The last few moments playing in her mind. Holy hell Liv just rocked her world. And the last things before Liv walked out and closed the door. Did she really just say she loved her? Had she heard her right? Or was her heart making her ears hear what it wanted to hear? Did the person she loved most in the world actually feel the same way about her? Holy shit her mind was completely blown.
Does she go out there and say it back? Does she ask Liv to repeat what she said? Fuck man she was stunned at what she heard. She was conflicted cause she did love the beautiful brunette.
Amanda put her towel around her body, the soft towel feeling good on her now clean and refreshed body. She opened the door and saw that Liv had made the bed and scantered off to the kitchen to get some coffee. She had made a pot of coffee just enough for her and Amanda to have two cups each.
Amanda put on a cute lil coral pink sundress since it was summer time out and the weather was warm. She kinda wanted to go to the beach and then go get a few things, but her fucking ribs were killing her. She walked out to the kitchen and Liv. "Hey Liv." Liv turned around and the sight of the pretty blonde in a dress almost did her in again. "You look beautiful Amanda." Amanda blushed at the compliment and the look that Liv was giving her. Liv took a sip of her coffee and asked Amanda what she wanted to do for the day besides going to get some more clothes. Amanda fumbled with the bottom of dress nervously, she hated being put on the spot. She really wanted to go out to the beach but she didnt even know if Liv was a beach person.
Fucking hell, why was she second guessing herself? Oh she knew why, she had those fucking bruises on her side as well as the broken ribs. She had no business trying to sport a bathing suit. Maybe the beach was a bad idea after all.
Olivia looked at Amanda, gently went over to her and put her hands on her hips. She could tell something was up by the way Amanda's body language was. She nuzzled Manda's neck "What's up babe? Something on your mind?" Amanda sighed. "Im kinda down, its nothing you did trust me." Liv gently lead the pretty blonde over to the couch. "Can you tell me why you're feeling down?" Amanda shrugged, "I dont know what it is. I just started feeling this way ever since I put this dress on. I kinda wanna go to the beach but at the same time I dont want to be seen in a bathing suit, cause come on Liv who the fuck wants to see nasty ass bruises?" Liv scooted closer to the blonde, "Sweetie its not the bruises that make you. Honey you do and wear whatever you want. As long as you think its pretty than you do it." Manda smiled, placed her head on Liv's shoulder "But I dont want to embarrass you with that." Liv touched her chin lightly, kissing her lips gently. "Babe you arent embarrassing me, not one bit. You know what I'll see? I'll see that Im the luckiest lady cause I'll have the prettiest blonde on my arm. That's what Ill see. So you wanna go to the beach? We will go to the beach my lady."
Amanda was still leary on letting Liv see her in her bathing suit, but she really did want to go to the beach. Liv stayed true to her word and held her. She held her close as they walked along the beach. When they found a spot since Amanda was pale as hell she put sunscreen on her girlfriend. As Liv was doing that Amanda decided to just ask what was on her mind. "Hey Olivia, did you mean what you said this morning?" Liv looked confused for a minute. "Did I mean what beautiful?" Liv continued to massage the lotion on Amanda's back, enjoying being able to touch her. Amanda mumbled, barely audible "did you mean it when you said you loved me?" Liv didnt hear her as Manda was mumbling. Liv stopped the caressing of her back and had Manda roll over on her back. "What are you asking baby, I couldnt hear you. You seemed to mumble it out." Manda bit her lip, taking a deep breath "Did you mean it when you said 'I love you?'" Amanda was internally chastising herself for asking that question especially so early on. They had only been together a couple months. Olivia didnt think she had heard her say that this morning. Just as she was about to answer Amanda had gotten up, softly spoke "Nevermind I asked that Liv. Maybe I was infact hearing things." She felt incredibly awkward now and just a bit stupid. She walked down to the waters edge. Liv wanted to go after her but she was stuck. She had recalled saying she loved her yes, but what she didnt know herself was if she said it in the heat of the moment. Liv finally managed to get up a few minutes later and walked down to where Amanda was at the waters edge. She attempted to put her arms around Amanda, she seemed to be able to tell Amanda how she was feeling without using words. But Amanda didnt want the touch. Right now she was a bit hurt and didnt know how to voice it herself without it blowing completely out of proportion. Maybe she just should have kept her mouth shut.
They stayed at the beach a few more hours. The awkwardness between them now was quite evident. Amanda was hurt, and Liv was confused. Olivia got called into work on a case that was breaking. They went back to Liv's without a word to each other. They didnt even speak when Liv was leaving. After Liv left, Manda gathered what little things she had at Liv's and headed home to her apartment. Amanda felt her heart breaking in two.
Amanda was thinking 'how could today had gone have gone so damn wrong. She should have kept her damn mouth shut. 'Way to go Rollins, way to fuck up again.' She just wanted today to end. Now her damn head hurt, her heart hurt. Was there anyway to fix this? She couldnt take Liv not even speaking to her on the ride home, not even holding hands or even a hug and or kiss goodbye. This fucking hurt. She let herself trust the brunette woman, and just like before it bit her in the ass royally.
She put her clothes away and went and laid on the futon. Turning on the tv, flipping channels to see if something caught her eye. She found something and soon fell asleep as tears streamed down her cheeks.
Olivia was at work, totally oblivious that she was bout to go home and her girlfriend wouldnt be there. The case had been somewhat long, but they got all the info they could for the time being and were at a stand still. All Olivia wanted to do was go home, have a glass of wine and cuddle with her girlfriend.
Olivia was pretty shocked when she got home, and didn't find her girlfriend there. She didnt recall Amanda saying she had to go anywhere. She looked around and didnt find any of Amanda's things. "What the hell is going on here?" She text Amanda "Hey babe, where are you?"
So what do you think will happen? Will Olivia be able to figure out why Amanda left? Will Amanda text her back?