So the dreams are hitting Amanda. Scaring her, making her head hurt. Suffering from headaches and back to the hospital she goes for her head.

The dreams came back. She was in the dream fighting to get away. He was touching her, hitting her with that gun. She was never gonna see Liv again. She was never gonna be in her love's arms. He kept hitting her. Ugh how her head hurt. He wanted to rape her again. He wanted to inflict that pain. He was pawing at her shirt.

Liv could feel Amanda getting restless, she tightened her hold on the pretty blonde nestled into her chest. Hoping she would get the reassurance of her being there. Calmed her down a little. Til it started back up again. Out of nowhere Amanda sat straight up, looking around to make sure he wasnt there. Liv gently rubbed her back causing her to jump a little. She spoke softly "babe are you okay? you're awful restless and now your up looking around and shaking profusely." Amanda moved out of Liv's touch. She was freaked out right now but didnt want to show Liv. "I'm fine Liv. I can handle it. Go back to sleep babe." Liv nodded, closed her eyes again and went to sleep. Amanda got up to get a drink of water. Trying to shake the dream.

After she settled back down she wanted to go cuddle with Liv but Liv was out cold and she didnt want to disturb her. Her head started to pound so she went to go take some aspirins. When she got to the bathroom when reaching into the medicine cabinet she all the sudden got a nasty dizzy spell. She dropped the bottle in the sink and braced herself against the wall. "LIV HELP ME." Liv stirred immediately and she soon noticed Amanda wasnt cuddling with her. She heard Amanda again yell "help me". She ran to the bathroom, she found Amanda sitting leaning her head against the wall. Amanda's voice was shaky as she was scared and nervous "Liv the dizziness just came on. I cant shake it. I havent puked but my fucking head feels like theirs woodpeckers trying to get out." Liv helped Amanda up, she couldnt see straight at all. Liv walked her out to the couch she needed to put her bra back on. She came over and put her hand on Manda's shoulder, Amanda was very upset. "Babe we gotta go to the ER. I wanna make sure there's not a severe brain injury." Amanda nodded "I know. I just hate the ER. Please stay with me. I dont want to be alone at any time." Liv told her of course she'd stay with her. She held her girlfriend as they walked out to the car. Amanda was crying cause her head was pounding for one and for two she didnt want to go.

They got to the ER quickly. Liv made Amanda sit down. She went and told the desk the information. Since Liv was a lieutenant they made the exception of talking to her and getting information. They took Amanda right back. She grabbed Liv's hand. "Dont leave me Liv." Liv squeezed her hand. "Im right here with you babe." They got settled in her room, Amanda had to don one of the lovely gowns. Liv tied the back for her. No sooner she did that than the nurse came in and took the vitals. She was good except for her pain. The dizziness wore off. The doctor came in and did a couple tests, sent her to get a catscan. Oh she hated the machine. She was claustrophobic as it was being stuck in a machine made it worse. After the catscan they brought her back to her room. She had Liv sit on the bed and hold her. "I fucking hate small spaces." Liv just held her. Her love was sitting here shaking. She rubbed her back trying to ease her. Worked a lil bit. Since the hospital had remembered Amanda had a fear of men when she had come in after being assaulted they made sure this time that everyone that worked with her was a female.

After about an hour, since the doc needed to go over the catscan results came back to the room. She knocked on the door and announced that she was coming in. She proceeded to tell Amanda that she had a nasty concussion and that it was going to a little while to heal. That she would have to be woken up at least once an hour for the first night home. She gave a script for a pain medication to start tomorrow. She looked at Amanda "It'll help those goddamn woodpeckers get out." Amanda blushed and apologized for her language. The nurse told her not to worry about it. She even gave Liv her pager number to beep her if Amanda seemed to be in any kind of pain that wouldnt let up. She also told Amanda that she was not to shower by herself.

They got to the car and Amanda apologized profusely. Liv told her not to worry about it. She was more concerned that Amanda was hurt. She called Fin and told him that he was in charge again as she had to tend to Amanda. He told her no problem at all. He also told her that all he wanted was Amanda back on her feet so he could see her pretty face back at the precinct. Liv made a quick stop to pick up the pain medication the doc prescribed. Whatever they had given to her in the shot had helped tremendously. She wasnt as dizzy and the headache was wearing off. When they got home Liv helped walk her love in. "Babe where would you like us to lay? It's completely up to you." Amanda picked their bed, it was more comfortable and more room. "You're still gonna cuddle with me right babe?" Liv kissed her cheek, "Of course my love. Lets get you back into your pajamas and in that bed." Amanda nodded. "I am tired Liv." Liv got her changed and into the bed. She laid down right next to her and set her alarm to wake them up. All she had to do was wake her up ask a couple questions and then let her go back to sleep. The first time she woke her up she asked "whats your name? where are you? what happened to her?" Amanda answered it all just fine and went back to sleep. Bout another hour and a half this time she woke her up again. This time Amanda was a bit bitchy, she didnt want to be woken up. Liv apologized for having to wake her up. Amanda knew it was for her own safety. She snuggled up to Liv. She placed her head on Liv's heart and went back to sleep. Liv had to wake her up one more time this time Amanda got up to pee. She wasnt dizzy anymore, the woodpeckers in her head had started to come back with a vengence. Good thing besides the dizziness going away, she still hadnt vomited which meant no more trips to the ER. She woke up for the day couple hours later. She let Liv sleep and went out to the living room. She put on a pot of coffee she herself didnt feel like eating, but she forced herself to so she could take the medication. The damn headache could fuck off in her opinion.

Liv had woken up a short time later. She came out and saw Amanda relaxed on the couch. She was happy to see that. She looked super cute in her pjs. Before Liv went to join Amanda she snapped a pic. When she sat down by Amanda, she smiled lightly kissing her cheek. "Hey babe. How are you feeling?" Amanda kissed her back. "Im feeling okay, except this fucking headache. I took my medication so now Im just relaxing. You dont mind my staying in my pajamas all day?" Liv shook her head "No babe."

They sat and enjoyed their day. Amanda was content. Liv was content knowing her love was safe and on the mend. Amanda had thoughts in her head once again. She wanted to progress in their relationship. She wanted to cement their dedication to each other. But then she was thinking too "who the hell would want to marry me? who the hell would want to spend their life with me. I'm not worth all that." Amanda knew better than that, Liv adored her but at the same time did Liv adore her to wanting to spend a lifetime with her?

So its looking like Amanda is itching for a deeper commitment. Will Liv catch on? Will she want to marry Amanda?