Author- Luna P aka Nikki
Rating- R/M
Warning- Yaoi, language (from the very start to the very end n.n) abuse, violence, angst and Yami no Malik and Yami no Bakura n.n
Disclaimer- if I owned it then Ryuuji would get a lot more screen time, as would Yami no Malik and Malik himself. However I do not and I do not claim to so I ask for you to be nice and to not sue me n.n
Summary- Ryuuji and his lover have a fight and he storms out to calm down, when he doesn't return his loved ones start to worry, but what happened to him, where is he and will they find him before it's too late… SetoxRyuuji, YsxHs (and many others)
A/N- Ok this is just something that I came up with whilst I was writing and listening to my HIM CD before going to the Kerrang! XXV tour. All I can ask of you is to PLEASE REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK it would really mean a lot to me as I put a lot of effort into everything I write to make it the best I can for you guys out there. Anyway enjoy and once again please review n.n
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Chapter one- Emerald…
Emerald-eyes shimmered with a wall of tears that refused to fall as they locked onto the form of the man before them. He wanted nothing more right now than to run away, to just pack his stuff and never come back, but he didn't want to lose what they had, most of all, he didn't want to back down. Not to him and not now. But it was just so painful to stand there and hear it all, to be accused of such horrible things and have no way to prove that they weren't true. A few tears slipped from his eyes and made their way down the pale flesh to the floor at his feet and he knew that he would have to break his silence.
"You're fucking paranoid you know that?" he asked, trying to keep his voice calm and steady but failing as the sobs tried to force their way into his speech making him squeak every once in a while. Azure-eyes narrowed at what had been said to him, he stepped closer to the emerald-eyed boy who struggled to stand his ground instead of back away as he had done several times before. He was weak and afraid but he would not show it, he would not yield to him, not this time.
"How dare you speak to me like that, if it's not the truth I speak, then tell me, what led you to my door, what drew you to my bed?" The taller male asked, glaring down at the slightly smaller man with all he had, a few more tears fell, he just wanted him to stop it, stop speaking stop shouting at him and telling him why he had done the things he'd done. He couldn't understand, everything had been fine between them that morning, then the elder had left for work and returned like this. Angry at the emerald-eyed teen for things he hadn't done.
"I could tell you the reasons time and time again but in this state you wouldn't believe them even if I was hooked up to a lie detector." Emerald eyes closed forcing the wall of tears to shatter and spill onto the soft cheeks below as he tried to regain his composure.
"I wouldn't believe you because all you do is lie," the emerald-eyed boy shook his head, raven ponytail whipping violently from left to right. "How stupid do you think I am? You used me Ryuuji, just like you use everyone else, only I got wise to it, you just can't except that someone found out, can't except that you've been found out and beaten at your own sick and twisted game." The taller snarled, the raven head just continued to shake from side to side. Protesting that it wasn't true.
"You're fucked up, do you even know what trust is? You probably can't even spell it you're so paranoid that you more than likely believe the spider spinning it's web in that corner is a trap to catch you out and tear you apart!" The younger male yelled as he looked back up at the other man in his company. He could hear the rain pounding against the window could feel the cold but was unsure whether that cold was coming from the world lying just behind the glass or the being of ice stood infront of him now.
"I'm not paranoid Ryuuji, infact I'm seeing things a hell of a lot clearer than I have over these past months. For a while I thought you were worth my time now you're just a useless slut that I have no wish to spend any further time with. You're a nobody and I grow tired of your company." The elder explained matter of factly, emerald-eyes narrowed and he went to slap the taller male but said male caught his wrist before he even got close. Clenching his hand around the younger's wrist and making him gasp in pain.
"Let go! Stop it you're hurting me!" The raven-haired male growled and tried to pull his arm away but the elders grip only tightened causing him to yelp at the pressure growing ever tighter around his wrist. "Stop it you bastard!" He screamed and struggled to free his aching wrist once again "just let go of me!" blue-eyes softened slightly, but the younger man didn't see as he tugged at the hand on his wrist and let the tears fall unhindered from his eyes. The elder let go and his eyes once again narrowed.
"You're pathetic," the blue-eyed man growled and folded his arms across his chest as he studied the younger man. He had a right to be pissed off after all, he had been fooled into loving this man, had actually loved him. He'd have done absolutely anything for him, of course then he'd been told the truth, he'd been played. Toyed with like a pawn in a chess game, and he would make the other pay for manipulating him as he had.
