What was it about a boy that could make girl's heart feel so whole that could overflow and drown itself in a love so powerful that it couldn't possibly seek the love another again? And, what was it about the same boy that could make the same heart shatter into a million pieces and blow to the four corners of the world, broken to love ever again? Why could he make her so happy? He made her eyes smile and with those same eyes, he flooded them with tears. He could light up her day, but bring despair to her night. He had the ability to make her so content that this was her life….a life full of lies to all those that were dear to her. Yet…those lies that she was now creating, not even out of habit anymore, but of natural action, were breaking not only her heart, but her soul. A heart, she understood, could withstand to break. A heart is meant to belong to someone else; someone you love. When something is broken that is not truly yours to begin with, the loss is not so great. A broken heart is pain so severe that you want to die, and indeed, you feel like you are going to. However, a shattered heart is like all pains; it will fade away after a period too long to live with. But…it does go away, and if she is lucky, it will heal. And if it heals, maybe one day, it can belong to someone else. Her soul, on the other hand, was a part of her. It is anchored in a person and is with them until the day that it leaves this earth. A broken soul cannot heal, for it is not physical. You can't see, nor touch, nor feel a soul. That is why a broken soul is so much more severe than a broken heart…it cannot mend; once it breaks, she breaks.

Ginny Weasley felt a wad of parchment collide with her cheek and bring her back into the not-so-interesting lesson that Professor Snape was presenting over the side effects of Polyjuice Potion. She should had never listened to Professor McGonagall and moved up a year in Potions…she really wasn't ready for it. It didn't help matters that one of the best students in the class always tried his best for a little snog session, which she was sure he would try to escalate to a shag session every time she asked for help.

She slowly lowered her aching head, so her eyes were level with the parchment. Gingerly, he picked it up and cautiously unfolded it. Inside, she saw Draco's neat, slanted handwriting:

"I TOLD you that I was sorry about this morning…meet me tonight in the Astronomy Tower. Eleven sharp."

Ginny looked up to the direction that the parchment originated from. Her tired eyes met his cold grey eyes. He really was beautiful. Even through all his evil desires and intentions…he was beautiful. His hair was like golden grains gleaning in the sunset, on a Spanish hill. His pale alabaster skin looked like creamy marble. And his facial features… the looked like they had been chiseled by a god. Even his smirk was beautiful and right now it said everything. She knew exactly what his intentions were going to be; he had been trying for weeks and weeks. She had been strong enough to refuse him and he had enough sense to leave her alone and abandon his actions- but only for the night. The next time they were alone, he would try again. She would refuse of course, but her tone was less firm; her tone weaker. Every time, Draco grew stronger and more persistent. However, each time another crack was added to Ginny's already tired soul. Tonight, she knew he would succeed; she was too tired to tell him no anymore. She was even too weak to tell him no right now. With a heavy sigh and a nod of the head that felt like she was lifting a lead ball she mouthed: "Yeah… all right."

Harry Potter was sitting awkwardly on the floor in the Gryffindor common room, trying to keep one book balanced one knee, while he thumbed through another on the floor in front of him. His other hand was occupied as well, as he tried to keep is twenty four inch parchment from rolling up into a scroll. In the same hand, he held a quill that occasionally dripped ebony ink onto the parchment, which absorbed it like a thirsty sponge. In which case, he would have to set down the quill, let go of the parchment and let it roll up into a scroll, retrieve his wand and charm it away. Then, he would pick everything back up and the process would start over. He was hammering through an easy for Professor Snape and it was very difficult. Harry could have sworn that Snape gave the whole class this assignment because it was Harry's lesson- there was just not other exclamation for it. It was just so bloody horrible. To make matters worse, Hermione was not there to led her helping hand. Ron wasn't either, for that matter….no mind though. In fact, Harry was all alone, but even if he wasn't, he was so occupied in what he was doing that he wouldn't have noticed, which is why he didn't notice Ginny come through the portrait hole and gingerly sit down.

Ginny really didn't notice Harry either. Or, she knew he was there, and the comfort of his presence unknowingly drew her to him, but she visually did not notice him. Her trance of despair was growing. It was nine o'clock in the evening and she knew that eleven would be here before she fancied thinking about it. All her will power, perseverance, and self respect would leave her forever on this night…for that she was sure. She was sure of this like she was sure that the sky was blue or the grass green. It was like she was standing ankle deep in some dark ocean. Perhaps so dark, it was in fact mythological. The night would be silent and full of dreadful whispers that would send cold chills down the bravest person's spine. The tide of the dark ocean would keep drawing nearer and nearer to the shore and to Ginny. It would become so deep that it would eventually swallow her and she would be lost to the world forever. At least she would be forever lost to Draco Malfoy.

What happened to that little girl in long red plaits, who was full of ambition? What happed to the girl who was in love with the famous Harry Potter? She was gone now, only to be replaced by a girl on the verge of womanhood. This was not how she nor any other girl should feel at such an important time in life. At this though, she sighed, perhaps a little louder than she meant to.

