Relive, Relove, Redeem

Chp 4pt1: You're Always Gonna Be The One

I got the title of this chapter from the song First Love from Utada Hikaru that song is so sweet...It would be even sweeter if I understood Japanese...Which I don't...so yup boo hoo for mwa... I honestly hope you'll like this chapter, it won't be that good because I'm still thinking of what to put... oh miriallia and dearka are in this one, so all you dxm fans better be prepared.

Oh and Happy March to you all... I'm soo tired, and I have decided to become Lilo, from Lilo and Stitch for my drama presentation...It won't be that hard...hopefully...

DISCLAIMER: Phew, I thought I didn't put a disclaimer on the last chapter... ugh... I so wish i owned this... but if I did there would be lots of crappy drawings, let me tell you that much...

Sunday 10:00 am

The half-opened curtain let the sun fill the room as almost every corner of Cagalli's room had been hit by the sun's rays. Athrun woke up when the sun had finally hit his eye and shifted a bit so it wouldn't hurt his eyes anymore.

And there she was...Cagalli finally beside him. He had longed for the moment of them to finally be there for each other when they had woken up. She was finally there when he woke up, it was the most happiest feeling in the world to him. She looked so cute when she slept, even though he thought she looked cute regardless. Cagalli was straddling him because she had rollen over in her sleep so now she was on top of him. Her ear was on his heart just as if she listened to it quietly paying attention to every beat that Athrun's heart had made. His loudly thumping heart. The heart that beat for her. Athrun hugged her as she slept on his chest feeling her back rising and falling every time she took a breath. He closed his eyes trying not to let the moment pass by him so quickly. Until Cagalli began to stir...

"Ugh..." Cagalli said as she was beginning to wake up, Athrun closed his eyes pretending to sleep.

She opened her eyes, but didn't get up she just kept lying down on Athrun's chest without really realizing it. She didn't know that Athrun was with her.

"Wow, this is rare..." Cagalli began to talk to herself. "My pillow is kind of hard, but its so comfortable and warm."

Athrun smiled, she couldn't see his face yet, and he took that comment as a compliment. He shut his eyes again.

"And...when did my pillow ever go up and d-d-down.." Cagalli said. She covered her mouth and looked up. It was Athrun.

"Athrun!" Cagalli gasped. "I slept with Athrun! Yes! Wait...what am I saying? How did that thought get into my head? Why is Athrun here? Most importantly, why is he only in an undershirt and shorts, while I'm in a tank top and...SHORT SHORTS?"

Athrun was in a pure-bliss state at the moment. Realizing that Cagalli noticed that he was there in less than ten minutes was amazing, especially how she was drunk last night.

She noticed that she was straddling him and quickly got off him blushing, then she turned and faced him lying on her side. She touched the side of his face and stroked it gently. "Damn, he looks cute when he's asleep." Cagalli said. Athrun was getting hot and Cagalli felt it, she kind of looked surprised. "Does he have a fever?" Cagalli quickly said as he felt his forehead.

Suddenly she felt an arm push her arm down to hug her, and put a leg over her. "HUH?" Cagalli said blushing. "So you were happy that you thought I had sex with you, didn't you? You're a very naughty girl Cagalli. I wouldn't have expected that from someone like you..." Athrun spoke in a husky voice. "It seems like you liked the thought more than I did Athrun." Cagalli teasingly replied. "To honestly tell you, I did like the idea, but I couldn't ever do that to you while you were drunk..." Athrun said. "I love you too much to ever do that to you..." he said again, this time with the most seductive voice that Cagalli shivered. Cagalli blushed "Yah well...you never know..." Athrun laughed, "Well that's not what you said last night, Cagalli. You said that you're bed was so empty and lonely, you even thanked me for filling in the gap."

"I did?" Cagalli said still in Athrun's grasp. "I probably didn't mean it..." Athrun's heart sank at that comment but knew she didn't mean it, because he felt the same way too. He knew what it was like for it to be alone, sleeping by yourself knowing that there was someone in space that you could be sleeping with. He knew what it was like to have only a pillow beside him wishing it was the only person in the world you cared about. "I think you did mean it Cagalli...Think about it, I know you're not that weak. I knew you were already almost consious when you whispered those words to me..." Athrun said in a regular voice. Cagalli froze 'Was he right? Did I really say that?' Then it hit her. She remembered it thinking it was a dream. "I thought I was dreaming..." Cagalli softly spoke. Usually Cagalli didn't speak that soft, which kind of worried Athrun.

"You were dreaming? Of me? I'm flattered Cagalli..." Athrun said blushing. "Heh. I'm not worth dreaming of..." Cagalli trailed off as Athrun held on tighter. Athrun chuckled "Of course you're worth dreaming of...don't ever think that...I'm always dreaming of you..." Cagalli relaxed in his arms. "I'm glad that you dream of me...because that night you called me...I was dreaming of you..."

Athrun paused to breathe at that moment. He still had his right leg over her and was still hugging her. He felt so happy at that moment it was like he had won more than fifty million dollars. He still knew that she cared for him. He still cared for her, why not? Just as Dearka had said, it was always her who stayed with him until now, she was always the one who had never given up hope on him. So why should he give up on her? To him Cagalli was worth fighting for. If any guy were to have an affair with Cagalli, he would be extremly jealous. He would never abandon her without coming back for her. He loved her and would only leave her when he died, but even then, he would never leave her in spirit.

Cagalli turned to face him, then got up and pulled the sheets on top over them. "Hey Athrun, What do you say we get a few more hours of sleep?" Athrun smiled, "I would love to...if it would mean that you were beside me..." Cagalli blushed, once again Athrun had charmed her. She laughed, "Thanks for filling in the gap stupid..." Athrun embraced her again in a hug, "No problem princess..."