"And you're a cold hearted bastard who doesn't care who they hurt, how does Mokuba stand you, how does he stand this. You've treated him like he didn't even matter in the past, how can he live with you? You're a monster Kaiba; you can't love that's like asking a machine to love it's something that can't be done. You're so fucking cold and after all this time of me trying to thaw that icicle of a heart, I've barely even made a dent… you're just like that step father you bitch about so much. You're just like him, just as cold just a barbaric just as ruthless and uncaring…" before he could even finish his sentence the back of Kaiba's hand hit the side of his face with such a force it knocked him to the floor with a loud thud that echoed throughout the entire house.
"How dare you compare me to him! What gives you the right to judge me like that! What gives you the right to lecture me on how I raise Mokuba!" The elder screamed down at the raven-haired male sprawled infront of him on the white carpet. Ryuuji groaned slightly as he pushed himself up, wiping at his lip which had split open and now poured blood from the force of the hit. Simultaneously rubbing his head from where it had hit the floor, however with each move he started to feel more and more dizzy and subsequently more and more nauseous so he pathetically relented to collapsing onto the soft carpet once again. Leaving the blood to spill from his lip and onto the floor in bright crimson streams.
Kaiba just watched the smaller male collapse, feeling the slightest pang of guilt in the very centre of his being as he watched his lover give in and bleed onto his floor. Despite his anger there had been one thing he had promised never to do to Ryuuji no matter how far the younger pushed him. He'd promised never to hit him, never to hurt him, most importantly he'd never wanted to be the cause of the raven-haired mans suffering, but looking at him now he could see that, that was exactly what had happened. He had done everything that he had promised not to do.
"Ah, shit" the emerald-eyed male muttered into the floor as he tried to get up once again. Getting to his knees and supporting his weight mainly on his hands and knees before discovering that he couldn't get any further without running the risk of collapsing once again. He had never thought that Kaiba would hit him like that, never in a million years, the dragon-master had a short temper he knew that but the blue-eyed man would never have intentionally hurt him. Or so he thought, After a few more minutes of letting his head stop spinning the dice master pushed himself to his feet and steadied himself by using the wall to his left.
Jade eyes shimmered with tears once again as they locked onto the elder male, so cold and untouchable so angry, that hurt him the most. Stumbling slightly the younger tore his gaze away and started towards the door of the bedroom. He reached it and leant against it before hazarding one more glance at the man he loved. Said man was just staring down at the carpet, tears slipped from the smaller male's eyes as he turned the doorknob and stepped out into the corridor.
"I love you, always have and always will, no matter what you do, no matter what you believe. I can't help myself…" the emerald-eyed teen whispered as he closed the door behind him with a soft click. The dragon-master let the words sink in as he stared at the crimson stain on his bedroom carpet. A part of him wanted to go get the other, wanted to grab him and kiss him and tell him he was sorry. But he couldn't, the stubborn part of him kept screaming that it was right, as always, screaming to let him go, it didn't matter what the dice master said… it was a lie… love was a lie…
Still as the words hit his heart he tore his gaze from the bloodstain to the door that his beautiful little koi had just walked out of. He had hurt him, not only physically but mentally, he had hurt one of the only people he had ever loved and for what? Because of something someone he didn't even know had told him… maybe he was paranoid…
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The emerald-eyed boy gently swept the tears from his eyes as he stumbled down the corridor, leaning against a wall and wiping the blood away from his lip before continuing down the hallway. This whole evening had been insane, what had all of that even been about anyway? He certainly didn't know and it wasn't like he was going to go back and ask Kaiba, no, maybe later but not now. Right now he wanted to get as far away from the dragon-master as possible. He still loved him but he thought it best to let him cool down before pushing the matter any further.
"Ryuuji-kun, I heard shouting, oh my God what happened are you ok?" Mokuba practically squealed as he ran down the length of the corridor to where the elder boy had stopped the moment he'd heard the young boy.
"Yeah Mokie, I'm fine," the dice master explained as the younger threw his arms around his waist and hugged him tightly. Essentially stopping him from going any further. The elder smiled down at the small child and ruffled his hair gently; he didn't want to upset Mokuba by telling him exactly what had happened. The younger didn't need to know, all couples fight, Seto and Ryuuji were no different.
"I heard Nii-sama shouting at you…" he paused, glancing up at the elder whom unbeknownst to both Seto and Ryuuji himself he was besotted with. "Then there was this loud thud and everything went quiet, why is your lip bleeding Ryuuji-kun?" He asked, voice trembling, he knew that his elder brother had a short temper but to actually hit the emerald-eyed man… he wouldn't do such a thing… would he? How did Mokuba know…what did he really know about the man who had raised him… he hoped that he knew him as well as he thought but there were times when he was doubtful about if he did.
"I fell… tripped over something in the hall, you know how clumsy I am Mokie," that was a lie Mokuba knew that, if there was one thing the green-eyed male wasn't it was clumsy. He was as graceful as a cat and definitely had the reflexes of one.
