I do not own the rights to anything having to do with Instant Star
Rating- PG-13
Hey guys this is kind of a rewrite. Some of you might have read my fic Old Wounds, well I'm not sure where that is lost in cyberspace, so here is my new version of it...
I never thought it would turn out like this.
When I won Instant Star, I suppose I had what could be called delusions of grandeur.
I thought everything was going to be perfect.
I thought that by age nineteen, almost twenty I would be a rock goddess, the big time beyond big time. I think I was planning my Grammy acceptance speech.
I never thought it would turn out like this.
I never thought I'd feel broken at age nineteen, that'd I'd have nightmares and be on prescription drugs that I can't even pronounce.
When this all started, I thought I'd be happy, I wanted to be happy.
Right now, I can't even picture happy...actually, maybe I can but it was so long ago, happy seems like one of those distant childhood memories.
You know the memories that you think you remember, but in all reality they're just stories you've been told so many times that you start to believe them.
I never thought I'd attempt suicide, and survive.