DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of the Veronica Mars characters… I hate you Rob!
A/N: PLEASAE READ! Okay, so this is my first Veronica Mars fanfic. I wanted to write this fic for a long time. So, this the kinda like the prologue. Just so you know Logan has NEVER slept with Kendall! I have two different endings to this story. You choose which one you want to read.
Logan sat on his bed and reread the letter over again. Everyone and everything in his life was gone. His mom was dead, Lilly was dead, his father was a psychotic killer, and Veronica… well she was gone too. Weeks after Veronica broke up with him (for the second time), Logan soon found out that Veronica Mars was back together with the one and only Duncan Kane, his ex-best friend. So what did Logan Echolls have to hang onto these days? Nothing.
He knew Veronica still had something for him. Everyday at lunch, she would look at him sitting at a table with Dick and Beaver, and only Dick and Beaver. (After Logan's day in court, he wasn't the most popular student at Neptune.) Logan caught her staring a couple of times and sent her a smirk. He didn't know if her feelings were love or hate but beggars can't be choosers.
With a sigh, Logan put the letter in an envelope and headed to the yellow Xterra. Tonight he would see if Veronica did love him enough to save him or hate him enough for him to die.
(Logan POV)
"Ah, young love."
I leaned against the bus watching Veronica and Duncan hold hands. Boy, did I envy him.
"You're coming on the field trip? I figured you and the other Jets would be rumbling with the Sharks."
"Cool it, Action," I said "I think I'm gonna pass on the field trip, but ah, call me when you get home, and tell me all about it."
"Let's just get on the bus." That's Veronica, always trying to be the peacemaker.
This was my final chance to tell her. (That's if she doesn't respond to the letter tonight.)
"Hey, wait. I'm gonna miss you." I leaned in closer so only she could hear "I love you"
As she got on the bus, I saw her look at me. I waved as if it was the last time she would see me.
I walked up to Beaver and gave him the letter; I would never trust Dick with it. "You know what to do."
He nodded.
"Thanks Cassidy." I patted him on his back.
He looked shocked that I called him by his real name. Today I wasn't in the mood to be sarcastic or be regular goofy Logan.
With that I walked to my car and drove to an alley near the Coronado Bridge. I thought of what I was going to do tonight. It's fucked up, I know, but my life is fucked up. I need to take away the pain, just till tonight. I reached into the glove compartment and pulled out the washcloth and the small box. I pulled out the razor blade. I looked down at my left wrist and saw all of the scars. I sighed and let the blade run across my skin, releasing the blood and the pain.
I sat in the car holding the washcloth to my wrist, slowing down the blood. I was listening to the radio when a breaking news message came on.
"We have just been informed that a Neptune High School bus has driven off a cliff. There was a group of seniors on board coming home after a filed trip this afternoon. Some students were fortunate enough to be in a limo rented by one of the student's father. Police say there is little chance for survivors from the bus. We will have more coming up."
I immediately called Cassidy, praying that Veronica was in that limo.
"Yeah?"
"Beaver! Are you okay, is Veronica okay where is she?"
"Hey slow down. She's fine but do you still want me to give her the letter? I mean she's kinda shaky"
I sat and thought of the situation. I was one selfless bastard but I had to know if I had something to live for. If I didn't I should have been on that bus…in other words, dead.
"Yeah, but can you meet me at the Camelot parking lot. I wanna rewrite it."
I decided to rewrite the letter because I realized that it was very cruel. I'm truly love's bitch. After what Veronica went through tonight I cannot let my words cause her any more pain. After rewriting the letter and giving Cassidy strict instructions, I drove back to my hiding spot. He would call me when he left Veronica's. "And now I wait,"
Veronica answered the door and saw Cassidy standing in front of her.
"Cassidy?"
"Hey Veronica,"
"What can I do for you?" she asked giving him an 'I've been through a lot today so you better not give me any bullshit' voice.
"Listen, I'm here for Logan. He told me to give you this." He took out the letter "He said if you love him then read it right away, but if you don't then, in his words, 'feed it to your viscous killer'" Cassidy pointed to Backup sleeping on the couch. The big dog let out a snarl when he heard his name.
"That's it?" Veronica said taking the letter.
"Yeah, hope you make the right choice." Cassidy left without saying goodbye, leaving Veronica to make a very important decision.
As soon as Cassidy left, he called Logan.
"I just left," was all he said.
"Thanks pal. Listen, if she doesn't get here in time, you know what to tell the police."
"So there's no way to talk you out of this?"
"Sorry, it's Veronica's decision. Later Cassidy.
"Nice knowing ya Logan."
Logan drove to the Coronado Bridge. He parked right on the spot were his mother's car was found and where he was jumped by the PCHers. He got his cell phone and flask and sat on the edge of the bridge. He pressed the start button on his watch. 30 minutes till he would jump.
Like I said the next two chapters will be Veronica's decision. In 'Saved by Light' she reads it and in 'Consumed by Dark' she doesn't. You choose which one or read both! Please review and I'll post the two chapters sooner!