"Nii-sama upset you didn't he Ryu-kun?" the ebony-eyed child asked letting go of the elder male and stepping back wards so that he could see him properly. The dice master just smiled down at the chibi gently, patting his head comfortingly as one would a dog. "Ryu-kun?" the younger prompted noting the faraway look in the usually warm emerald eyes.
"It's nothing to be concerned about Mokie, just a little quarrel was all, we just need some time to cool off." The green-eyed beauty explained, but Mokuba was no fool, nor was he blind and he could clearly see the tears welling in the elder male's eyes as he spoke. "That's why I'm going to go for a walk, maybe go see Malik or Ryou, do you understand?" The younger boy nodded and then hugged the elder male once again.
"You are coming back though, right Ryu?" the words were mumbled by his shirt and he sighed hugging the younger and gently rubbing his back. After a few moments of silence the dice master pulled away and crouched down so that he was eye level with the young boy.
"Of course, I should be back later tonight at the very latest sometime tomorrow morning." Ebony eyes stared up at him, his eyes shimmering with doubt that hid underlying anger. He was angry at his older brother, he couldn't understand why Seto always did this, why he always pushed people away from him. Why he felt the need to distance himself from the world. "You don't believe me do you Mokie?" Ryuuji asked with a soft smile, "just remember that if worse comes to worse I still have to come back for all my stuff and…" he paused taking off the necklace he always wore and giving it to the youngest Kaiba. "And for this, it's a family heirloom after all, ja ne Mokie, go to bed or Seto will be mad." Mokuba nodded slowly and watched as the dice master walked off.
"Bye Ryu, be careful the weathers horrible out there and it's supposed to get worse." Mokuba sighed as the elder descended the large staircase. When he was out of sight the ebony haired child clutched at the necklace around his neck and smiled softly, Ryuuji would be back and when he did Seto would apologise. Mokuba would make sure of that and if there was one person in the whole world that could force the all-powerful Kaiba Seto to do something it was Kaiba Mokuba.
The front door opened with a soft click and then slammed shut with a loud bang that could probably be heard all over the house. The ebony-eyed teen growled his brother's name and then walked off down the corridor to his Nii-sama's room. In typical Kaiba style he put on his best glare and then forced the door open. The minute he stepped into the room his eyes locked with his elder brother's and the glaring contest began.
"What did you do to Ryuuji-kun? He was really upset!" Mokuba snarled, folding his arms over his chest and giving his brother his own version of the Kaiba Seto death glare. The elder chuckled softly, amused at his baby brother's antics. This was so like Mokuba, getting himself involved in everything because he thought that he could fix it. It was rather endearing actually.
"Mokuba, what happened between Ryuuji and myself was exactly that, between us, you need not concern yourself with it." The youngest Kaiba rolled his eyes in annoyance and walked over to where his Nii-sama was perched on the bed, sitting down beside him with an exasperated sigh.
"That's what Ryu said," the younger boy huffed, irritated with how neither boy would tell him anything. They sat in silence for a while, Mokuba twirling the pendant of Ryuuji's necklace as he thought of how to phrase what he wanted to say. "Ryuuji was hurt when he left…" he paused that had been a bad way to start. "He was bleeding, his bottom lip was split… and he was crying." Kaiba didn't respond, just stared down at the floor, at the patch of blood on his carpet as the emotions warred within him. "He said that he'd fallen over in the corridor… Nii-sama… did… did you hit him?"
"Mokuba, there are certain things going on between Ryuuji and I right now…"
"In other words he said something you didn't agree with and so now there's a pool of his blood on your carpet, you've been staring at it since I came in." The youngest Kaiba growled, his older brother, no matter how much he adored him, could be a real idiot sometimes.
"Mokuba, when you're older you'll understand, relationships can be complex things and the relationship between Ryuuji and myself is one of the most complex in existence…" before he could continue the younger Kaiba butted in with his own question. Deciding not to let his older brother speak for too long because when Seto did he could sometimes twist things around and make you believe something that you wouldn't have otherwise.
"Do you love Ryuuji Nii-sama?" Blue-eyes narrowed and darkened at the question, the answer was simple, yes, he did he loved him with every ounce of his being. It was Ryuuji who he wasn't sure about, he didn't know whether Ryuuji's love for him was genuine or just an act that the dice master had put on to get close to him and win his trust. "Well Seto? Do you?" The younger pushed, blue locked with ebony and then glanced down at the necklace his baby brother was twirling mindlessly. His heart thumped painfully again, it was Ryuuji's necklace, would he ever see the other again? Could things ever go back to the way they had been between them?
"Mokuba, please, don't push this matter any further." The CEO asked, tearing his gaze from the necklace and allowing it to settle back onto the floor. "I need time to think, we both do, time to cool down and think things through."
