In the cab on the way to the airport, Randy was frustrated and began to take it out on Rachel.

"What in the hell was that back there?"

"What was what Randy?"

"You befriending him"

"He is our friend too Randy. They BOTH need us now. I know you are upset because of what happened and you are protecting Cay, but did you not see how upset he was. He didn't mean to hurt her."

"Yeah but he did. Are you not going to take Cay's side in this, she is your best friend."

"YES, I am there for her 100, but Matt needs someone too. He is hurting also Randy. What if we were in there situation"

"We aren't and we won't ever be"

"How do you know that?"

"Because I know, what's with that question? Our relationship won't get that screwed up."

"Yeah well and Caylin never thought hers would either, now look at them"

"What are you saying Rachel?"- with that the cold iced blue eyes of Randy turned to the calm sympathetic ocean blue eyes that Rachel had fell in love with years before. She softened up for fear of them fighting even more. She just smiled and tried to shrug the question off with a kiss. Randy kissed her back then finished with, "are you going to answer my question?"

"Not now. Can we talk when we get home?"

"Yeah"- they arrived at the airport and soon boarded their plane for St. Louis.

Caylin woke up at the hotel. She realized she had forgotten to call Matt. She really didn't want to but she knew she needed too. She had a sick feeling in her stomach and knew something was wrong. She dialed the number and after a few rings he picked up.

"Hello"

"Matt"

"Cay. Where are you?"

"Hotel. I fell asleep after I took a relaxing bath and didn't call. I am sorry for that."

"So that's what happened?"

"Yes, why do you say that?"

"I didn't know. I thought you didn't go back to the hotel"

"Matt don't start."

"I am not."- She could tell by the tone of his voice that something was wrong.

"Matt what's wrong?"

"Everything Cay, everything"

"Tell me what's wrong"

"Cay how did things get so screwed up?"

"I don't know. How did we get to where we are?"

"Me, it's my fault. I handled things the wrong way and then everything backfired and it keeps getting worse. I keep screwing up."

"Matt…what happened?"- That was a question she didn't want to ask. She had a lump in her throat and felt as if she was going to be sick. She just had an utterly bad feeling.

"I can't tell you over the phone. It's to much" As Matt finished that sentence Caylin beginning crying. She knew what it was. She couldn't bear to hear him say it either. Matt heard her crying as he was crying. She finally mumbled, "Please tell me you didn't break your vows?"
She heard him sobbing even more and knew that answer. She didn't know what else to do. She shut her cell, turned it off and took a shower. She cried and cried till she couldn't cry anymore. She didn't want to be alone so she called John. He invited her over of course. When she showed up at mess at his door, he welcomed her in with open arms and immediately tried to take care of. It was nice having someone care about her needs. After a few hours of talking he finally convinced her to eat something. They started watching a few movies. Caylin had a few drinks, but wasn't drunk. She was trying to drink her problems away but it wasn't working. John's company proved to be more of a help than the alcohol. They were watching some horror movie and Caylin screamed and jumped in John's arms. He had been laughing about it all night until then, that was not the time for laughter. Caylin leaned in and kissed him. He got lost in the moment and kissed her back. Before they realized it, it was beginning to get out of hand. John's hands were up her shirt and he was lying atop her on the sofa. Reality hit him and he pulled back.

"Cay we can't do this"

"Why not?"

"Cay, you are hurt and upset. Two wrongs don't make a right, you know that."

"I know"

"You would hate yourself and I can't handle that. I can't handle being the reason you hate yourself. I care about you way to much."

"Thanks John"

"Your welcome"

"Well I guess I need to be getting back to the hotel. I have an early flight"

"Are you going home Cay?"

"Yeah, but I actually got offered my job back with RAW if I want it. Now I think I may take it to get away and clear my head"

"Caylin, you do what you need to do for yourself. Don't think of anyone else. You need to take care of yourself before you can do anything else. Ok?"

"I know and thanks again John for being here. For being the one I can trust."

"You are welcome, promise me you will put you first?"

"I promise!"- With that John walked Caylin out the door and she went back to her hotel. She made a call to Rachel. Rachel knew by the sound of her voice that Caylin knew what Matt had done.

"Cay are you okay?"

"No, yes, I don't know. How did my life get so screwed up Rach?"

"It isn't screwed up"

"YES IT IS!"

"OK, well you are right, but Caylin you need to get it together darling"

"How do I get it together? I don't even know what's left of me to get together anymore?"

"I know, but Caylin Marie, you are feeling sorry for yourself. In the past 15 years, you have never felt sorry for yourself, even when your dad passed. You have always been strong Cay. If anyone can get through this, its you"

"Thanks Rachel, but you know what. I am just not strong anymore. I am so weak from fighting and trying to save the marriage. I can't believe he broke his vows to me."

"Cay, it was a mistake. He loves you."

"Well he shouldn't open his zipper for anyone else but me if he loves me." Rachel knew her friend was beyond feeling sorry for herself. She was at the stage of self-pity and down right anger. She knew anything else she said would only infuriate her even more so she put Randy on the phone. Randy knew exactly what to say to calm her down. They got off the phone shortly and Randy shot Rachel a look.

"She thinks you are taking Matt's side"

"But I am not. I am just trying to help both of them"

"She sees it as you are defending his actions and right now Rachel she needs you. Matt was in the wrong, I know you want things to work for them, but he committed adultery. There is no way to justify that. I know that he didn't set out to do that, I know he does truly love Cay, but he did it and that's just it."

"I know baby, but I just want Caylin to get her life back. I was so happy when she called and said she was coming to visit. I never dreamed it would be because her life was such a mess. I just want to help"- Rachel said as she looked at Randy with tears in her eyes.

