That's what everyone had been keeping from Caylin. Matt sat down on the bed; he put his head in hands and took a deep breath.

"It was about six months ago, we were somewhere with Randy and Rachel at a show somewhere. John was there. It was the night you were sick and went back to the hotel and I went out with everyone. John got a little drunk and when I mentioned your name he let it spill that you were the reason he ended his engagement. When he realized you were coming to work for the WWE, he ended it because he knew he wanted to be with you. Well that's when you and I got back together. He said you never knew, did you?"

"NO, and why did everyone keep this a secret? Why did you lie to me Matt?"

"I don't know. I guess I thought if you didn't know then things couldn't change between us."

"Why would things change between us anyways?"

"I don't know."

"You lied to me Matt; Randy lied to me, Rachel lied to me. Everyone I love lied to me. How in the hell does John think we can be friends when he lied to me. Every time I asked you what the tension was about between you and John and you lied. He lied…everyone lied."

"Cay. Calm down. We did it for your own good"

"My own good…you did it for your own good Matt."- With that she started throwing clothes into a suitcase.

"Cay what are you doing?"

"I am getting out of here. I can't stay here."

"Cay. Where are you going?"

"I don't know. Just away from you, from everyone that lied to me."

She threw on some clothes grabbed everything she would need for a few days and flew down the stairs with Matt at her heels.

"Cay please don't go"

"I have to"- with that she walked out the door and to her SUV. She had no clue where she would go at 1 am. She grabbed her cell and made a call then made her way there. She parked in the driveway and got out. She was met at the door by a familiar face. Kerry, a friend and colleague from her practice.

"Oh, Caylin come in. I am so sorry"

"Its okay Kerry, thanks for letting me stay tonight. I am going to take a little trip tomorrow."

"Do you want to talk or just sleep?"

"I need a drink…got anything?"

"You know I do girl."- With that they made their way to the kitchen and made a few drinks. They talked and Caylin explained what all went on. She finally had to turn her phone off because if Matt wasn't calling, Rachel was calling, if not them then Randy. She didn't want to speak to any of them; they had all lied to her about something that should have been told to her. She was a reason for ruining someone else's life (john's ex-fiancé) and she had no clue. She couldn't understand why John had not spoken up about his feelings sooner. She kind of chuckled and looked at Kerry…."I guess that's why he wasn't at the wedding, huh?" both girls being drunk found the comment hilarious. They soon went upstairs and went to sleep. The next day Caylin got up showered and booked a flight. Kerry drove her to the airport and they said their goodbyes. While Caylin was waiting for her flight she decided to check her messages. Her voicemail box was full of messages from Matt, Rachel and Randy. Randy had only left one; he knew his cousin was extremely hurt and upset at this point of time. He had hated lying to her, but he knew it was for everyone's best interest because Caylin was already married when John admitted his true feelings and Randy knew Caylin loved Matt. Caylin rolled her eyes and tried not to cry as she listened to everyone's messages then she heard the last message.

Hey Cay, It's John. I spoke with Randy and I know what happened. I am so sorry. I never meant for anything like this to happen. Everyone is worried sick about you especially Matt. Please call and let them know you are okay. I hope you give me the chance to explain everything to you and I hope I haven't ruined our friendship once again.

Caylin rolled her eyes once again and wiped the tears that she hadn't been able to hold back. Why was her whole world being turned upside down? Her thoughts were interrupted by her flight being called. She decided she did need to let them know she was okay; it had been over 12 hrs since they heard from her. She picked up her cell and texted Rachel.

"I am fine. Don't worry. Don't ask where I am and where I am going because honestly I don't know. I will talk when I am ready."

It wasn't but a second before Rachel replied,

"Cay. Please be careful. Call me soon! I am so sorry. Matt and Randy are going crazy."

Caylin left the message at that and didn't reply. She buckled her seat belt and soon her plane was on its way to the destination. Meanwhile, Rachel, Randy and Matt were all nervous wrecks. All three knew what a mistake they made, but there was nothing they could do now. They were all relieved when Rachel got her text, but when Caylin didn't text back all three knew that this situation was serious. Matt was physically ill. He had been puking all night and day since she had left. Randy and Rachel hadn't slept any and were beginning to bicker with each other. Matt just kept seeing pictures of them sitting around the house and his sick feeling kept getting worse and worse. Randy looked at Matt, "dude you know of anyone she would go to in the middle of the night?"

"well the only person I can think of…" like a light bulb turning on …"KERRY". Matt grabbed his cell and searched for her number; he pulled it up and hit send.

