Chapter 5

Obi-Wan kept in contact with Padme during the following weeks of his final visit to Naboo to make sure she was alright. Their conversations were brief and formal, but Padme looked forward to hearing from him daily.

Once their conversations ceased entirely she sank into a deep depression, she had hoped that she and Obi-Wan could work out their problems, but she realized once he stopped contacting her that it was over for good. It was hard enough losing a baby, but losing Obi-Wan as well was more than she could bear.

"He'll always care for you my lady" Sabe said as she tried to comfort a weeping Padme.

"No, he hates me now, I've ruined everything."

"He could never hate you my lady" but Sabe knew her words were falling on deaf ears.

The truth was; Obi-Wan had been keeping in contact with Sabe to make sure Padme was alright. He told Sabe that he felt it was best if he slowly lost contact with Padme to help her move on.

"She needs you Master Jedi."

"She is better off without me Sabe, but I need to make sure she is alright, if anything happens, please let me know."

"You still love her don't you?"

"Yes, but Padme lied to me because she felt she couldn't confide in me, I'm not the right man for her, I never was, our relationship was not good for her."

"Alright, I'll let you know how she is in the coming months, but I still think you should reconsider."

"Thank-you Sabe, but I am doing the right thing."

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Obi-Wan had returned to Corescant without any questions about his sudden departure from the temple. He was grateful he didn't have to answer to any questions from the council. He wasn't sure if he would have been able to hide the truth from them.

He had gone through a cycle of emotions, from being worried about Padme's safety to being told he was going to be a father to hearing his child had died. Not since the death of his Master had he felt such a pain in his heart, a pain that got worse everyday because he was missing Padme as well as grieving for his child. In a lot of ways, he felt like he lost both of them. She would always have that special place in his heart, but he knew she deserved better. He only wanted her to be happy and while the separation was difficult, he knew it was what had to be done. He would always watch out for her though, he knew he would always be very protective of her.

He spent a lot of his time training Anakin to help keep his mind off of things. Anakin had stopped asking the constant questions about how his stay at Naboo was. In fact, Anakin had quit talking about Padme all together until two years later.

"Master look Padme has become a Senator here on Corescant!" he said running into Obi-Wan's quarters with the newspaper in his hand.

Sure enough the headline news was that there was a new member of the galactic senate, the former Queen of Naboo now titled Senator Amidala.

'She looks well' Obi-Wan thought to himself as he began reading the article. He hated politicians and was not pleased to see that Padme had become one. He knew she had a passion for politics but was surprised that she would ever leave Naboo.

"Can we go visit her Master?" Anakin said when Obi-Wan was finished reading.

"No Anakin, we will not go bothering the Senator ever is that clear?"

"Can't we go just once?"

"No."

"I miss her Master."

"Jedi do not form attachments Anakin remember that."

It was obvious to Obi-Wan that Anakin still held deep feelings for her, it sparked jealousy, he didn't want Anakin to be around Padme. But the main reason he denied Anakin contact with her was because he knew Padme would distract Anakin from his training.

He realized the hypocrisy of his statement to his padawan about not forming attachments, and he hated himself for it. A lot of the tension that went on between the two of them was because Obi-Wan knew that he was hardly a good example of how the Jedi Code was to be followed. He hated the fake persona he held. No one really knew the true Obi-Wan, the side of him that loved another, and still did.