This is a poem that literally just popped into my head, a stanza at a time. I hope you enjoy it, and please read and review so I know what you thought of it.
Beneath the outward mask I display
To the world of cold and arrogance,
There lie swirling seas of self doubt
That are never truly calmed.
Hidden behind my hardened eyes
Are tears I never had a chance to cry
And a childhood that ripped my innocence
From me before I was ready.
From my sardonic mouth come words
I don't really mean to say
But the poison within colors
Everything I utter with the same dull grey.
Inside the tower I built myself
To shield from pain that loving brings
I sit alone and wonder when
The ice will thaw inside.
The others around me only see
The facade and not the desperation underneath.
The road ahead is a lonely one for me
But it's one I know all too well.
My steps are measured, my pace is set
And nothing can deter me from what I must do.
Looking over my shoulder at warmth that will never be mine,
I allow one single tear to fall.
They say I feel nothing
And mostly they are right.
But when I do allow myself to feel,
I am reminded of why I froze.
It's okay, I don't really mind...
At least that's what I tell myself.
I'm better off alone anyway because
Rodney McKay needs no one.