Gryffindor had just won their first game of the year and were have their annual party. This year they had decided to have a party. The band was late and Lily decided that it was time she said she wanted to sing a song. And everyone cheered.
Lily walked onto the stage a tear on her face. She was happy James thought why is she crying. If he only knew why she was upset they had been going out for a year and last night had been there first time. Lily was hurting on the inside and she knew James would never forgive her but she couldn't get any more serious then they already were she was fifteen and she had lost her virginity last night, to the only person she had wanted to loose it to. That was all she would have left was the memory of him inside her. But it was time to stop, stop dreaming, and stop everything. She wanted him but she knew it was not possible. They were never meant to be together she was betrothed another man and James wasn't him. It was the deal she made she could come to school here if she married Ian. She didn't love Ian but what is done is done.
Lily slowly stepped behind the microphone and said I dedicate this to James the almost love of my life. James though he clearly misunderstood she said to James the love of my life right?
I kept my mouth shut from the start
I guess I
left you in the dark
You thought you knew me but you don't
You
say you'll love me but you wont
When you find out who I am
I
kept my mouth shut for too long
All this time you got me wrong
Now we're in this way too far
I'm about to break your heart
Tear everything we had apart
'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was
holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't
like who I've become
Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
I've
had my share of closing doors
Now I know I'm not afraid
I
know exactly what you'll say
But I'm sorry it's too late
'Cause
I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the
one
I don't like who I've become
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(I
kept inside of me for all this time)
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(Thought that I could make it work if I just tried)
Yeah
yeah, yeah yeah
(But I'm sorry to admit that I have lived a
lie)
'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The
reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so
hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become
I
kept my mouth shut for too long
Now I know that it was wrong
I
wish I told you from the start
That this was never meant to last
We should've never gone this far
Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
Another tear escaped her and she walked with her head high straight to her bedroom crawled into bed put a silence charm on the bed and cried herself to sleep.
James was in a state of shock Lily Evans his best friend his girlfriend his first had just broken up with him in front of the whole common room he was embarrassed. Why did she do it in front of every one? This wasn't Lily but maybe he didn't really know her as well as he thought he had didn't her song say she was fake with him. He was confused he thought they were happy he thought he was going to marry her and have children. Maybe he was just getting ahead of him self after all he was only fifteen. James walked up to his room and got out his hidden supply of fire whiskey and dank until he was numb. Then he did something incredibly stupid he cam downstairs and went up the girls stairs. And started to scream "Lily please give me another chance I love you." He screamed until he passed out and that was how they began to hate each other with a passion. She had made him make an ass of himself. And he had begun the question game.