"That's what he said, he's going to go for a walk…in this!" The boy yelled motioning towards the window and the horrific weather smashing into it from outside. The dragon-master cringed slightly, fisting his hands in his lap, they needed time apart, his stubborn side kept insisting, it was for the best. "Why do you do it Nii-sama? Why do you push everyone away? Why won't you let yourself be happy? Are you going to do all this to me one day? Why don't you want anyone to get close to you?" The younger asked, his voice fading to that of a whisper.
"Its complicated Mokuba, just drop it, it's late and you should be in bed."
"So should Ryu but he's not, he'd walking to Malik's or Ryou's because you're a cold hearted bastard and you refuse to believe it. Because you're paranoid and won't trust anyone, I love you with all my heart Seto but sometimes when I look at you now, all I can see is Gozaboro's face staring back at me. I don't want to fear you Seto and neither does Ryuuji but there are times when you just don't give us a choice." The youngest Kaiba explained, his voice soft and gentle as the words slipped from his mouth. "When Ryuuji comes back I think you own him an apology, don't you?" Mokuba asked, eyes shimmering slightly, though Seto wasn't quite sure why. The ebony-eyed child stared down at the necklace around his neck, then looked back to his brother.
"How do you know he's coming back kid?" The elder Kaiba asked, the events of that day replaying over and over in his mind and the sane part of his mind making it perfectly clear that he wouldn't come back if he had been in Ryuuji's shoes. Mokuba smirked slightly and shrugged, hugging his brother's back comfortingly.
"If worse comes to worse he still has to get his stuff." The younger sighed and quickly removed Ryuuji's necklace placing it around his brother's neck and doing it up. Watching as it landed just over the elder's heart, cold though it may be. "And he'd have to come back for this… family heirloom…or so he said. Goodnight Nii-sama, remember to apologise." He instructed and nuzzled his head into his brother's neck gently. Raven hair fell over Seto's shoulder and he swore that it became his lovers in that instant. Swore that the boy behind him became his lover, if only for a second. "I love you Seto," the child whispered and pulled away walking out of the door and closing it with a soft click behind him.
"Ryuuji…" the name escaped the CEO's lips as he twirled the pendant of the necklace inbetween his fingers. He did love him, of course he did, who wouldn't, the dice master was perfect in every single way. Still there was that small part of him that didn't believe Ryuuji loved him back, and that small part was turning the rest of him against his lover and he didn't know how to stop it.
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The dice master growled when he reached the gates of Domino park, he couldn't believe everything that had happened, they had been in love had they not and then Seto had stormed in with those insane ideas and paranoid thoughts and started throwing random accusations around. It was just too much for the emerald-eyed teen to deal with, with a sigh he stepped into the park. Noting the flickering street lamps that illuminated the whole of the park, he walked confidently away from the road and the well-lit street into the darkened park. When he was half-way through the park the lights began to flicker more violently before they each went off with a quiet bang.
Ryuuji stopped walking and took in his surroundings feeling slightly uneasy being in the pitch-black park. However the weather was absolutely abhorrent and he was more than confident that he would be the only sane human being out on such a night, if he was considered sane himself anymore. Rubbing his arms for warmth he cautiously continued his trek across the park only reaching where the second street lamp had gone out before he stopped to look around once again, and then curse himself for not bringing a coat.
"Such a pretty boy shouldn't be out alone on a night like this…" the voice cut through the silence causing the dice master to spin on his heel in an attempt to find the source of the voice. "Especially when Kaiba Seto is his boyfriend, you'd think he'd have a bodyguard with you everywhere you went. I would if you were mine and I had his bank balance." Ryuuji went to say something but before he had a chance a cloth was placed infront of his mouth and nose. He refused to breathe for a while, knowing full well his fate if he did, and began to kick out and thrash in his attackers arms.
"Just relax sweetie," a different male voice spoke up from behind him, telling him that there were two assailants rather than one. Not that that made a blind bit of difference to him at that point in time. After a long moment of not breathing and trying to get his attacker off of him Ryuuji was forced to inhale although instead of oxygen he only received the scent of whatever was on the cloth before darkness consumed him and he could hold on to consciousness no more. The last word escaping his lips…
"Seto…"
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Ok, I meant to have this up some time ago as I started writing this on the 15th but I wasn't sure how to end this chapter. So it ended up like this, I hope it in some way is acceptable, hopefully even borderline good but I doubt that. However if you could find it in your hearts to review and tell me what you thought then we get Bakura and Marik kicking Seto's ass next chapter with Mokuba, Ryou and Malik (yes I said Malik) trying to keep everyone sane. The more reviews I get the sooner I update and the more I love you all and what I do, so once again please review and I'll see if Ryuuji will be ok n.n