Sorry it took so long to update this one. I just had to get an idea to play out in my head. Im hoping the ideas keep coming. Thanks for your patience and your reviews. Greatly appreciated.

Amanda didnt want to tell her. She felt stupid wanting so much more than what she had. She had a house with her love. What more could she want? What more did she really need? Why did she need all this shit to prove to her? It was unreal. Liv just kept ahold on her. Her lady needed support. Liv kept peppering Amanda's hair with kisses. Amanda just kept telling Liv she loved her. How she loved Liv with everything she was. She was hoping Liv would be the woman she married eventually. She wanted nothing more than to settle down and have the family she never had. She decided instead of telling Liv outright that she was marriage minded that she'd go around it.

"Liv my love, what do you see when you evision the future? Do you see us still together living here? I guess I'm asking where you may see us longterm? You dont have to answer if you dont want to." Liv laced her fingers with Amanda. Reveling the fact that she felt the ease and comfortability with Amanda, no pressure well none that she didnt want anyway. Liv gently kissed her lips before answering. "I'm not sure babe. I know I see a stunningly beautiful blonde in my future, which makes it bearable." Amanda smiled, softly speaking "I'm glad I make your future bearable Liv."

They went back to watching the romantic comedy that seemed to be on tv. Amanda snuggling more into Liv's arms. She kept spacing out to seeing her and Liv infront of their friends and family pledging their eternal love for one another. She wondered why all the sudden the marriage thoughts were hitting her. She didnt grow up seeing what a proper marriage looked never mind what people in a proper marriage acted like. With that though she wanted this. Maybe it was her insecurity kicking in and her wanting to feel stable she didnt know.

Here goes nothing. She would see how Liv truly felt with her next question. "Okay Liv, there was a reason I asked those questions in particular. We have been together bout seven months now. We live together in a beautiful house. I just wanted to know how you saw us in the future?" Liv was a bit confused but she was figuring out what Amanda was hinting at. She got a feeling Amanda needed a promise of forever so to speak. Though she had never thought of herself the marrying type, shit she never saw herself in a longterm relationship, buying a house and living with someone either. But she was thinking that Amanda had marriage on her mind. She was curious as to what was making her beautiful girlfriend marriage minded all the sudden. She held her loves hand "My love, sweetie you can tell me anything. That includes any kind of questions you may have." Amanda took a long breath, "Ok it's time for me to stop beating around the bush and just ask. So here it is. Liv is there any part of you that could ever see yourself marrying me? Maybe even being in a longterm engagement? Nevermind Liv. I'll shut up now." She turned her head afraid of the rejection she feared she was going to get. Liv gently touched Amanda's face to get her to look at her. "Babe come on, dont hide your pretty face and gorgeous eyes from me. It seems this has been weighing alot on your mind lately and we should talk about it." Amanda shrugged. "I'm just asking if you see yourself at all marrying me Liv. It's a yes or no answer. Really isnt as hard as you're making it out to be."

Just as Liv was going to answer Fin called. Needed both of them to go talk to a victim at the hospital. She had been beaten and possibly raped. The mother was requesting that people without a 'penis' interview her daughter. Liv told him they would be right there. Amanda got up and dressed, she knew she was never gonna get an answer tonight. She grabbed her badge and strapped her weapon to her hip. Liv looked at her, touching her shoulder "Hey babe, everything okay?" Amanda looked down. "Let's not get into this now. Just get to the hospital and let's talk to our vic." Liv drove in silence to the hospital. She knew Amanda was upset but she really didnt know if she herself was ready for that big step yet. They went and talked to the victim. She was a younger girl. Mid teens. They got all they needed before it was time to go and let the girl have a break. She looked at Amanda speaking softly and you could hear the heartbreak in her voice. "Detective Rollins, you're gonna catch him right? You're not gonna let him get away with this right?" Amanda walked over to her, gently taking her hand. "Sweetheart we are going to do everything we can to catch him, so you can sleep at night." Amanda took a card out, handing it to the girl "here's my card, you can call me anytime if you need anything or think of anything else okay." The girl bleakly smiled again answering softly "Thank you Detective Rollins." Amanda told her anytime and also told her to call her "Amanda".

They talked to her parents quickly filling them in on what information they were told. Trying to reassure the parents they told them they were going to do everthing in their power to apprehend him. The girls parents appreciated all they were doing and how they were with their daughter. As they were leaving Liv once again found herself on the receiving end of Amanda's cold shoulder. Liv tried to hold her hand and Amanda pulled away. Liv looked at her, she had a hurt look in her eyes as well as Amanda did. "Hey how bout we grab some food?" Amanda answered her quietly "I'm not really hungry Liv. I just wanna go home." Liv nodded and tried to hold her hand in the car and Amanda pulled away yet again. Liv turned the car on but put it in park. She needed to find out what was up with Amanda. "Ok babe you're not hungry. But why everytime I go to touch you, you shy away or pull away. What's going on with you Amanda?" Amanda replied with a bit of a curt tone "I'm just not in the mood right now. Kinda like how you keep evading my question."

Olivia did stop for some chinese take out. She was hungry. The rest of the ride home was in silence. She wanted to know what her girlfriends issue was. Lately it seemed Amanda was all over the place with her feelings. Marriage to Liv was just a piece of paper. She didnt need a piece of paper to say she loved Amanda. That shouldnt be what proves her love. It should be her actions. For christsake they just moved into a house not that long ago and that was together, showing that she did see a future with them. She wasnt going to let Amanda's silence get her down. Amanda had decided that she was going to either sleep on the couch or in the guest room. She loved Liv and wasnt gonna leave by any means but the evading of the question just really hurt.

When they got home, Amanda wasnt hungry so she just went outside to sit on their deck. She needed some space. She was starting to get a headache and she really didnt want to snap at Liv but she felt she was going to. Thankfully Liv stayed in the living room and ate her food. Liv gave it a lil bit and told Amanda she was going to meet Alex for a bit since she was back in town for a few days. Amanda nodded. She hugged and kissed Amanda telling her she loved her. Amanda told her she loved her as well. Liv's meeting with Alex was good. She asked for some advice with what was happening between her and Amanda. Alex had some good advice. "Olivia you say you love her, you say you cant see anyone other than her in your future. Then what is holding you back from wanting to marry her? If it's something that means this much to her and you dont want to lose her what's stopping you? It doesnt seem that off of a request. Liv maybe she really needs that stability of knowing that she isnt going to be just up and left. I take it Amanda has abandonment issues that run pretty deep." Liv nodded, what Alex was pointing out was blatantly obvious of how she felt and even more so she knew what Amanda was feeling without even talking to her. Liv looked at Alex "So do you think I should just bite back my own reservations and ask her to marry me? I do love her and I cannot picture myself with anyone else at all. I look at my future and I see her." Alex smiled. "Then Liv I think you know your answer."

Olivia thanked Alex for talking with her. She made her see a whole new light. She knew what she had to do. She knew what she wanted to do, she just needed the kick in the ass so to speak. Amanda was the best thing that happened to her and she was going to be damned if she was going to lose her. When she got home she saw her beautiful girlfriend napping on the couch. Tapping her lightly...

"Babe can we talk please?"

Do you think Liv is going to propose? Or do you think Liv is going to understand where Amanda is coming from?