Waking up the next morning without her in the bed pissed her off. She didnt let it show in the morning though. She didnt need the stress of a fight before work. They hadnt slept apart since they moved in together. She got a shitty nights sleep cause she only slept well with Amanda next to her.
She got dressed and walked out to the living room, she saw Amanda curled up on the couch, remote pointed at the tv. She went over to her and tapped her gently, "Hey sweetie you have to wake up. We have to go to work soon." Amanda sat up, stretched, yawned and then spoke "What time is it babe?" Liv looked at her cellphone, "It's almost seven. So I guess the couch was better cuddle company than me last night huh?" Amanda rubbed the sleep out of her eyes. "Babe I dont remember falling asleep. I was watching the news, I remember seeing the weather and them saying it was supposed to be hot. Must have dozed off after that. Wasnt intentional as you know I love my cuddles with my love." Liv looked at her, she was hurt they hadnt slept apart since before they got the house. "Okay, well maybe we can make up for it after work then? I dont want to spend another night where we dont talk and you sleep out here on the sofa." Amanda got up hugged Liv and kissed her. "We just need to be able to talk and not jump down each others throats." Liv agreed on that one.
Amanda quickly dressed. She did feel bad for sleeping out in the living room, she actually missed being in her loves arms and cuddled. They did need to talk. Everytime Amanda brought up the topic of engagement and or marriage Liv either thought the negative outcome and or voiced her negative thoughts. What could be so wrong with marriage if you both worked at it to make it work. What the hell did Liv think she would be the only one working at it, she sure as hell wouldnt. Amanda would be busting her ass too. This needed to be discussed cause at the rate Amanda was going this wasnt going to be a happy ending.
Getting to work you could feel the iciness between the girlfriends. It wasnt affecting their job thank god as Liv sent Amanda and Carisi to interview a rape victim while she stayed at the precinct with Fin going over the notes on the case.
"So Liv, what is going on with you and Amanda? You guys have been tense and icy as all hell this am. Everything okay?" Liv looked at him, he was such a good guy. He cared alot for both her and Amanda. She didnt want to tell him what was going on, but she knew better than to lie to him as well. He looked at her again as he could see the hesitation. "Liv is everything okay between you two?" She looked at him. "Right now we are in the middle of a disagreement. That's the tension between us." He sighed, getting Liv to actually talk was like asking a pope to spill his secret confessions. "Can I ask what the disagreement was about, maybe I can help?" She nodded, "You're probably going to say the same thing to me that Alex said." He shrugged cause he had no idea what Alex had said to her nor did he know what this was about. "Liv, are you going to beat around the bush or are you actually going to tell me what the hell is going on?" She took a deep breath, "Fin she wants to get married. I'm scared shitless not going to lie. Yes I love her, shit we just got the house together. Now she wants this. I'm not against it, but then again I have known you for years and I've never been in a positive relationship. I'm just scared, the thought of that level of committment scares the shit out of me. What happens if we dont work out, I dont believe in divorce." Fin shook his head, she was stuck on the negative aspects. "Olivia you love her right? You dont see yourself with anyone else in the future right? Then what is the big deal? You say you're scared of that level of committment, Im sure she is to as a matter of fact I know she is. Look at the shit with Nate, damn near fucked her up. To be honest I dont think either of you have been lucky in past relationships or treated the greatest. Let me ask you this, is it worth losing Amanda over this committment fear? You have come this far, if she were to give you an ultimatum is she worth walking away from cause she wants more? Liv you have wanted a family for sometime, she is willing to give you that. She herself didnt come from the greatest background, you saw that shit with her family and the whole ordeal with Patton. She's asking for security and by either being engaged or even married shows her you are in it for the long haul and that she doesnt have to worry about being abandoned anymore."
Liv looked at him, he posed the same damn point that Alex did. Maybe they both were right. "Fin maybe you're right. I really dont want to lose her. I love her." He smiled, he knew that wasnt easy for her to admit. "Then I think you know what you need to do Liv." She smiled, "Yeah I do. Can you cover for me for a couple hours. I wanna go look at some rings. Amanda is the one I want to spend my days with." His smiled "Sure I can cover for you.
Do you think Liv is going to go through with it and give Amanda what she so badly wants? Or do you think Liv is going to get cold feet and just forget it? Reviews are great and I am currently working on the next chapter.