So a lot of you were not happy with Sookie's behavior in the last chapter and I love it. She just needed to let some things out and I promise that she won't be acting like that again. So read, leave me some love and I'll go back to writing:)
For three days I stayed locked alone in that room. I didn't see or talk to anyone. I cried, I screamed, I tore the room apart, and then put it back together with my new powers. I conjured what I wanted to eat or drink which wasn't much and I refused to sleep. I would rest, but I wouldn't let myself fall asleep. I knew that if I did Nessa would come to me and not be happy with me and I didn't want that. But by the end of the third day I couldn't keep myself away any longer and I found out just how unhappy she was with me.
At first I was met with blessed blackness as I slipped to sleep, but it wasn't long before my eyes opened and there was Nessa standing at the end of the bed with her hands on her hips, a scowl on her face and her black eyes seemed even darker if that was possible. For the first time I was actually scared of Nessa. "You need to snap the fuck out of this Sookie." That was the first time I think I heard her curse. Now I was really scared.
"I tried, but…"
"No you didn't. You are letting your emotions control you instead of you controlling your emotions." She eased up somewhat as she came over and sat down next to me on the bed. "I understand that physically and emotionally you have gone through some enormous changes in a very short period of time and that was even before you found out that you were pregnant, but you can't do what you've been doing this past few days anymore.
"I know that you are aching for your mate and this distance with a bond so new is trying, but you are powerful enough to control these emotions."
"I feel like I'm being ripped apart inside being so far away from him." I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks and I couldn't stop them.
"I know my little angel, but you need to focus on the good things in your life to help you control those feelings. You have a wedding to plan and a baby to prepare for." My hands instantly covered my still flat tummy. "If you keep doing what you are doing you are going to hurt him."
That sent a new pain through my chest. "No, I would never do anything to hurt my baby." Something snapped inside of me just thinking about that.
"I know that you wouldn't, but right now is a crucial time in his development. You need to be eating way more than you have been, you need to be sleeping whether you want to see my shining face or not and you need to be outside in the fresh air. You may becoming a vampire hybrid, but the Fae inside of you still thrives on the sunlight." She paused and I knew she was getting ready to pull out the big guns. "What would Eric say to you if he could see you right now?"
"He would be very disappointed at how I've been acting. He probably hates me right now for the way I acted. I didn't even kiss him goodbye at the airport. How could I possibly be so selfish and so stubborn?"
"You are going through a lot, but you are going to straighten yourself out now. Right?"
"Yes Ma'am."
"Good girl. Now I want you to focus all of those warring emotions inside of you and I want you to build a box around them like you build up your shields to keep the voices out."
Okay, I can so that, I have to for Eric and our son. I can't be selfish and stubborn and lock myself in a room and not take care of myself. I need to be strong and know that Eric is doing this to protect us and that he'll come to me just as soon as he can.
It was easier than I thought to lock up those chaotic feelings tight. I could feel myself instantly relax. I was still missing Eric, but that I could deal with. "Oh thank you Nessa, thank you so much. I feel much better already."
"Good girl. Now if you start feeling like this again, you call to me and I'll help you right away. That's why I'm here Sookie, to help you when you need it. You are going to need a lot of help in the coming months and years as you fully come into your powers and as your special children come into the world. I won't let you fail Sookie and neither will your Viking. He loves you more than even I could have predicted."
"And I love him so very much. I've never loved anyone as much as I love him."
"That's very good. You both need to learn to work together when it comes to everything that happens around you. Sometimes he might have to leave you to protect you or to protect the children and it hurts him just as much as it hurts you, but he does it because it needs to be done. Do you understand?" I nodded. "Excellent, now you are going to wake up soon because it is almost midday and you've made up a bit of the sleep you have deprived yourself of. Your Gran is waiting in your room for you to wake up. You've worried her half to death and you are going to take the scolding that she is going to give you like a good girl. Right?"
"Yes Ma'am."
"After you are going to eat a big brunch, and then you are going to go outside and get some sun, but before that you need to sit down and write a letter."
"A letter? To who?"
"Your mate. I've left a box in your room and left another with your Viking. His will magically appear wherever he is whenever you send him a letter. It will help both of you stay connected and it will help you both feel more centered."
"Oh Nessa, you have made me feel so much better. I love you so much."
"I love you too my angel. Now it's time for you to face your Gran."
"Bye Nessa." I was pulled from my dream and sat up in bed coming face to face with a very unhappy Gran. Oh, this was not going to be pretty.