Kerry answered, "Hello"

"Kerry…Its Matt…have you seen Caylin?"

"Well Matt, Yeah...She came here early this morning"

"Where is she at now?"

"On a plane somewhere"

"Where?"

"Matt I don't know. She didn't tell me. She asked me to take her to the airport and that was it. Her vehicle is still here if you want to come and get it. If I knew Matt I would tell you, but she wouldn't tell me."

"She wouldn't tell me because she knew you would tell me. She's too smart for that. Thanks Kerry. I may or may not come get the truck. Thanks for everything."

"If I hear from her Matt I will let you know, she's really upset. I hope you know that."

"I know. Thanks though!"- With that Matt hung up and phone and begin to fill Randy and Rachel in on what little information he did gain. A light bulb went off in Randy's head; he knew where his cousin had went, but it would only make the situation worse if he were to voice his idea. Rachel looked at Randy and saw the look in his eyes and she knew that he knew where Caylin was going. Meanwhile, Caylin's plane landed. She checked out a rental car and took about an hour drive. She pulled out her directions just to make sure she didn't get lost and in about ten minutes she pulled into a driveway. She fixed her hair and makeup and good a huge deep breath before getting out of the vehicle. She walked up to the door and knocked. In just a few seconds she was greeted at the door, she looked at the figure and said, "You want the chance to explain…so explain it!" John stood at the door in shock to see Caylin standing there. He muttered, "Come in Cay"

She walked in the door and shot him a look, "only my friends call me Cay"

"Caylin…"

"My friends don't lie to me for what….5 years? You have known me for 5 years John. Why did you lie?"

"It protected everyone"

"What?"

"Look Caylin, I always had a little thing for you when we would come hang out with you guys. Then when Randy started dating Rachel and we all started seeing each other more, then there was our one night. That did it Cay; I fell for you even more. I was dating Sara, but it was nothing serious. You were always dating someone. I mean you were a cheerleader for the University of Kentucky and I was some pro-wrestler wanna be at that time. Then there was Randy. He didn't know until everyone else found out about my feelings for you. He told all the other guys at OVW to not get any ideas, Cay I heard how he threatened their life even the ones you dated. I was also sure that you didn't feel the same, so why say something and wreak so much havoc on everyone? There was no point. Well so I thought I had moved on…things with Sara were great. I knew that once you were done with Med School you were going back to New York. You always said that. So things were great with Sara, I did love her, so I per posed. We had been engaged for awhile and things were getting really rocky. No one knows the full story, so I am going to tell you now. Things were rocky with Sara and Me. She even cheated on me, but she was honest and I was trying to work through it. Then Randy mentioned you were going to work for the WWE and we had already been called up. So I saw that as an ultimate sign. I tried to work things out with Sara for a little while longer and we both agreed it wasn't working. So we broke off the engagement. I never told anyone until that night that I spilled it to everyone. I had planned to take you and tell you how I felt once I saw you again. I didn't get that chance. You got assigned to Tough Enough and well we all know what happened there." John looked at Caylin. She was in tears and silent. "Caylin say something please"

"What am I suppose to say John?"

"I don't know"- John sat on the sofa with his head in his hands. He looked at Caylin. "They know where you are?"

"No...Well Randy has probably figured it out by now. I just needed answers. I don't see how so many people I care about can lie to me"

"We didn't mean to lie to you to hurt you; we were trying to protect you"

"I don't need protecting. I need the truth."

"I gave it to you. Caylin you need to call and tell them where you are."

"I know"

"Caylin look I am sorry for all the pain this has caused you. That's the last thing I wanted to happen was for you to get hurt."

"I know, but it doesn't change the fact that all of you lied to me. My question is when you spilled it that night, why didn't you and Matt and Randy and Rachel tell me? Why didn't we handle it all like adults? You guys hid the truth from me and treated me like a child."

"I am not placing blame here Caylin. I agreed to it. Rachel and Randy suggested that option but Matt refused. He said he didn't want you knowing any of it. He was your husband so I did as he wished; the last thing I wanted was to cause problems." Caylin could see the sincerity in his eyes and could hear it in his voice. She smiled, "I know John. I know"- with that she grabbed her cell and called Randy.

"Caylin…"

"Hey Rand..I am fine"

"Where are you?"

"Why are you asking? You already figured it out by now haven't you?"

"Yeah…Johns?"

"Yeah…"- Matt overheard Randy said John's name and jerked the phone from his hand.

"Cay...What are you doing there?"

"I needed some answers Matt."

"Answers from him?"

"Well you weren't giving me any. All you gave me were lies. For 6 months you have lied to me Matt. We took vows."

