her mug to the sink and went and peeked in Ed's room. She was sitting in front of her computer with her goggles on and Ein sitting at her side. "Ed?" Alex asked as she stepped into the room.
"Yessum?" she asked twisting her head to look at Alex.
"I'm getting into the shower, just wanted to see of you were awake yet." She said as she turned to walk out again.
"O-Tay!" she said with a goofy smile.
"Answer the phone if it rings!" she called when she was half way to the shower.
"UH HUH!" Ed yelled in response. Alex couldn't help but giggle as she stepped into the bathroom.