Olivia looked at the blonde. She was kinda surprised that she was thinking this. In a way it did make sense. They spent all their time at Liv's and only going to Amanda's when she needed clothes or something. Or in times like this when they had a fight. Liv could understand them needing to face their problems head on rather than just flee.
Amanda looked at Olivia "So what do you think? You say we are in a committed relationship, well let's just bite the bullet and do it. I know I dont want anyone else. I just want you, I just want us and what we are building." All Amanda wanted was them, together. That's what meant the world to her. Olivia knew she wanted Amanda. She knew she wanted the same things that Amanda wanted, it just shocked her to actually hear it.
Olivia told Amanda she could see a future with her. She even went on to say that even down the road she could see them having a family. Amanda was in shock that someone loved her that much to want the family aspect down the road. Tears started to pour down Manda's face. She didnt deserve what she wanted. She wasnt worthy of it.
Thoughts in her head "How dare she want this? How could she think she was worthy of all this?" She was insecure. Yeah she wanted those things. She wanted them badly. She just didnt feel she deserved them. Having been through all she had it was hard to think she did. Even if she was told time and again by Liv that she did. She spoke softly "Liv all I want is us. I would like to officially live together but if thats not in the cards then its fine. I get it..." Amanda couldnt even go on. She just looked at Liv again. "It's late and I'm tired. You can crash in the bedroom. Since I'm comfy here I'll stay out here." Oh how Amanda wanted to cuddle with Liv, but she was still mad and hurt. She knew Liv still was angry too. Though she didnt think Liv had a right to be angry with her if she was. Amanda got up to grab her pillow and blanket. Olivia took this chance to grab her love. This was one of those times she needed proof that she was worth it.
Amanda tried to shoo Liv's hand. Liv just held on. Amanda's voice broke when she talked. "Look Olivia, I'm not in the mood. I just want to go to sleep. Been through enough today." Olivia stood up, gently pulled Amanda to her. "Amanda let me lay with you. I just want to hold you. Please dont push me away. We can move past this. We can move on to bigger things." Amanda nodded. She spoke softly. "I'd like that. Just let me go get changed." Liv nodded, Amanda got changed in her room and Liv changed in the bathroom. Liv was done first. She met Amanda back out on the couch. When Amanda finally emerged she seemed more at ease. Wearing a pair of cute lil cotton shorts and a tank top. Goddamn her legs were amazing. Liv had worn a pair of sweats and tshirt. Liv had taken it upon herself to make them some chamomile tea to relax them. Liv broke the icey silence between them. "Hey sweetheart, made us some chamomile tea to relax us. Amanda smiled. "Thank you babe."
They curled up on the couch together, nothing felt better to Olivia than having the woman she loved laying in her arms. Amanda felt the same. Having her loves arms wrapped around her felt so good. She felt safe. Liv lay there with Amanda in her arms, gently placing kisses in her hair. This was what made Liv happy. "Manda I can stay like this forever holding you close." Amanda snuggled more, starting to drift off she murmured "dont make promises you dont intend to keep." Liv whispered in her ear "I'm in this for the long haul Amanda."
Liv laid awake for a while just thinking. She did want to move in with Amanda. She felt it would be a positive move for them. She was thinking a nice lil condo or even lil house. Something just big enough for them and maybe even a family down the road. Lil Rollins-Bensons running around made her smile. She soon fell asleep with the thoughts of 'happily ever after with Amanda.' Though Amanda at first didnt want Liv there, she was glad she came over. She didnt want to sleep without her love. She made up her mind before she crashed. She was going to ask Amanda to infact find a place together and where they could start a life together.