"Baby this is something we can't help. We just need to be there for Cay. Matt will understand. He knows we are friends with him too, but right now Cay is the main concern."- Randy said as he pulled Rachel close to him.

"I know...Thanks baby!"- Randy pulled her to him and kissed her forehead and they watched some TV before drifting off to sleep. Meanwhile Matt was sitting in the house in the dark with just the light from the TV filling the room. He was watching the video from Caylin and his wedding day. It was pre-wedding and Rachel had the camera with the girls are the salon getting pedicures and manicures and waiting for their hair and makeup to be done. The smile on Caylin's face was just beautiful. Her smile on the TV lit the room up there where he sat. He turned the volume up on the TV to hear the conversation between the girls.

Caylin, why are you marrying Matt again?"- Rachel was laughing she wanted to capture all of this on video so Matt could see how excited Caylin had been. Most brides would cry and be a nervous wreck, but not Caylin. The only thing she worried about was falling and making sure she looked beautiful for Matt.

"Rach, I have told you a million of times"- she said smiling.

"I know but you haven't told the camera"- Rachel moved in closer with the camera and Caylin begin, "because Matt is a wonderful man. He is by far the love of my life. He makes my heart flutter with just one look. I could crawl out of bed and brush my teeth and still be as beautiful to him as a super model. He makes me smile, He makes me cry and he makes me laugh. I feel so safe with him and I have the chance to spend the rest of my life with such an amazing man."- Now Caylin was crying along with all the other bridesmaids. Matt sat on the sofa in tears and continued watching his bride get ready to meet him at the alter. Once the video had finished, he decided to torture himself more by putting in the ceremony.

He cried when he saw Caylin walking down the aisle in her Vera Wang designer wedding gown, a wedding gift from her Aunt Elaine and Uncle Bob. He watched her walk down the aisle, then he had to stop it because he was about to go insane. He was crying and stuck all in the house alone. He cried a few more minutes then decided to go pay a friend a visit. Meanwhile Caylin was touched by what Rachel had to say. Rachel was right, she had never felt sorry for herself and why should she start now? She had a gorgeous man that had been in love with her for over 5 years. She made up her mind and quickly got dressed. She touched up her makeup and hair. She was leaving the hotel as she was calling a familiar number.

"Cay what's up?"

"Nothing, hey is I okay if I come over?"

"You know that answer, you okay to drive or want me to come get you?"

"I can drive, I am on my way. I just wanted to make sure it was okay."

"Okay, is everything okay?"

"Yeah, I will see you in a few minutes." It wasn't long till Caylin pulled into John's driveway. John met her at the door with a look of concern. She smiled at him,

"I am fine John." They walked inside and sat down, Caylin looked at John, "you told me to take care of me"

"Yes and I mean that. I want you to take care of yourself"

"Ok, well I am taking care of me."- With that she leaned in and kissed him very passionately. Their kissing soon escaladed to more. John found himself on top of Caylin about to remove her shirt when he back off.

"Cay, this is wrong. You are married"

"Look me in the eye and tell me its wrong John" He tried and he couldn't do it. Caylin had a point; there was nothing in him that felt that it was wrong. She kissed him again, this time he picked her up and carried her up the stairs. He laid her on the bed never once removing his lips from hers or from her neck. He soon removed her top following by his. They each were alternating between kissing each other. Caylin went to help slide her jeans off when the sparkle from her wedding ring caught John's eye. He looked at her, placed a finger on it and checked for her approval, and then he carefully removed the ring and placed it in the stand beside the bed. They then continued what they were doing. He removed his pants and then hers. Caylin fell asleep in John's arms that night. She woke up the next morning feeling better than she had in a long time until she looked over and spotted her ring there on the stand. Her heart sank in her chest and she felt as if she was going to vomit. She jumped out of the bed and ran to the bathroom. John wasn't too far behind her checking to make sure she was okay. The look of concern was evident in his eyes, and just his presence made Caylin feel a lot better.

"Cay, you okay?"

"Yeah"

"Look, I am sorry about last night. We made a mistake" John said as Caylin looked at him.

"We didn't either. I admit seeing my ring was hard to do, but I don't regret last night for anything."

"Ok, well you missed your flight"- He was trying hard to change the subject as she began brushing her teeth.

"That's okay; I will just book another one." Caylin answered in between brushing.

"Thought you were coming to work for the WWE?"

"Shit today is house shows isn't it?"- She said once she finished.

"Yeah, well you can always fly with me"

"That sounds inviting"- John kissed her. Caylin broke the kiss, "Randy can't know"

"NO, he will murder me. Caylin, what are you going to do about Matt?"

"I don't know."

"Ok, I won't pressure you; you want me to take you to the hotel? Our flight leaves in 3 hours"

"I will go on and shower and get my stuff. I will meet you at the airport. I have to turn in my rental."

"Okay..."- John walked her to the door and returned to take a shower. Caylin met John at the airport. There was an uncomfortable silence when they first saw each other, before John began cracking jokes. They boarded the plane and headed to Nebraska. John kissed Caylin before getting off the plane. They got off the plane trying to act as if nothing happened. Randy and Rachel met them at the airport. Rachel saw the look in Caylin's eyes and knew that things were about to take another tail spin. They drove to the arena all in silence. Randy was scared that Caylin was still upset and Rachel was trying to figure out the look on Caylin's face. Rachel had a sinking feeling in her stomach. John and Caylin were trying not to give anything away. Caylin's cell rang. She looked at the number and took a deep breath, "guess I got to do this sometime huh?" as she looked at Rachel.

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