Harry looked up startled from his essay, which sent the nearly full ink jar spilling over his parchment.

"Bloody Fu-", Harry started to yell, but stopped himself just in time. Harry was known to use a few chosen words now and again, but never that severe and NEVER in front of anyone else…especially Ginny.

"Oh…er...hi Ginny," he said in mild trepidation.

Ginny seemed to finally physically notice Harry, "Oh, hi Harry."

"Gin," Harry inquired, after noticing the state that she was in, "everything alright?"

"Sure Harry," she answered, not even looking at him.

Harry quickly charmed his parchment clean and pushed everything else aside. He pushed himself up with his hands, still holding only the ink bottle, to keep it from spilling again. When his feet were firmly on the ground, he staggered a little, not realizing that he had gradually lost most of the circulation in his legs. When he was able to steady himself, he sat down next to her and said a little too casually, "So, how are you?"

"Yes Harry," she said, not realizing what he had said.

"Ginny," Harry said firmly, while placing a hand on her clammy arm.

This time she looked right into Harry's eyes and the sight he beheld scared him. Not that she wasn't beautiful, because she was more beautiful to him than anything he had ever seen. It was her eyes; they were empty pools of nothing. This was not the Ginny Weasley he knew. This phantasmal façade that covered her face was not her.

"What is the matter with you?" Harry asked in urgency. "Do you need to go to the hospital wing?"

"It's going to happen tonight, Harry," she said with certainty, ignoring his question all together.

"What is?" Harry asked, as a cold chill swept down his back.

"I know it will. He's been trying for weeks and weeks and now I don't care anymore."

"What are you on about Ginny?" Harry asked, now in a slight panic.

"Draco Malfoy will finally shag me and it will be my complete undoing. I am powerless to stand against him anymore…I don't care anymore."

Harry dropped the ink bottle, breaking it into a thousand pieces and splattering the ink all over the polished floor.

A/N: So it was so short. I have a very good idea for the next chapter and more than likely, will start writing it tomorrow. Don't forget to review! 

laura truewood
2006-01-24
ch 16, anon.

ur writing style has change & i still like it. both style suit me fine! also please make harry sensitive coz i luv harry (not as much as ron) & be happy for herm & ron!
-Laura

Well, glad to hear it. Harry will sort of be Ginny's hero in chapters to come. And, he will be sensitive.

Lor'sEvilRumour
2006-01-24
ch 16, reply

i am so loving this fic! im raelly happen u updated i thought for awhile u stopped writing! but thankfully u havent! u rock!
-Lor

I WILL never stop writing…I promise. I just write when I get motivated (which unfortunately happens to be every three to four months). If I make myself write, its no good. Thanks for the review!

MyStIcS number 42
2006-01-16
ch 16, reply

love it.update soon plz

LOL! Right now! Thanks so much!

Lauren 16, anon.

I just found this fic three days ago, I have become ubsest. Love it, keep it going.

YAY! Glad to hear that you like it. Hope you liked this chapter!

the Desert Fox
2006-01-10
ch 16, anon.

"Men are basically smart or dumb and lazy or ambitious. The dumb and ambitious ones are dangerous and I get rid of them. The dumb and lazy ones I give mundane duties. The smart ambitious ones I put on my staff. The smart and lazy ones I make my commanders."- Erwin Rommel

Good chapter, not to mention short. Ron may be thick at times, but in this case, Hermione was dense. Hmm, so Ginny could become either Mrs. Bouncing Ferret (eventually the wife of the Supreme Ruler of the Hinkypunks, when Draco succeeds his father) or Mrs. Boy-Who-Lived and have to endure the same things that Jane Asher and Linda Eastman went through with Paul McCartney.

I'm not worried about whether or not Fleur will make an appearance. Granted it's your fic you do what you want. Yeah, Rowling wrote it so what. She writes it how she wants it, you write it how you want it, and I say it how I see it.

Here's how I see it: Ginvera Weasley is the seventh and youngest child of Arthur and Molly Weasley, as well as the only daughter. Because of this she's going to get influenced a lot by her brothers whether good or bad. Now, granted there will be times, when she gets older that she doesn't follow what they do or she does her own thing. Girls are like that.

Not only that, but most girls mature faster than boys. To me despite the fact that there were times were she was immature and other times where she was more mature than Ron. I imagine that Hermione would have a positive influence on her at Hogwarts, and I don't mean as far as studying goes.

Book six comes, and it's like a bit of a reversal of things or it's gone in another direction I didn't think it would go. Now that's aside from the Harry/Ginny pairing. Of course that itself was a surprise as I said I didn't think Harry would start dating again. I'm glad you agree with me on that. Even Remus/Tonks was one that well, didn't shock me just creeped me out.

In fact I was shocked that Ginny would behave that way. I think I would've expected that if she were say a first or second year, maybe even a third year, but a fifth year?