"I know Cay…I am sorry"

"Sorry doesn't cut it anymore."

"Caylin..Please"
"Look Matt…I don't know where to go from here. I need time."

"What are you saying Caylin?"

"I don't know Matt. I will call you later when I go to the hotel"

"Okay. Please remember I love you"

"Ok" Caylin hung up her phone and her and John began talking again. He finally convinced her to let him take her to grab some dinner. He took her to the hotel and she was asleep in no time. Matt was sitting at home the whole time waiting for her call. She turned her phone off so she could get some sleep. Finally at midnight he decided to go have some drinks. He was certain that Caylin had stayed at John's because she said she would call him when she returned to the hotel. And she had yet to call. He didn't think about the possibility of her being asleep, just the possibility of her betraying him.

Matt was at the bar with some friends and he was beyond drunk. He couldn't even walk much less talk. He ran into some random ring rat from OVW. He clearly wasn't in his right mind when he began to flirt with her. She flirted back of course and she saw the gorgeous diamond studded platinum wedding band that was on his finger and still pursued him more. It was all a game to her, in about an hour or so and about ten more shots later, she was walking him out to cab to head to her apartment. One of Matt's friends had tried to stop him but couldn't. He knew that Randy and Rachel were still at Matt's so made a visit.

"Johnny. Dude how are you?"- Randy said opening the door.

"Randy I am sorry to come over like this, but it's Matt."

"What's wrong?"

"We were at the bar having drinks. He had way too many. I was trying to get him out of there to let me bring him home about 2 hours ago and he wouldn't let me. Then he started flirting with some random ring rat. I tried to stop him but he left with her. Randy, Matt is so far beyond drunk. He can't talk and can barely walk. I am scared of what he is going to do. I am afraid he will make things worse than what they are."

"Thanks Johnny, I wish there was something I could do. I can't just go find him and burst in on him. That's not my place, if he breaks his vows to my cousin, I will break him, literally. I'd hate to know what she would do to him when she finds out."

"Does she need to know Randy?"

"HELL YES! There has been enough lying going on the past 6 months. That's how Matt got into the situation. He was too insecure and jealous to tell Caylin the truth about John. He was afraid she would want to explore her options and then leave him. He has always been jealous of that part of her life he wasn't apart of."

Rachel was sitting on the sofa in tears. She just didn't understand how her best friend's marriage got this far gone. She was beginning to become so scared of the future had in store for Randy and her. Did marriage really change things? If it did, was it for the worse? Would they be making a mistake by getting married? Randy snapped her out of her thoughts when he asked her for advice about what to do.

"Randy I don't know. I really don't know anything anymore."

"I know. I know"- he pulled her to him and just held her as Johnny and him continued to talk hoping that Matt would come walking in the door at any minute. A few hours later Johnny gave up and went home. Randy and Rachel went to bed. They both knew that the unthinkable had happened and were both nauseous. Early the next morning, Randy and Rachel got up early to pack and leave. They were flying back to St. Louis. They knew Caylin would need a place to come once everything transpired. Randy also knew he would kill Matt if he was with him long enough. Randy could sense something was wrong with Rachel. He didn't want to pry because he knew that would make matters worse. He just stood back and paid close attention to her so he could begin to try to figure it out. He had gotten really good at that in all the years they had dated. Randy was gathering their luggage and had called cab to come pick them up. It was 10 am and Matt had not returned. A few minutes later he came stumbling through the door. His eyes met Randy's and Matt lost it. He started crying. Randy just looked at him coldly, he really didn't have any compassion for him at this point of time. Rachel came down the stairs to see Matt in tears and went to see if he was okay. All he could say was, "I screwed up!" Rachel didn't beat around the bush, she just asked him, "Matt what did you do last night?"

"The stupidest thing I could have ever done. I swear I don't remember doing it guys. I just remember waking up this morning. The last thing I remember was fighting with Johnny about not wanting to go home. That's it I swear. Randy, dude, talk to me please" Randy looked at him sternly, "Matt I have nothing to say to you. Rachel lets go."

"Where are you guys going?"

"HOME"- Randy replied looking at Rachel who was still sitting beside Matt.

"Matt, if you need anything just call okay. Are you okay to stay here alone? Call if you hear from Caylin. We will do the same"

"I will make it through some how Rach. Thanks a lot. I will…please don't tell her because that's my place. I have to look her in the eye and break her heart again." Randy wasn't impressed, he looked at Matt, "YOU DID IT!"

"I know Randy" Rachel saw the look in Randy's eyes and knew it was time to go. Rachel hugged Matt and they left.