A/N So here is another chapter and it didn't take me long. This story is really speaking to me lately. I've not given up my other stories and soon the sequel to my first story should be up, I just need to get motivated. So Sookie is going through a lot of changes in this chapter and it's leading up to something big, so enjoy and leave me some love!

In the seconds that it took me to pop out after him, he had uprooted half a dozen trees from the surrounding forest. "Eric!" I shouted. "Please stop this before you hurt yourself!" He was either ignoring me or he was so lost in his anger that he couldn't hear me. In the short time that I'd known him, I'd never seen him act like this and it was scaring me and breaking my heart. I had to do something to stop him.

I wasn't trying to do it on purpose, but I could feel my powers build up inside of me. Somehow I knew what I was about to do and I wanted to stop myself, but I just couldn't. There were rivers of tears streaming down my face as I lifted my hands and blasted Eric with a ball of my light powers. My aim was spot on and it almost killed me to watch the love of my life go flying through the air, then crash to the ground, laying completely still.

Oh God! What have I done? "ERIC!" So many things went through my mind as I ran towards him, not wanting to chance popping when my emotions were so erratic. The thought in the front of my mind was that whatever power I had just wielded had killed him. A thousand years of living and a few days with me and he's done for. No, I wouldn't, I couldn't think like that.

I ran as fast as I could and when I reached him I dropped to my knees and cradled his head in my lap. I brushed the hair from his eyes as my tears fell onto his handsome face. "Please Eric, wake up. I can't of killed you. I love you too much. If you please wake up I'll do anything that you want. We can run away from all of this craziness, just please come back to me. I can't live my life without you."

"Oh Lover, it's going to take more than a little blast of light to take me down."

I quickly wiped away my tears and saw him smiling up at me. I had never felt so happy in my entire life. I set his head gently down on the ground and was quick to straddle his still naked body. I leaned down and peppered his face with kisses. "Oh God, Eric I thought that I had killed you." I took his face in my hands and kissed him hard and deep on the lips. We'd only just begun our lives together. I've had him and now I can't imagine another day without him. That thought and feeling was what prompted my next words without my brains permission. "Turn me." I pulled my hair back from my neck and leaned in closer to Eric.

I could feel the war being raged inside of him. He wanted to turn me, to keep me safe, to make me strong so that I could protect myself, but he also wanted me to stay the way that I am. It was my humanity that he fell in love with and he wanted me to keep that for as long as possible. I wanted to tell him that it didn't matter whether I was vampire or human, I'd still be me, but there was something inside of me that was rebelling against what I wanted.

Before he could respond to my request, I quickly jumped off of him and made it a few feet away before I was violently ill. I had never been this sick in my life or had something come on this quickly. Something was wrong, I could feel it, but I didn't know what it was. This, to me anyway, was scarier than any vampire coming after me.

Panic was really starting to build in me over why I was sick and what was happening to me in general, when I felt Eric come up behind me and slid his arms around my waist. "It's all right my love, I am right here. Everything is going to be all right."

I spit one more time before I fell back into Eric's arms feeling physically and emotionally exhausted. "Eric, I'm so sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry for my angel, I'm the one who should be sorry." He gently lifted me into his arms and started back to the cabin. "I shouldn't have lost my temper like that, it's just that with everything that has been happening these last few days, I feel very out of control and like I'm letting you down allowing the enemy to get so close to you."

"Eric, it's not your fault. How could you have possibly known any of this was going to happen? You couldn't, but now that we do know, we can deal with it, together."

"So I guess this means you really don't run away after all?"

"You heard me?"

"Yes I did. You know that I would take you anywhere that you wanted to go my angel. I have friends all over the world. We could travel, visit anyplace that you want to see. I would love to see the world with you, through your eyes."

The thought of traveling the world with Eric, to see the places that I'd only read about before, was very tempting, but it was quickly overshadowed by thoughts of Gran and Jason. I couldn't leave them to the mercy of those who were after me. "Eric, that sounds amazing, and I would love to see the world with you someday, but I can't leave my Gran and Jason all alone with everything that's happening. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I went away and something happened to them."

"They could come with us. We could go anywhere that your heart desires."