BTW: There is stuff that can be disputed: The most famous one is Marcus Flint, who apparently repeated the same grade twice. There's others such as when exactly did Harry arrive at the Dursleys: What day of the week, and what year.

Apparently some references were made about video games, that couldn't have come out at certain point in the story because the game wasn't released until a few years later. More of that can be found at the Harry Potter Lexicon website.

I never said anything about Cho making an appearance, or being concerned whether or not she'd show, I was using her as an example, because people have the tendency to do that to her, which isn't fair to her.

Q: Is your reason (s) for not liking Cho because 1) She dated Harry, and that anyone other than dating Ginny is wrong. 2) She's weepy, because dude that's not right. 3) You just don't like her, which I suppose is fine. Although you have to wonder how Harry can be so quick to know what to do and what not to do when it comes to dating, even though he's had little experience in that area.

As for the compliment, you're welcome. Just continue to take your time with developing the characters relationships.

Actually if Harry survives Voldermort, you hope that Ginny will still be there. For all we know she could die as well. A friend of mine, the Duke of Fenwick told me he believes that Harry will make it to the end of the book, but that the book will be finished by Neville.

Meaning he believes there should be an epilogue saying what happened to everyone after the fall of Voldie. Now there's also the possibility that Harry survives but doesn't come out of it per se. More like Shell Shock or that sort of thing, and may not want to be with Ginny or remember her.

Keep up the good work. HP/DG forever

I'm glad that you liked the chapter. I don't like Cho because I feel that she made life a little harder for Harry in a life that has too many hardships already. I know that she really didn't mean to, but she seems to be very self-centered and she did. She also seemed very immature and excuse the expression, too "girly" for Harry. Maybe I just didn't like her for him, so I don't like her at all.

I think the good thing about Ginny is she knows when it is appropriate to be immature and when it is not. (She is a sibling to Fred and George after all). Ginny seems to generally be mature about the right things. She will see Fleur in a different light now (at least somewhat), I'm sure and quit calling phlegm. Thanks for the review.

LittleViperPhan
2006-01-10
ch 16, reply

Love your fic!
Please continue soon!

Thanks so much!

Randomisation
2006-01-10
ch 16, reply

gr8 chapter! please continue!

Thank you!

tyger
2006-01-08
ch 16, anon.

yay an update! I liked the change in writing style (but I didn't notice it until you mentioned it). This chapter is much better than the last one (e.g. more productive). Keep up the good work!

Well, thanks for keeping an eye out for me anyways:) Yeah, I kinda forced myself to write that chapter that was on the less productive side and will never force myself to write again. Thanks for the review!

SpaceyChic468
2006-01-08
ch 16, reply

Great chappie! Well, I didn't really notice anything different, but that may have been because I read the previous chappie a while ago...anyway, this one still had great description, I think, and it's great to know you've gotten your motivation back (it would have been so tragic if you'd stopped writing this!) Nice to know you haven't died:) Great job and update soon!

P.S. Poor Ginny...she's kinda stuck, isn't she?

Thanks so much! I will NEVER stop writing, but for me, they key to a semi-decent chapter is to write when I am motivated. Unfortunately, that comes every three months or so. Glad to see you liked this chapter! Yeah, Ginny is REALLY stuck now…but not for long.

pinkpygmypuff
2006-01-08
ch 16, reply

hey its felicity...just dropping you a line to tell you how much i love your story...its perfect! at first you could tell that ginny and draco were together..it was kinda obvious and i was like ew! but when you explained i understood right away!
Felicity

YAY! I'm glad that you understand it! Thanks so much for the review! I'm glad that you liked it!

CamelKatie
2006-01-08
ch 16, reply

Hey, sweet, another chapter. I love this story, it's fantastic. You write spectacularly, I love the way you write characters and describe things.

It's awful to see Ginny with Draco. Draco is an evil, evil person, and does not deserve anything that Ginny could give him. It may not be politically or morally correct but I hope he comes to a violent and painful ending. Maybe you could stick him in a blender or something? With some of that disgusting stuff people put on their nails when they want to stop biting them? 'Cause that stuff is gross.

I also just wanted to thank you for not throwing Hermione and Ron in a bed the moment they got together. I've read lots of awsome fan fiction where the author stick them in a bed almost immediately, and then Hermione ends up up the duff, and it ruins the whole sotry, 'cause that's not what happens in real life, and it's definately not what would happen in a Harry Potter book. Ron just doesn't seem like the kind of bloke to go and sleep with someone immediately, and neither does Hermione (though she's not really a bloke).

Wow. I've written so much rubbish. Sorry for wasting your time. I'm just glad you've updated this story and havn't gone and carked it or something. 'Cause this story is a beaut. So. Cheers for the chapter.

LOL! This review made me laugh! Draco does not deserve her. I'm nervous as to what you have to say after reading this chapter! AND, I don't think I'll have Ron and Hermione be in bed together ever…something just does not seem right about that. Hey, I love long reviews! They are awesome and thank you for yours!