Disclaimer: Hellsing belongs to Kouta Kirano and the studio Gonzo

Author's Notes: thanks to my friend Nichole, who edit this.

Technical note: A drabble. Set on the mind of Seres Victoria. Her ciclic thoughts

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Sorrow

Pain

Hate

Confusion

Fear

Anguish

Uncertainty

Why?

Why do I choose to live on this way?

I miss my life. My simple and mortal life

I miss silly things, like my heart beating faster when that cute guy in my high school approached me... or the flavor of the hot chocolate that mum used to make me

I was nobody. After dying, I'm still nobody

The only thing I can feel is pity and cowardice

My regrets will be eternal, I don't have any doubts.

Some day... these death throes will be over.