Still very tempting, but I still had to say no. "No Eric. It sounds lovely and maybe someday, but now we need to fight. We need to deal with these problems, not run from them or they will just follow us anyways." I looked up at him as he carried me inside to our bedroom and set me down on our bed. "I thought that a big Viking like you would want to fight."

"I do, but for some reason I feel extra protective of you today than I did before. I just want to get you as far away from this whole mess as possible and keep you safe from harm." He lay down beside me on the bed and pressed his cool hand to my forehead. Just that slight touch felt like heaven to me. "How are you feeling now Lover?"

"Better I guess, but now I feel absolutely ravenous."

"What would you like? Anything that you want you shall have."

I didn't have to think about what I wanted, it was laying right beside me. It wasn't my love that I wanted, but the blood coursing through his veins. I couldn't take my eyes off his neck and I licked my lips thinking about tasting his sweet blood. "I can really have anything I want?"

"Of course my love, anything."

"Good." Before I even realized what I was doing, I was latched on to Eric's neck and his delicious blood was flowing into my mouth. Something was different about his blood today. It tasted better than before, better than anything else that I had ever tasted before. I could feel every drop of it flowing into me and through me and I felt better than when I'd had Eric's blood before. I felt power and magic flowing through me and it was invigorating me. I was almost lost in it until I felt panic coming from my bond with Eric.

Without pulling away from his neck and his delicious blood, I focused on Eric's feelings. He was intrigued as to how I was able to hold him down like I was, he had been enjoying the sensation of me taking his blood, but now he was panicking at how much I was taking and how weak he was becoming. I still couldn't pull myself away from his neck until I felt him go limp below me and our bond had dimmed to nothing but a trickle.

I pulled myself from my apparent bloodlust and looked down at Eric. Oh God! He was even paler than normal, almost gray and he was unconscious. I couldn't believe that I'd done it again. I think I've killed the man that I love.!

I wanted to panic, but I knew that I had to stay calm so that I could help him. The first thing that I needed was blood. Jesus, how much did I take from him?

I needed to go and find some blood in the house, but I just couldn't force myself to leave his side. This could possibly be the last time that I ever saw him, but he needed the blood to hopefully survive.

That was all I could focus on, getting him the blood that he needed. Blood, blood, blood, that was all that was going through my head, and suddenly there was a pile of bagged blood that appeared next to me.

I didn't have time to question how it got there, I quickly opened the first bag and sat him up so that I could pour the blood down his throat.

As I was feeding him bag after bag of blood, I couldn't stop the tears that were streaming down my face or the words that flowed out of my mouth. "Baby, I promise that if you wake up this time, I'll leave and never darken your doorstep ever again. I'm obviously too dangerous to be around you, so I'll go and try to find someone else to help me. Once I know that you are all right, I'll leave for good."

I was just opening the ninth bag when his hand sprang up to stop me. "Don't say that. Don't ever say that again. If you even think about leaving me now, I will chain you up in my basement and never let you go."

I was so happy that he was awake, but I had to argue with him. "How can you say that? Twice today I have almost killed you. If I were you, I'd want to be as far away from me as possible."

"I don't want to be away from you. You are a part of me now. You could try to kill me everyday for the rest of eternity and I still wouldn't let you go. We are one whether you like it or not. Also there is the little fact that I'm in love with you, that could have something to do with me not wanting you to leave me."

"I love you too, so very much, but what if next time I really do kill you? I couldn't live with myself."

"Sookie, I don't think that you could kill me even if you wanted to."

"But what about before…" He placed his fingers to my lips to stop me from speaking.

"Lover, when you hit me with your light before, it didn't hurt me, it just stopped me from hurting myself. I'm assuming that's what you wanted to do." I nodded. "We are one in every way. You hurting me would be like you hurting yourself. You just couldn't do it."

"But Eric, what about your blood. I craved it like nothing else and I couldn't stop myself from taking it. If you hadn't panicked the way that you did, I don't know if I would have been able to stop myself."

"That is not normal, at least for a human. Maybe it's the fairy in…" His sentence trailed off as his eyes fell on my mouth. "Oh God Sookie!"

"What?"

"Your mouth." He had a smile on his face, but I was starting to freak out.

"What about my mouth?" I couldn't wait for him to answer, so I quickly jumped off the bed and ran into the bathroom.