So now they lay there talking to each other as they try to fall asleep again. Athrun and Cagalli are happy now that they have each other. As they hold on to each other as if life depended on it. Cagalli slept first, head on Athrun's chest, and Athrun second after playing with Cagalli's hair.

Dearka! What happened to Dearka! I know that's what you're thinking, and I can't blame you, I'm starting to run out of ideas for Athrun and Cagalli...and the title didn't really fit... I have to say, this isn't the best of chapters especially for my work... I might redo it again later...

Miriallia lay on her bed as she only had one thing on her mind. Dearka Elsman. Yesterday was about the most best day she could possibly imagine. 'Oh Tolle...Thank you for giving all your love to me...No words can explain what I mean. I thank you for loving me and giving me someone new to love. If you can hear me right now, show me a sign that he is the one. You loved me with all your heart, and I did the same with you, but you helped me learn that why only have one love? There was no point of you giving your love to me if I couldn't give my love to anyone else. I know you don't want me to live my life in sadness, so help me to move on and to show my love to the person that I have found. Oh I forgot one thing...Thanks for giving Dearka a chance to love me, yesterday was a good day and I thank you for that, I think I will be happier now that I know you're watching over me...I wish you were still with me, but I guess it was destiny...'

Today was the day that Tolle died. This whole month Miriallia had been praying to Tolle. Every night and every morning she would talk to him, and even though he never talked back he'd always give her a sign. She always had kept in mind his sweet voice, that always teased her whenever she did something funny.

Yesterday's date with Dearka had been something awfully sweet. She still couldn't find the reason why she had accepted, but it was worth it. That morning she had arrived late, unfortunately because of traffic she encountered. When she came through the doors Dearka was all smiles. Dearka hugged her when she approached the table. Blushing Miriallia sat down and they ate some breakfast.

Flashback

"So Miriallia..." Dearka said trying to create a conversation.

"Umm yeah..."Miriallia answered shyly.

"You know we'll never get anywhere like this you know...I asked you out on a date not on endless rounds of the quiet game." Dearka stated.

Miriallia chuckled. She was actually kind of shy when it came to Dearka. All of her feelings went to other levels of emotional value. She hated him but loved him as well. Although right now she kind of actually loved him more than hated.

"You have a cute laugh," Dearka honestly answered to Miriallia's chuckle, saying to himself "Hook, line and sinker. Boy, she's yours..."

"Don't get too cocky, I can see the look in your eyes...It'll take more that wittyness to attract me." Miriallia stated, although she knew he had already made her fall in love with him.

Dearka was speechless. It was like she could read minds. He knew this one was gonna be a tough one to crack. "Say, let's make a deal..." Dearka said thirty seconds later.

"Ok...let's make a deal," Miriallia said as she leaned closer starting to get interested.

"I bet you...I could get you to fall in love with me within three weeks..." Dearka said grinning. Miriallia's eyes grew wide.

"W-w-what?" She asked as she looked deeper in his eyes.

"You heard me, babes, I betcha I could make you have the hots for me in three weeks..." Dearka said, "Starting with this..." and with that Dearka kissed her on the lips for three seconds, and parted for the cashier.

Miriallia sat there, dumbfounded. A man she only encountered less than five times had kissed her. ON THE LIPS! She cocked one eyebrow, as she turned her head to where Dearka was. She stood up and went beside him.

"So you came back for more huh?" Dearka flashed a smile as he finally gave the money to the cashier, and walked out, with her tagging along.

"I'll only go on this date with you if you don't call me babes." Miriallia said as she grabbed his hand and jerked it so he was facing her.

"SO you're suddenly interested?" Dearka sarcastically asked.

"I have better things to do than go on dates..." Miriallia stated as she crossed her arms, "But I think that everyone deserves a chance...so here I am."

"You just wanted to go on this date because you think I look good." Dearka smirked a comment.

"Eat your words Elsman, because it's not going to come true." Miriallia strongly said as she turned her head the other way.

"I'm afraid that you've already eaten them up, but that's ok, I'll still go on this date with you." Dearka flashed another comment.

SLAP!

"Ow!" Dearka whined as he sent a confused look at her.

"Let's go!" Miriallia commanded.

"Yes m'am," Dearka followed.

End Of Flashback

Miriallia stared outside the window from the kitchen table. Sitting beside the coffee table, alone. Sometimes she would invite friends over, but still it would never feel good inside herself when someone sat on the chair. So she presumed it was Tolle's spot. Every now and then she would put a mug in front of that spot and almost see a sillouette of him sitting on a chair smiling. It brought a tear to her eye everytime she would see him. She missed him so... It really was so hard to move on from someone who's left you, but then again everyone has to leave at some point. She just wished it wasn't so soon.

A tear rolled down her cheek as she looked out at the same ocean that Cagalli had once looked on before in her office. "The tear that rolls down my cheek is enough to fill the oceans. Every tear has a reason why it falls, and that reason is you. I try to hard to stay defensive, and at the same time remember to be human. But I'm falling apart like the waves that crash upon the rocks, I'm drowning in my ocean of tears..." Miriallia whispered almost as if it was only made for Tolle to hear.

...sniff I almost cried while writing this part of the chapter honest to God... I'm like (- -) this close to bursting out into tears but I won't for your sake and for my computer's sake... lol so ... I guess this is it...up to chapter 4.2 For all you Kira Lacus fans they'll probably appear in chapter five...

I'm really probably going to fail drama.. and probably my other subjects.. I hate to always have to sleep late just for homework...for all you late night reader know how I feel.. maybe.. well anyways thanks to all of you who actually put a review... and even for those who don't thanks!